I just wanted to write to say thank you. I found this website at the weekend (while I was avoiding doing something else no doubt!)
I realised that I actually do have a "recognised" condition and it's not some personality kwirk. Since Monday I have done more work than I did in the previous 3 weeks and I have organised myself beyond recognition (well.....nearly )
I have read lots and lots of books about fulfilling your potential etc etc but it never dawned on me that it was my tendancy to procrastinate that was holding me back rather than not understanding how to move forward.
I have been like this since I became a teenager. Maybe it was a fear of failure that made me pull back from getting homework etc done on time or studying for exams. Most of the time I got good enough marks to keep the charade up but that actually made it worse because then I couldn't turn around and do the thing on time, even if I wanted to, it was all an ego thing.
Now I'm self employed and very good at what I do with enough work to keep me going for months but I always make excuses not to do it. I do just enough to keep my clients happy and give a great service when I do actually get my head down but it has come to the stage where they know what I'm like and accept it.........so no incentive to change there either. One of the main excuses I use is "what if I do it all and run out of work". I know that's not going to happen. I have 1 project that's waiting for me to start it since last July!!
Just knowing that this site is here is helping me enormously when I start to "wander".