Hello
I'm used to procrastinating as I've been doing it my whole life. The biggest problem I have right now is school. About a year ago, I decided that I would go back to college and try and finish. It was going well at first, until this semester started. I fell behind in school because I was procrastinating as usual. I could never find time for myself to start my work. I would always say "I'll do it later." Most of the time, I ended up doing my schoolwork at the last minute, sometimes staying up all night. The load got to be too much though, and I began missing assignments that should've been turned in. When spring break came for me, I thought "ok, now's a great time to catch up on my work and really focus." As much as I thought about studying, I could never bring myself to do it. I ended up doing no work at all. When school came back into session, I was so ashamed. My teachers asked for the work I had missed and I didn't have it. After a few days of this, I just stopped going altogether. It's been about 2 weeks now and I haven't been back since.
It's possible that I still may be able to pass my classes were I to focus now, but I really dread going back to class to talk to my teachers. I let them all down, some of them even gave me multiple chances to hand in late work and I abused their kindness. I know that I must talk to them, I MUST, but I'm so ashamed I don't even know where to begin. I really do think that I set really high goals for myself, that are very difficult to attain. I have high expectations for myself. However it seems whenever I push myself to work hard, I just completely collapse. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's not that I can't do the work because I don't understand, it's just I have no drive at all. You'd think I would because it's the most important thing for my future.. :(
It's started to effect my social life too. I don't hang out with friends anymore, only with my girlfriend. This is because I think it would be wasting time as opposed to doing my school work. Funny, thing is, I don't ever do my work.
Btw, I actually procrastinated in writing this. I was supposed to do it 3 days ago. :P
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MovingAlong's Sunday
Today's Ta-Da s
To do:
-- movingalong
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Lark and Recycler checked in this morning
Lark and Recycler checked in this morning ... before the backup/rollback. They were aware that their posts would probably disappear, but they checked in anyhow.
To Lark and Recycler: Hope you both had a good day!
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Falcon CI Sunday
Good news: the forum is back!
Bad news for me: it's back just in time for me to tell on myself.
I need to get to bed soon, and am still putting off the one thing I really needed to get done this weekend, paying a particular bill. It's a five-minute task, but I have a real mental block against it -- it represents a lot of feeling disorganized and not on top of my finances, and a lot of anxiety and fear around that, so I feel scared about doing it.
I'm going to make a phone call to a friend who I promised to chat with this evening, then I'm going to just write the damn check and put it in the mail already. And then go to bed.
Falcon
messages to Pro that were posted earlier on Sunday
Before Pro began the site maintenance this morning, several posts were made in today's Sunday thread -- that got lost during the backup/rollback.
Recycler, Journey, and movingalong all made posts addressed to Pro -- they were sending hugs and support to Pro. This was because Pro had posted on prior day about feeling sad regarding the memories of the loss of a loved one. Each person posted something supportive, although I don't remember the exact wording.
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Pro rocked today.
The morning started out with pro logging on saying that he/she had stuff to do.
Then pro worked and worked and worked and worked and worked for more than TEN hours continously trying to upgrade these forums and the chatbox.
Although it didn't work out the way pro wanted it to, and she/he had to roll back to previous version ... I want to commend pro for all his/her hard work.
Pro, all that effort shows that you care. Regardless of whether the result was how you wanted it or not.
and failed...
Don't leave out that part - the update failed. I just wasted 10 hours of my life.
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Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
You did achieve perseverance and determination.
Regardless of the result, you persevered.
That's what matters.
We can live with the current forums.
You did your best. That's all anyone can do.
wasted time
There were a million things I needed to do today that I didn't do because I spent 10 hours on this. I should have been a little less persevering. I didn't keep my priorities straight.
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Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
Wish I could send you some extra time and some fun.
Sorry you lost all that time for us.
Please go take care of you now.
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You are not a failure to me.
You worked very hard.
Hugs!