Introduction

Hello. As you'd have guessed this is my first post having just come across this site. Before I go on I want to applaud the site's creator and all those that contribute - thankyou.

So I figure I've always been a procrastinator, or at least since high school. Back then as I recall, I would start an assignment enthusiastically but soon loose interest and end up rushing it the night before resulting in crappy work. I guess this is not an uncommon experience here.

Over time things have gotten steadily worse such that for the past few years I've been totally dismayed at my lack of work ethic. I can confidently say that I normally spend around 20% of my work hours actually doing what I should be. It may seem strange that this hasn't resulted in loss of employment but I work for government (a overly lenient employer) and have a good deal of autonomy. I've opened up about this problem to two prior bosses (although hiding the seriousness) but it is brushed over. Heck I even got a pay rise last year and a monthly staff award for doing something that I shouldn't have been - so you can see external rewards and punishments are not working in my best interest.

The thing is that I can't keep living this way. I have more unfinished projects than I can remember, both at work and at home. I feel I've disappointed so many people in not delivering on promises, but mostly I've disappointed myself. I know that under certain circumstances I can get focused but I just can't keep it going. I only hope that here I might find support before a more serious consequence comes my way.

Deej