Thursday 28 August 2008
Healthy boundaries and limits
will become easier for us to set.
-- from the A.C.A Promises .
Hi Pro Buddies!
Yay -- It took me 2+ hours today, but I did get the crucial stage started of a project I had been worrying about for about a year, and procrastinating about for about a month or longer. There will still be a couple more stages for this project, but today's getting the ball rolling was the hardest for me, and I'm so relieved to have gotten it done/started/handed off to the professional for the next stage.
I'm sorry I didn't check in yesterday. Yesterday was ok, but several things didn't work out, so I knew I wasn't going to do anything last night, so just chilled. Tonight: I'll start a load of clothes, then see if I will edit/update my CI later ;)
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Congratulations on getting a worried over project going! With the help of the posts here on PA, I got a letter out the other day I had been worrying over for a couple of years. I know how hard it is when it seems like you are doing it alone -- Way to go! david
Back from taking the train to the party . . . I feel so urban.
Going to work about another half hour on MIT #4 then head home.
Tonight, GO TO BED EARLY! If I'm not sleepy I can listen to my audiobook in bed.
I forgot to mention that I didn't do so well on my early to rise goal today - I forgot to set my alarm, didn't wake up until 5:15 and didn't get to gym until 6. But I did get there. I also stayed up until 10, and everyone else was in bed at 9:30. Even dd is going to bed early these days as she has an early class. Me, I didn't even START doing the dishes until 9:30. Bah.
So, tonight, pick up coffee creamer and something for dinner, prep for tomorrow, don't really have any chores that need to be done tonight other than getting things ready for the morning.
“If you can’t ride two horses at once, you shouldn’t be in the circus.” - Jimmy Maxton, Independent Labour MP for Glasgow Bridgeton
I'm not working real well now, distractions to non-important things, even though I have my MIT list right on the desk. Don't feel good, so I'll post my Most Important Tasks I want and need to do this afternoon. Hope to offer some encouragement to others later. Thanks everyone ... start on those Most Important Tasks ...
MIT #2 --em to j m reply (30 min limit).
MIT #3 --ck engl h site for job status (10 min).
MIT #4 --em to m h update. (15 min max).
-- Next Check In at 3pm --
MIT #5 --write em to e d, use revised em to ld (work on for 30 min); start and do for at least 5 min before 6pm.
MIT #6 --errand, grocery store (60 min).
-- Check in 6pm - 6:30pm
MIT #2 [Done, though took 90 min] --em to j m reply (30 min limit).
MIT #3 [Done] --ck engl h site for job status (10 min).
Take a brief break now, make phone call for MIT#7, try to relax and/or think positive(ly) a moment, then do #5 or #6. Thanks, david
Well, these follow up Check Ins are a little later than I promised/posted, but I am reporting in, which is an improvement, and helps me.
MIT #6 [Done] --errand, grocery store (60 min).
-- [Done] checked email (with out getting too distracted), got positive response reply from MIT#2 earlier today.
Now going out for a short run (they're all short these days). David
I commit to chatting through the hard parts before I give up on any of these actions today. Thanks for being here.
major midday lull...I am going to nap 20 minutes. I give everyone permission to call me nasty names if I have not checked back in by 5.
Phone rang 2x so nap didn't hap but did check my eyelids for holes...back at it. Going to chat through the Big Financial Decision.
Yay! And acted upon as well. Whew. What a relief! Thank you God! Next up:
I'm cooked. This was a tough day, fighting illness and nerves and pushing through the hard parts...with the finale a few minutes ago when I ran into the backyard in my favorite slippers to break up a cat fight, and stepped squarely in a massive pile of dog-doo. Don't ask me how, but I STILL believe God loves me! :-) Probably it's partly due to the good feeling from really pushing through it today...not perfect, but real progress. Thanks for being here, my PA-Pals!
That's awesome you made your big decision and acted on it...good job! You inspire me. Take some time to relax (and get yourself some new slippers :-) )
MIT #1 was unsuccessful, but I've done what I could for today :).
MIT #2 - to decide about this afternoon's social thing, is completed - I discovered I can take the train almost to the front door of the restaurant, so I will go for a short period of time, then come back to the office. I like riding the train and I wish I could take the train to work every day, but train service ends 20 miles from my house. We need more public transportation, but a lot of people are against it, go figure. I hope rising gas prices will change some peoples' minds.
MIT #3 - starts now!
Update 2:15 MIT #3 done.
Work on MIT #4 until 3:00, then to the party.
Today is turning out to be a good day. Perhaps this was not a good week to telecommute. Although telecommuting 2 days a week is permitted, its not required Maybe next time I have a really bad telecommute day, I'll just pack up and head to the office!
OK, that's better. In setting my MITs for the day, I realized what's going on in my poor brain. As Ag said a few days ago:
"I think I know what is stopping me: Looming in my pending MITs is ______"
I'm supposed to attend a retirement party at my old job this afternoon. I don't want to go. I feel guilty leaving work early for a party, and I feel guilty not going to the party, and I don't know exactly where the place is, and I heard the only parking is on the street and I can't fricking parallel park. I don't like these kinds of social situations, I feel awkward and uncomfortable at parties. But I know that it would be a nice thing to do to show up, and I also know that socializing is good for me. In the words of Joe Strummer from The Clash:
"Should I stay or should I go now?
If I stay there will be trouble.
If I go it will be double.
So you have to let me know: Should I stay or should I go?"
Coffee break, then MIT #1. I will make MIT #2 to figure out exactly where this place is decide whether or not I should go. Arggghhh.
I've been struggling the past couple of days and really having trouble getting focused this morning. It helped a lot to read through your posts and see how you guys are dealing with the same struggles as me! (as I?, that doesn't sound right but I would be grammatically correct I think. the same struggles as I deal with). You see? This is my mind this morning, I can't keep a thought in my head long enough to act on it!
Deep breath . . . haven't done my 20-minute day starter, I've started on it a couple of times but keep getting distracted. I'm going to take 5 minutes to do a brief prayer/mediation, then pull up the "day starter" list and follow the items one by one. I don't usually have to look at the list, as the day starter has become a habit, but today is an exception.
I will check back in half an hour, having done the day starter and ready for coffee break.
Didn't do anything that I had planned last night--but today is a new day. I'm in lab now (a bit late, as I fell off my bike on the way here...)
I'm going to work in lab until 11, then spend 11-12 working out fines, then go to orientation events 12-3, then do some more lab work and then go to dinner with my aunt and uncle.
Lab work goals for the morning (some of these may spill over to the afternoon) are:
*Try job with gene->sink weights set to zero
*Try job with source->coregulator weights set very high
*Try job with string interactome
*Try job with a number of different gammas
OK, I made progress on my goals, though I didn't finish them (first 2 jobs have finished running but I haven't looked at the resutls; I realized string interactome wasn't finished so I'm building it now; wrote some code required to try a bunch of gammas).
Now I need to move on to figuring out house fines, since I'm very late on that. Back at 3 (or earlier, if orientation events finish early.)
A bit late (lost phone+orientation events running late)
I'm going to call my aunt and uncle, then look at results from 2 first jobs and take notes. Then I think I'm going to make a phone call at 4:30.
Looked at results from 1st 2 jobs, made phone call, went to dinner, called parents, wasted about 30 min and now I'm back. I'm going to take a shower, then try to get 1 hr of focused work done, then go to bed.
Tasks to be done in this focused work time:
*Track down mod file bug (done)
*Run a job with TF node capacity and look at results (done)
*Launch a job with STRING interactome (done)
*Launch a job with TF node capacity and tweaked source->coreg and mrna->sink weights. (done)
Updates when each of these tasks is done.
Finished all of the above (with some procrastinating, but only about 15 min worth)
I've been having a terrible time concentrating in the evening (and have kept promising to work and not following through), so getting through this small tasks list is a triumph.
I have a meeting tomorrow afternoon that I need to prep. for, so I will get up at 6:30 and be at work by 8:30.
I scanned through this post quickly and thought it said "putting out house fires" lol
fell off my bike on the way here..
just a bit banged up (though the 4 mile ride after I fell wasn't so fun...)
thanks for asking!
Sorry about the bike fall & getting banged up. I'm glad you are otherwise ok. Take care of yourself!
What kind of bike do you have? :)
Whoa, where is everyone? I hope you're all doing okay. Time is really tight, so I'll plan to do a better CI later. Waiting on a client.
deal with client A
order thing for car
get laundry ready
go to building supply
feed dog next door
order propane for home
check in around lunch
It's a little scary to be the first one here, isn't it? lol, I get a little panicky when no one else is posting.
Seems I've made this program a part of my various routines, and I suppose several more of us has too. When I see folks missing I often wonder if they've "gotten it" and are off tackling the world. On the other side, I sometimes feel others don't post because of me. No middle ground there, Jo!! More interruptions here, but I'm recovering. I hope you do okay for the remainder of your day.
I've been in my home office about a half hour, reading email, checking on the news, and just now visiting here and skimming recent posts by others.
In part I'm killing time because I'm expecting an 8 AM phone call related to Project R.
Once that's over my MIT #1 is to focus, once again, on getting a Project R draft off the ground.
Whatever the outcome, I will check in again at noon. Sooner if I'm struggling or otherwise feel the need to do so.
Interview completed. So now it's on to Project R drafting.
One likely recurring distraction: my younger son, just back last night from a 2-day camping trip, is under an edict to clean his room before doing anything else. I'm sure helping him manage that task will end up occupying some energy today, too.
I just can't get myself going on this Project R task.
I feel very stuck. And I'm doing all sorts of busywork or escape activity to avoid it.
I'm going to get some lunch and then check in again.
Were you able to break through on Project R start?
The rest of the afternoon I was bouncing between reading news and trying to start and playing free cell and managing my kids. Late in the afternoon I took my boys and myself for haircuts and a bunch of errands. In the early evening I sent my editor a note that he wouldn't have the piece today [Friday].
I watched the convention and then went to bed. More on Friday's topic.
we get brownie points for that here! thanks for telling it like it is. guess i'm not the only one who sometimes actually still procrastinates some days -
you are NOT the only one lol!
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