I'm used to procrastinating as I've been doing it my whole life. The biggest problem I have right now is school. About a year ago, I decided that I would go back to college and try and finish. It was going well at first, until this semester started. I fell behind in school because I was procrastinating as usual. I could never find time for myself to start my work. I would always say "I'll do it later." Most of the time, I ended up doing my schoolwork at the last minute, sometimes staying up all night. The load got to be too much though, and I began missing assignments that should've been turned in. When spring break came for me, I thought "ok, now's a great time to catch up on my work and really focus." As much as I thought about studying, I could never bring myself to do it. I ended up doing no work at all. When school came back into session, I was so ashamed. My teachers asked for the work I had missed and I didn't have it. After a few days of this, I just stopped going altogether. It's been about 2 weeks now and I haven't been back since.
It's possible that I still may be able to pass my classes were I to focus now, but I really dread going back to class to talk to my teachers. I let them all down, some of them even gave me multiple chances to hand in late work and I abused their kindness. I know that I must talk to them, I MUST, but I'm so ashamed I don't even know where to begin. I really do think that I set really high goals for myself, that are very difficult to attain. I have high expectations for myself. However it seems whenever I push myself to work hard, I just completely collapse. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's not that I can't do the work because I don't understand, it's just I have no drive at all. You'd think I would because it's the most important thing for my future.. :(
It's started to effect my social life too. I don't hang out with friends anymore, only with my girlfriend. This is because I think it would be wasting time as opposed to doing my school work. Funny, thing is, I don't ever do my work.
Btw, I actually procrastinated in writing this. I was supposed to do it 3 days ago. :P