Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Rain here all day. Wrapped things in plastic bags before taking them to new condo. Showered at gym & got ready for work. Did all deadline projects before work. Mid-day ate lunch & paid 2 bills. Did other projects in afternoon, and typed updated Work Task List for Monday. Got home from work and had to do Step Ten. Next: try to do at least one chore, before going out to 12-step meeting tonight.
I have masses of grading and some report writing I have to do this weekend.
The grading should have been done last June!!!!
I have 13 days untill report cards are due.
Last time paralysis struck.
This time I must find a way to accomplish this and to accomplish it with some integrity.
The plan for today work for 60 minutes and do other tasks for 30 minutes using a timer.
Check in to refocus during the 30 minute breaks.
Onwards:
7.50 walk dog and brush teeth
8.20 work on grading 11B paper
9.30 another doggy walk he is driving me crazy and do a little bit of laundry
10.00 am continue with grading
11.00 am
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
Using the timer and chat box is mostly working so far.
Have gone slightly time over but so far the day has been OK.
No paralysis and small doable tasks on a huge task that is report writing.
Onwards:
7.50 walk dog and brush teeth
8.20 work on grading 11B paper
9.30 another doggy walk he is driving me crazy and do a little bit of laundry
10.00 am continue with grading
11.00 am
Really 11.30 am ....30 minutes in kitchen and bedrooom
12.30 more grading
1.00 back after only 30 minutes of marking papers.....feeling edgy and need an ustructured break.....back at 1.30
3.45!!!OOPS! nearly a 3 hour break. had a nap and some food. No point crying over spilled milk or wasted time.. and 2 and a half hours of grading ws worth doing!.......trying again
4.00 grade
5.00 30 miutes in bedroom and kitchen or laundry
5,30 report back
6.20 went over ...not a bad thing
6.30 some house work
7.00 more grading GRRRRRR
8.00 report back
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
Had terrible news late yesterday that put my entire largest project, and thus my company and my best client, at very high risk. It is regulatory, nothing to do with me or my company, yet I have struggled ever since with feelings of failure. I crunched numbers way late, slept late and woke up worrying. With help this morning from "God as He expresses Himself in our group conscience " that is, J, sponsor, sponsees and a trusted client - I have slowly backed away from the kool-aid of fears and negative thinking, and turned it over to my HP. All that will happen is my business will close, I'll become an employee of my largest client, make less money, have less control, and my life will be simpler without the CEO tasks that I hate anyway. It might actually be really good.
So, back into THIS day, what am I up to? I am committed to healing and contribution, thus:
I've been away from my computer for one reason and another for pretty much a whole week, just now getting back. I'm feeling kind of overwhelmed, so I'm going to start working through my morning routine and get a to-do list going.
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
Good Friday morning everyone! I'm not having a real good morning myself. DD was out with friends last night, DH and I decided on the spur of the moment to go out for pizza. I ate too much, stayed out too late, had trouble sleeping, and I feel like moldy a$$ this morning. We had a good time though :)
So, I'm getting a late start today but I've been to the gym and read email. I'm just now getting around to doing my day starter and planning for the day.
Jo
"For myself, I am an optimist--it does not seem to be much use being anything else."- Winston Churchill
I'm finally moving, mits are done and I have started on MIT #1. Now I'm going for coffee and aspirin. I swear I feel like I have a hangover which is totally not fair since I don't drink Must be a carb overload hangover!
MIT #1 is done. I need to head out and run an errand, but I don't know if I want to do it now or just get out of here a bit early and do it then. I'm still feeling kinda puny so it would be a good excuse to leave work early . . . hmmmm
For now, I'm going to work on MIT #2 for 30 minutes and then decide
Update 4 pm MITs 1 and 2 done, I guess that's pretty good for a down day. I'm leaving early to run my errand.
Jo
"For myself, I am an optimist--it does not seem to be much use being anything else."- Winston Churchill
Ran my errand, picked up dinner. I don't usually check in in the evening but checking in tonight to inspire myself to do those dishes that have been sitting in the sink since Wednesday!! yes, Wednesday!! I also want to make a start on my grocery list. I picked up the grocery ads from my two favorite stores on the way home and I want to base my menus on the sale items.
Jo
"For myself, I am an optimist--it does not seem to be much use being anything else."- Winston Churchill
9:40 : catch up here.
10:20 (40min) : that's a little long, but there was a lot that interested me today. Usually it's like 10-20 min. Gotta keep an eye on this. Now set my MITs which i think will be easy. And set my timer.
11am (40min) : non-work interruption, working on inbox.
11:40 (40min) : inbox is heavy today
11:50 (10min) : feeling ovwmd. still on inbox, and issues are piling up.
12noon (10min) : still owmd. cleaning up disk space not my comfort zone.
12:15 (15min) : wow 15 min went by w/ my fretting. time for quiet time.
12:30 (15min) : reading on line. :( wasted time goes by more quickly than working time, it seems.
1:15 (45min) : more reading on line. but i read jo's & my post from yesterday about beating oneself up == selfishness and i feel better. I believe i am going to have that quiet time now.
2:20: (55min) : quiet time done. was ok. re-read jo's "passed on" advice fr yesterday. ready to take it one step at a time--this came out of quiet time. :)
2:30 (10min) : read mit/mut 1.
2:45 (15min) : mit/mut 1 going. 1 interruption i'm trying to deal w/ quickly.
3pm (15min) : mit/mut 1 humming along. interruption done. i feel better. thank HP.
3:15 (15min) : mit/mut 1 making progress. Thank HP!!!
3:40 (25min) : made decision on mit/mut 1. made lunch.
3:45 (5min) : continued progress
4:00 (15min) : continued progress. Thank HP!
5pm (60min) : progress continues. Continue to rely on and thank HP for brining me back today.
9:45pm : had to stop work unexpectedly early, but have an hour or so now, so i'm going to try to work. hey convalaria is in chat, i think say hello and use chat.
11:30pm : got that mit/mut done at least to a phase where i could share it w/ others to get feedback.
Today's a very busy day: I'm booked pretty much solid from 1 o'clock till 9 or 10 (mostly with fun but necessary things--side note: these obligations get me down just because they're obligations. I really enjoy everything I need to do today but it tears me up that I need to do it all--I know, "demand resistance." Knowing a name for it isn't helping me though). I'm worried about not getting any school work done. I'm afraid of getting started because I'm afraid I'll turn out not to have enough time, and while I worry I waste more time! In reality there's plenty of time to read an article and do a small chunk of studying for the oral exam next week, which is all I really need to do today. Still, I can't get myself up off the couch.
[X]--morning chores
[X]--meditation
[ ]--exercise and shower
[ ]--get to campus: read natural theology article
[ ]--study until 12, then come for home of the lunch and the rest of the day spells itself
I don't usually report back on CIs but today I'm bookending everything. I need the support. Okay, getting started...Now!
8:15 AM chores done, now meditation
8:35 AM meditation was interrupted by baby, whom I now have to change...
that's the way it works. After someone's replied to your post (even you) you can't edit it anymore. I guess that's to prevent the reply from becoming irrelevant or misinterpreted.
Thanks roses and clement. I'm deciding not to do the thing that will make me feel worse in the long run (namely, sticking to the couch and trying to forget the day). Instead I'm moving, doing what I need to do. You're absolutely right about the reinforcement, roses, I feel more positive already.
I can't edit my post anymore for some reason, so I'll update in replies.
something my old therapist taught me was the law of effect.. it says you get more of what you re-enforce.
you've probably experienced it while meditating. when the mind wanders off to some arbitrary thought you bring it back to the focus of your meditation. if you continue to do this, meditation begins to feel fuller and less distracting thoughts occur.
i know exactly how you feel when you say you're stuck to the couch. what helps me is not thinking about what i have to do, but throwing those thoughts out of the window and instead getting up and doing what i planned.
i have found in the past that thinking or worrying about doing something takes up quite a lot of energy. almost as much if not more as doing it would. if i worry first, then try to act i find no energy left to do the action and i just continue worrying!
i used to have the feeling of being nailed to the couch so often! Like weekly. Sometimes daily. Lately, i get the start of the feeling, but i've been able to overcome it. Hmm, i hadn't realized that change til now.
So, i know where you're coming from, and i hated the feeling which i'm gathering you do too. Here's wishing you recovery from it! Take care! HP be with you.
Exhausted this morning, and have a lot of last-minute tasks to finish up.
Scheduled:
*seminars 11-1 and 1-2, meeting 2-2:30
*see cousin's play
MITs:
*Finish short paper (due 11!)
*Finish writeup for PT's project (ugh, this needs to get DONE!)
*Figure out bug in downloading datasets
*Email CY and KM
Other tasks:
*list of Qs for lab members
*get lab key
*Gather treasurer stuff
*email 1 prof
Finishing the short paper is obviously really urgent, so I'm going to work on that now. Goal is to get rough down by 9:45. I'll work in the chatbox to keep myself on track.
I finished writing the short paper, emailed KM and went to seminars. But then I got caught up in a useless mtg on student seminar that I should have bailed out on. I have to leave for cousin's play at 5. In the meantime, I'd like to email CY, figure out bug in downloading datasets, and spend 30 min working on writeup. Back after each of those tasks is done.
Update 4:15--OK, spent way too long emailing CY, just now done with that. Now I'm going to go to lab and try to figure out bug in downloading datasets.
Thank you roses.
I struggle with obyeing my HP.
I frequently know what the next right thing is.
It might be to do something rather than nothing and I do nothing.
What struck and inspired me about your post and is something that I think can do is your statement "Speak only to inspire"
For this inspiraton I wish you the shalom or the peace that you desire
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
weekend: I want to kame real progress on two big projects
Today : from early afternoon: meetings.
minor e-corresp. [x]
prepare for then now: review and printout material [ ]
one errand [ ]
Thanks for the day starter, Roses, and thanks, y'all for the support and inspiration.
Roses, since this is a place for honesty with oneself , i will say I feel I have a lot to learn from the 12 steps, and from those who've makde more progress with HP, but I feel awkward about checking in to an explicitly theistic day-starter.
I know that for me personally experiencing more awareness of HP's guidance and thinking about surrender and service are the most challenging and most important steps right now, and the ones that keep me at this board, where I learn and am inspired by all others here, who have much to teach me from their understanding. --The HP steps bring the first glimmer of hope and experience of change. (Because will power has never helped.) I am very grateful for your presence, posts, and what I learn from you. The 12-step writings about HP which are somehow very universal, rather than faith-specific, have also helped me find a way in that direction.
the things i have been posting.. i suppose the brashness i've noticed in them is to stop me procrastinating. if i don't just click post then i concern myself with what i'm about to say and the impact it will have when read, what people will think and feel, and i will ask myself things like did i make a mistake?, does it flow?, is it relevant, important or appropriate?, how pretentious do i sound?, is it contrived?, how much older than me are the people i'm responding to/ addressing? and how condescending or insulting to their knowledge or opinion could it be? how offensive is it?
answering just one of those questions would sure lead me to procrastinate, and abandon whatever i'd been writing altogether.
and perhaps rightly so; if what i post has those negative qualities then i should post a little less.
i am glad the universality of the steps has helped you. tho it can make things confusing at the same time. i have often thought 'i'm on the path of the pathless.. so what exactly am i supposed to do?'
i have no particular authority to speak on the subject of my post here, but i'll offer my perspective.
I also value the generic nature of the 12 steps. They seem to me to have cut thru to the crux of the matter. God has gotten a bad wrap in many quarters in many ways, and Bill W's "the god of your understanding" avoids all of that. Frankly, i think that's genius. Or, perhaps, inspired.
for me the god-me relationship is the most personal i can imagine. Thus it only makes sense to me that each individual has to work that out on their own. I think the 12 steps allows people that freedom.
There are people who come to the forum for the tools, and not even the 12 steps. I hope they find recovery here, too. I want to support and care for them, if i can, too.
But, roses, i kno what you way about the questioning of your posts. I have the same thing, i often have to "just post it" to cut thru my own procrastination. I trust that HP is going to work it out, no matter what happens.
I think it's fair to keep the threat starter more generic.
I also think it's fair for those who want to share our spiritual views as we're doing in "Victor and Defeat" as we're doing now.
I love AA's meeting format, where they say:
Before we open the meeting for sharing, a word about crosstalk guidelines, which help keep our meeting safe. Crosstalk means giving unsolicited feedback or advice, answering, making "you" and "we" statements, interrogating, debating, criticizing, controlling, or dominating. In our meetings we speak about our own experience, and we listen without comment to what others share. We work toward taking responsibility in our own lives, rather than giving advice to others.
and then:
In closing, we would like to remind you that the opinions expressed here were strictly those of the individual who gave them. Take what you like and leave the rest.
To me this strikes a beautiful balance between everyone being free to say whatever's on their mind, and yet not stepping on others toes. Various people are going to be more or less inspired by various other people, but we can still get along.
Now... i gotta get back to work! :) After all, that's why we're all here :)
i feel that reading the post about crosstalk and the ones getting off the couch and reinforcing things are wisdom that is meant for me today. So now, back from my meeting, I am going to do some chores and then set aside some time to reflect on them.
-roses, thanks for asking :) cold much better! I have trouble knowing the boundary between taking care of myself properly when ill and procrastinating, so it's nice to be past that one now.
-working now on process goal of staying focussed and purposeful in evening, so far, so good, nice time off and now back to a work task work task done; I'm doing better with making evning a mixture of focussed purposeful work and fun. And just starting this task I've done was a small victory, got me into the project. (affirmation I can keep starting, I can take the first step, it feels better to do the task than think about it)
Thanks, y'all for the inspiration I get from reading your posts--hope for progress, consolation from honesty and acceptance. :D
First and Foremost, I gratefully thank the Energy Source that has returned my soul back to me with compassion and has given me the ability to rise and jump into a Proactive Day.
5:30-5:40 Prayer and Meditation
5:40-6:10 Jump on the treadmill for 30 minutes while I flip through CNN, local news etc
6:10-6:40 Shower, eat some breakfast
6:40-6:50 Print Driving Directions.
7:00-4:00 College Tour
4:00 - Until Just Be Can't just be yet.
4:20-4:45 Scan HOA Docs for NB
4:45-5:00 Pay WF.
5:00-5:15 Call Mommy
Last day of the week depending on your job. Stay Motivated. If you can log onto PA, you can do all the things you need to do today.
It was an awesome week for me. Tomorrow is my day of rest so I will just be all day. I appreciate all of the support, love and motivation I have received this week. I will keep it moving into the next week.
Recycler CI 6:30pm EST
Hi Pro Buddies!
Rain here all day. Wrapped things in plastic bags before taking them to new condo. Showered at gym & got ready for work. Did all deadline projects before work. Mid-day ate lunch & paid 2 bills. Did other projects in afternoon, and typed updated Work Task List for Monday. Got home from work and had to do Step Ten. Next: try to do at least one chore, before going out to 12-step meeting tonight.
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Convalalria on Saturday at 7.45 am, 9.30
I have masses of grading and some report writing I have to do this weekend.
The grading should have been done last June!!!!
I have 13 days untill report cards are due.
Last time paralysis struck.
This time I must find a way to accomplish this and to accomplish it with some integrity.
The plan for today work for 60 minutes and do other tasks for 30 minutes using a timer.
Check in to refocus during the 30 minute breaks.
Onwards:
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
sending you solidarity,
sending you solidarity, Convalaria!
Thank you chickadee...I am not giving up just yet.....
Using the timer and chat box is mostly working so far.
Have gone slightly time over but so far the day has been OK.
No paralysis and small doable tasks on a huge task that is report writing.
Onwards:
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
Agnus CI 12:45pm
Had terrible news late yesterday that put my entire largest project, and thus my company and my best client, at very high risk. It is regulatory, nothing to do with me or my company, yet I have struggled ever since with feelings of failure. I crunched numbers way late, slept late and woke up worrying. With help this morning from "God as He expresses Himself in our group conscience " that is, J, sponsor, sponsees and a trusted client - I have slowly backed away from the kool-aid of fears and negative thinking, and turned it over to my HP. All that will happen is my business will close, I'll become an employee of my largest client, make less money, have less control, and my life will be simpler without the CEO tasks that I hate anyway. It might actually be really good.
So, back into THIS day, what am I up to? I am committed to healing and contribution, thus:
comfort to ag
yeah, ag, take care. Sounds like much stress, but also that HP was with you. amen.
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hugs to Agnus!
Best of luck with your project. Hugs!
And congrats on turning worry over to your HP and seeing the good in a bad situation. You are in inspiration!
GeorgeSmiley 11:30 AM
OK. Back from my standing Friday AM breakfast.
MIT#1: Project D-G
MIT#2: Weekly overview
MIT#3: Any project P-1 followup. [Although I sent it yesterday editor never got it, and i had to resend it just this AM, almost 24 hours late.]
The Hero's Code:
Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.
scarlett CI 11:30 am EST
I've been away from my computer for one reason and another for pretty much a whole week, just now getting back. I'm feeling kind of overwhelmed, so I'm going to start working through my morning routine and get a to-do list going.
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
scarlett CI 1:30 pm EST
Okay, here's a to-do list. That's one hurdle. Now to start working on it...
Ta da:
Leave slips
Pay bills; phone
Morning routine
To do:
Email SS & DL to resched
F/u mtg; email responses, sched walkthrough
Read report
Plan next week; const. update,
Choose planner
Dishes
Personal:
Pay bills; visa, buy reward, up $1 to svgs
OT sched on calendar, find
LTV; print homework, read emails
The adrenaline you've been living on only leaves you wanting.
ScottK CI 9:25
Not quite sure how this happened, but I didn't see this check in topic when I checked the forum so I created another one. Sorry about that.
Had a great 12-step meeting this morning so I feel pumped!
Review (edit) white paperPrepare notes for conf callConf CallCall on GREDownload application info for U Chicagoemail to Kate re lunchEmail approval form to Highland ParkCall Dr. HollidayReschedule with MitciJourney 10:15 Ugh
Good Friday morning everyone! I'm not having a real good morning myself. DD was out with friends last night, DH and I decided on the spur of the moment to go out for pizza. I ate too much, stayed out too late, had trouble sleeping, and I feel like moldy a$$ this morning. We had a good time though :)
So, I'm getting a late start today but I've been to the gym and read email. I'm just now getting around to doing my day starter and planning for the day.
Jo
"For myself, I am an optimist--it does not seem to be much use being anything else."- Winston Churchill
Journey 10:55 update 4 pm
I'm finally moving, mits are done and I have started on MIT #1. Now I'm going for coffee and aspirin. I swear I feel like I have a hangover which is totally not fair since I don't drink Must be a carb overload hangover!
Jo
"For myself, I am an optimist--it does not seem to be much use being anything else."- Winston Churchill
Journey 7:30
CL ci
heya,
9:40 : catch up here.
10:20 (40min) : that's a little long, but there was a lot that interested me today. Usually it's like 10-20 min. Gotta keep an eye on this. Now set my MITs which i think will be easy. And set my timer.
11am (40min) : non-work interruption, working on inbox.
11:40 (40min) : inbox is heavy today
11:50 (10min) : feeling ovwmd. still on inbox, and issues are piling up.
12noon (10min) : still owmd. cleaning up disk space not my comfort zone.
12:15 (15min) : wow 15 min went by w/ my fretting. time for quiet time.
12:30 (15min) : reading on line. :( wasted time goes by more quickly than working time, it seems.
1:15 (45min) : more reading on line. but i read jo's & my post from yesterday about beating oneself up == selfishness and i feel better. I believe i am going to have that quiet time now.
2:20: (55min) : quiet time done. was ok. re-read jo's "passed on" advice fr yesterday. ready to take it one step at a time--this came out of quiet time. :)
2:30 (10min) : read mit/mut 1.
2:45 (15min) : mit/mut 1 going. 1 interruption i'm trying to deal w/ quickly.
3pm (15min) : mit/mut 1 humming along. interruption done. i feel better. thank HP.
3:15 (15min) : mit/mut 1 making progress. Thank HP!!!
3:40 (25min) : made decision on mit/mut 1. made lunch.
3:45 (5min) : continued progress
4:00 (15min) : continued progress. Thank HP!
5pm (60min) : progress continues. Continue to rely on and thank HP for brining me back today.
9:45pm : had to stop work unexpectedly early, but have an hour or so now, so i'm going to try to work. hey convalaria is in chat, i think say hello and use chat.
11:30pm : got that mit/mut done at least to a phase where i could share it w/ others to get feedback.
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stuck to the couch
Today's a very busy day: I'm booked pretty much solid from 1 o'clock till 9 or 10 (mostly with fun but necessary things--side note: these obligations get me down just because they're obligations. I really enjoy everything I need to do today but it tears me up that I need to do it all--I know, "demand resistance." Knowing a name for it isn't helping me though). I'm worried about not getting any school work done. I'm afraid of getting started because I'm afraid I'll turn out not to have enough time, and while I worry I waste more time! In reality there's plenty of time to read an article and do a small chunk of studying for the oral exam next week, which is all I really need to do today. Still, I can't get myself up off the couch.
[X]--morning chores
[X]--meditation
[ ]--exercise and shower
[ ]--get to campus: read natural theology article
[ ]--study until 12, then come for home of the lunch and the rest of the day spells itself
I don't usually report back on CIs but today I'm bookending everything. I need the support. Okay, getting started...Now!
8:15 AM chores done, now meditation
8:35 AM meditation was interrupted by baby, whom I now have to change...
--Rolzup
can't edit replied-to posts
that's the way it works. After someone's replied to your post (even you) you can't edit it anymore. I guess that's to prevent the reply from becoming irrelevant or misinterpreted.
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thanks
Thanks roses and clement. I'm deciding not to do the thing that will make me feel worse in the long run (namely, sticking to the couch and trying to forget the day). Instead I'm moving, doing what I need to do. You're absolutely right about the reinforcement, roses, I feel more positive already.
I can't edit my post anymore for some reason, so I'll update in replies.
9:06 [X] exercised and showered!
now to campus.
--Rolzup
more on being stuck on the couch
something my old therapist taught me was the law of effect.. it says you get more of what you re-enforce.
you've probably experienced it while meditating. when the mind wanders off to some arbitrary thought you bring it back to the focus of your meditation. if you continue to do this, meditation begins to feel fuller and less distracting thoughts occur.
i know exactly how you feel when you say you're stuck to the couch. what helps me is not thinking about what i have to do, but throwing those thoughts out of the window and instead getting up and doing what i planned.
i have found in the past that thinking or worrying about doing something takes up quite a lot of energy. almost as much if not more as doing it would. if i worry first, then try to act i find no energy left to do the action and i just continue worrying!
i hope this helps somehow, peace to you.
tom.
re: stuck on couch
i used to have the feeling of being nailed to the couch so often! Like weekly. Sometimes daily. Lately, i get the start of the feeling, but i've been able to overcome it. Hmm, i hadn't realized that change til now.
So, i know where you're coming from, and i hated the feeling which i'm gathering you do too. Here's wishing you recovery from it! Take care! HP be with you.
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Hope-Faith CI 8:15
Good Day To Everyone
Today.......
CIE-mailJuice Bar in SS classroom should be funLesson Plans Friday 2nd 3rd 4thE-mail Students, On-line games, Check blog, Update PPT,Lesson Plans next weekhope-faith
kromer 8:10 CI
Exhausted this morning, and have a lot of last-minute tasks to finish up.
Scheduled:
*seminars 11-1 and 1-2, meeting 2-2:30
*see cousin's play
MITs:
*Finish short paper (due 11!)
*Finish writeup for PT's project (ugh, this needs to get DONE!)
*Figure out bug in downloading datasets
*Email CY and KM
Other tasks:
*list of Qs for lab members
*get lab key
*Gather treasurer stuff
*email 1 prof
Finishing the short paper is obviously really urgent, so I'm going to work on that now. Goal is to get rough down by 9:45. I'll work in the chatbox to keep myself on track.
kromer 3:10 CI
OK, today is not going so great.
I finished writing the short paper, emailed KM and went to seminars. But then I got caught up in a useless mtg on student seminar that I should have bailed out on. I have to leave for cousin's play at 5. In the meantime, I'd like to email CY, figure out bug in downloading datasets, and spend 30 min working on writeup. Back after each of those tasks is done.
Update 4:15--OK, spent way too long emailing CY, just now done with that. Now I'm going to go to lab and try to figure out bug in downloading datasets.
Monica CI 5:50 am
Good morning,
If I can't do it perfectly, I'll do it anyway. If I can't do it all, I'll do some. If I do nothing, nothing gets done.
"I don't feel like it" is a poor excuse for sacrificing your dreams.
roses CI 10:30
Here goes Friday!
up before 09:00eat breakfast away from pcginger teaCI here, check emailspractice drums for an hourexerciseshower, clean teeth and dresspractice songs and covers for an houreat a good lunchcall a friend to meet up today!You guys give me this energy to succeed.
By reverting my eyes to the energy source, so like Cho, i give thanks too.
More peace and love,
your brother tom
thank you roses from Convalaria
Thank you roses.
I struggle with obyeing my HP.
I frequently know what the next right thing is.
It might be to do something rather than nothing and I do nothing.
What struck and inspired me about your post and is something that I think can do is your statement "Speak only to inspire"
For this inspiraton I wish you the shalom or the peace that you desire
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
Chick's friday CI
weekend: I want to kame real progress on two big projects
Today : from early afternoon: meetings.
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Thanks for the day starter, Roses, and thanks, y'all for the support and inspiration.
Roses, since this is a place for honesty with oneself , i will say I feel I have a lot to learn from the 12 steps, and from those who've makde more progress with HP, but I feel awkward about checking in to an explicitly theistic day-starter.
chickadee
please forgive my brashness.. i had a general impression my words due to it were having an effect as such.
thank you for telling me. i will change it right away.
Hi Roses, thanks. /CI
Hi Roses, thanks. /CI update
I know that for me personally experiencing more awareness of HP's guidance and thinking about surrender and service are the most challenging and most important steps right now, and the ones that keep me at this board, where I learn and am inspired by all others here, who have much to teach me from their understanding. --The HP steps bring the first glimmer of hope and experience of change. (Because will power has never helped.) I am very grateful for your presence, posts, and what I learn from you. The 12-step writings about HP which are somehow very universal, rather than faith-specific, have also helped me find a way in that direction.
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the things i have been posting
the things i have been posting.. i suppose the brashness i've noticed in them is to stop me procrastinating. if i don't just click post then i concern myself with what i'm about to say and the impact it will have when read, what people will think and feel, and i will ask myself things like did i make a mistake?, does it flow?, is it relevant, important or appropriate?, how pretentious do i sound?, is it contrived?, how much older than me are the people i'm responding to/ addressing? and how condescending or insulting to their knowledge or opinion could it be? how offensive is it?
answering just one of those questions would sure lead me to procrastinate, and abandon whatever i'd been writing altogether.
and perhaps rightly so; if what i post has those negative qualities then i should post a little less.
i am glad the universality of the steps has helped you. tho it can make things confusing at the same time. i have often thought 'i'm on the path of the pathless.. so what exactly am i supposed to do?'
i hope someday i work it out!
good luck with your day.
and how is your cold?
god and procrastinators-anonymous.org
i have no particular authority to speak on the subject of my post here, but i'll offer my perspective.
I also value the generic nature of the 12 steps. They seem to me to have cut thru to the crux of the matter. God has gotten a bad wrap in many quarters in many ways, and Bill W's "the god of your understanding" avoids all of that. Frankly, i think that's genius. Or, perhaps, inspired.
for me the god-me relationship is the most personal i can imagine. Thus it only makes sense to me that each individual has to work that out on their own. I think the 12 steps allows people that freedom.
There are people who come to the forum for the tools, and not even the 12 steps. I hope they find recovery here, too. I want to support and care for them, if i can, too.
But, roses, i kno what you way about the questioning of your posts. I have the same thing, i often have to "just post it" to cut thru my own procrastination. I trust that HP is going to work it out, no matter what happens.
I think it's fair to keep the threat starter more generic.
I also think it's fair for those who want to share our spiritual views as we're doing in "Victor and Defeat" as we're doing now.
I love AA's meeting format, where they say:
and then:
To me this strikes a beautiful balance between everyone being free to say whatever's on their mind, and yet not stepping on others toes. Various people are going to be more or less inspired by various other people, but we can still get along.
Now... i gotta get back to work! :) After all, that's why we're all here :)
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Thanks clem, thanks roses
Thank you clem, thank you roses...
i feel that reading the post about crosstalk and the ones getting off the couch and reinforcing things are wisdom that is meant for me today. So now, back from my meeting, I am going to do some chores and then set aside some time to reflect on them.
-roses, thanks for asking :) cold much better! I have trouble knowing the boundary between taking care of myself properly when ill and procrastinating, so it's nice to be past that one now.
-working now on process goal of staying focussed and purposeful in evening, so far, so good, nice time off and now back to a work task work task done; I'm doing better with making evning a mixture of focussed purposeful work and fun. And just starting this task I've done was a small victory, got me into the project. (affirmation I can keep starting, I can take the first step, it feels better to do the task than think about it)
Thanks, y'all for the inspiration I get from reading your posts--hope for progress, consolation from honesty and acceptance. :D
Chotrain CI 5:30 AM
First and Foremost, I gratefully thank the Energy Source that has returned my soul back to me with compassion and has given me the ability to rise and jump into a Proactive Day.
5:30-5:40 Prayer and Meditation5:40-6:10 Jump on the treadmill for 30 minutes while I flip through CNN, local news etc6:10-6:40 Shower, eat some breakfast6:40-6:50 Print Driving Directions.7:00-4:00 College Tour4:00 - Until Just BeCan't just be yet.4:20-4:45 Scan HOA Docs for NB4:45-5:00 Pay WF.5:00-5:15 Call MommyLast day of the week depending on your job. Stay Motivated. If you can log onto PA, you can do all the things you need to do today.
Peace and Love,
Chotrain
Chotrain CO 11:00PM
All,
It was an awesome week for me. Tomorrow is my day of rest so I will just be all day. I appreciate all of the support, love and motivation I have received this week. I will keep it moving into the next week.
Peace to all and a great night,
Chotrain