An Intro Long Overdue
After 3 months of telling myself - "Oh I'll post when I have something good to report about or at least one thing on my personal check list down", I thought I would just suck it up and post.
I'm Kat, a senior in high school, and I am a chronic procrastinator which gets me a bit depressed at times. I also have problems with being jealous, never really being content with things or myself, especially since I view myself as a "dork". When I do let my guard down though, I like to think I am pretty damn funny. I am honest, ambitious, and analytical. I am a little idealistic sometimes, and sometimes too philosophical. I LIKE to think.
I've been procrastinating since around 8th grade- before then I pretty much got all my work done by 4 PM. Then again, the work has increased exponentially, so I'll give myself that. Being an all girl's private high school, even the "regular" classes generally have lots of work. However, I am headed to the University of Chicago for college next year and I want to major in Astrophysics and get a Ph.D. I really want to enjoy myself, be more outgoing, manage my time well, and do well. Obviously my GPA isn't too bad since I got accepted to a top school, but I certainly didn't put very much effort into high school.
Lately (like the past year or so), I never really feel like doing much of anything. There's plenty of things I want to do and learn, but I can never seem to have enough motivation or energy to do so. Then I make lists and Essential things don't get done, and then I freak out. My parents are incredibly unsupportive.
Luckily, I have only a month of high school left, because seniors get out of school early. However, I am getting to the point where I want to better myself in many facets of life (guitar, Physics, reading books) as well as take on some more responsibility (job, boyfriend lol). I also want to be more comfortable being myself in front of other people and "go out" more. As you can see, I have a dearth of goals.
This is a great time for me to instill some good habits, and I don't want to mess it up. However, it's soooo easy to do so!
I LOVE to talk, and I've read other intros and they seemed incredibly passionate. I assure you, I am a procrastinator and hate it, and have no one to really help me out other than people telling me to "make a list".
Thank you so much, and I REALLY hope I can commit myself to posting more often, as I think it helps.