Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Shame Spiral
Hi y'all. I've been a member here for over two years, I think. You would think that by two year's time, I'd be rid of this accursed habit of procrastination. But no. I'm ashamed to say that I've been yoyoing. As I look back at the lack of progress of previous years, my self-confidence diminishes. Now at my final sem in college, I'm procrastinating again. ::sad:: I've repeatedly betrayed many tasks lists that I've made. I like to list what I need to do, but I never do it, or I start way too late. The worst part is... it's all me. I've got no one else to blame. But it feels like an addiction. I'm addicted to fantasizing about accomplishing a task, but I put it off because the fantasy is more enjoyable. Will my potential ever be realized? I'm hating on life big time right now. :cry:
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Congratulations to you
Taka,
Just by coming here you are taking some important steps.
I'm a fairly new member here, but I've been a lifelong procrastinator. What you describe sounds very much like what I have experienced over the years.
I honestly wish this had been around--and I'd availed myself of it--when I was in my last years of college or in graduate school.
Despite having habits like the ones you've described, I've managed to make a living for myself in my chosen field. Early in my life it helped to be in a setting in which deadlines were set externally and turnaround times were short (I worked for newspapers). Now as a freelancer I have to be much more diligent and feel like I continually fail, but I do ultimately deliver. Still I constantly experience the shame spiral you speak of, and repeatedly feel that I could have done better work if I'd been more on task.
What I've never had over those years was a community in which I felt understood, as I do here. I have faith that over time I can learn to let go of the habits and behaviors that are sabotaging myself. I feel immense support here as I pursue that goal.
I encourage you to stick around here and see if you can find some pathway to recovery here. You'll find a community of people who really know what you've felt like at your worst, who will cheer you on as you seek to adopt new habits, and who will hold you accountable in gentleness and love as you break old ones.
In short: coming here cannot hurt. It might help. I hope you give it a try.
GeorgeSmiley
Hi Taka! :)
Hi Taka!
It sounds like you are ready for some One Day At A Time! :) Thanks for posting, and tell us some updates as things go along! :) Hugs! :)
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)