After wasting most of my afternoon, I find myself here. I started coming to this site last week after I had a day similar to this one. Sitting around and waiting for the "special moment" to get going on my work again.
My procrastinatin is taking a serious mental toll on me right now. I recently graduated from grad school and miraculously found a job in this economy. But I'm doing nothing to prevent myself from getting let go. Is the job difficult? Sure, but not impossible work. Stuff I'm familiar with at the very least. I now I can do it but I choose not to.
To compound this issue, my wife has recently become pregnant. In preparing for this, I know that we cannot afford to live on just one income. My losing this job would be disastrous for us. But I still don't stop procrastinating.
If this post sounds familiar to you, I am sorry for you too. I suppose that's why people come here. I get empathy and answers to thier problems. I not sure which one I need more right now.
I go through such drastic highs and lows. When I complete something, I am incredibley elated. I am visibly happy. But the opposite is also true. When I screw around and get nothing done I mope around and everyone knows I'm upset. Of course, I can't tell them what's on my mind b/c I risk losing my job, so I come here instead.
I've read many posts and still I feel stuck. I'm obviously depressed but it's only because I haven't worked this afternoon. If I go and get something done after this, I will be good to go...
God, it is so frustrating writing this shit out! I'm sitting here reading this and thinking, "Well, why don't you just go do it then". I wish it were that simple.