I am so _______
Fill in the blank. Its a seven letter word. Rhymes with rude, which I'd be if I actually used the word.
I have two essays due tomorrow. I haven't started either of them. I've decided I'll start it RIGHT after I eat dinner (same ole procrastinator mentallity).
Hopefully it will snow/sleet bad enough that my school will close.
I have to start applying to colleges. I've hardly filled out a college application. I don't feel like doing it.
I've seriously been having issues lately. Like I am really starting to question my will power, my ability to make choices, my free will. I've been thinking that the ability to make choices is quite paradoxical because every cause has an effect. So all choices I make will inevitably be the reaction to some kind of cause, negating the idea of "free will". So the idea of free will is stupid and we're all robots. Thats the kind of things I've been thinking lately.
Can someone explain to me how free will does exist? Any theories?
Also, my mind has been filled with so many doubts, so many questions, so much confusion, that I've wanted to simplify it by just ending it all. If I don't get into college, I'm definitely ending it all. I just have no motivation...and those ideas that "free will" doesn't exist isn't helping either. And yes, my username is based on the Modest Mouse song of which I was obsessively listening to. Gotta keep floating on.