I fell off the wagon...
Hi everybody. I haven't been on here for quite some time. I really fell off the wagon. It's been weeks, maybe months of a zombie like state. The cash in my bank is dwindling and my clients (I'm self employed) seem to be losing faith in me. I can't even seem to be able to pick up the phone these days.
I was taking Lexapro which did make me more productive (but only to an extent) until the side effects – somnolence, sexual dysfunction – began to have, what I perceived as a worse effect than the disease that it was trying to control. I would fall asleep in the middle of the day which is something I never did, not even as a child. Unfortunately, this is an effect thats persisted to this day even after I've been off Lex for 2 to 3 months. The anorgasmia (inability to reach orgasm) affected my confidence with my girlfriend and I ended up losing her. That was a big blow.
I slowly got off the meds, afraid to go to my doctor because I feel that he thinks that the only solution is medication. I've mentioned the prospect of talk therapy and he didn't seem to go with it.
I want to see a specialist on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Do we agree here on this forum that what we're experiencing is a form of OCD?
It seems that this forum is US centric but are there any Canadians on here (Ontario specifically) that would recommend a good OCD clinic that I can go to or ask my doctor about?