Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
It has been such a pleasure reading everyone's entries today: they are inspiring! Today has been a semi-productive day, even though there was ample time zoning out. There is much to accomplish, but I am glad that after all this time I a: transfered money that will enable me to pay bills on time b: got to the doctor to replace a prescription c: walked a little bit today d: followed up and filled my prescriptions so I actually can take them.
Does anyone else have difficulty following through on basic needs? Sometimes I loath the idea of going out to get medication that I must take on a daily basis! Sometimes I will go for days without it, which is horribly bad for my health and metabolism.
In any case, I know what I am going to fix for supper, even though I don't really want to cook. I am sticking by my guns in getting the kids to do their chores on time so I can do what I need to do when I get home.
Tonight: hotspot the bedroom piles handwash 3 items big book dinner watch download of House fold and put away clean laundry c/i with C on his backpack and homework
"Does anyone else have difficulty following through on basic needs?" You're kidding, right? I can't speak for anyone else, but I drop myself out more consistently and painfully than any other person in my life. it's more apparent some days than others. Lately, as I've been working on some projects from home, the basic needs drops have been high. I feel a little foolish making goals out of showering and eating, but without accountability, I'll often skip them. This is one of the key reasons I see my procrastinating as an addiction. I will destroy myself with my procrastination, unless I take intentional steps.
Sorry I didn't see your post till tonight. I often procrastinate that way too. Meals are a biggie, and I end up eating junk food instead. Sometimes I find I need to actually fill the tub with bath water to remind myself to bathe. It's not that I'm a dirt ball )I hope not.), but it's easy to talk myself into putting stuff like that off. Going to evening 12 step fellowship meetings is a good way to commit myself to those needs. Offering to give someone a ride, or to just plan to meet someone at a meeting helps too. Inviting someone to my place is a good way to get myself to tidy things up.
That is where I am at as well. At my worst, often when I am trying to meet deadlines, all basic self-care goes unmet. It absolutely screws me up, long term. I know when I am doing it that I am undermining myself, but I am powerless over my lack of willingness to do.
I just joined PA yesterday while I was in the midst of coming to the realization that I have procrastinated so much of my life away. I am taking the steps necessary to get to the root but I must say, that when one has procrastinated for almost 44 years, it is not an overnight thing!!! I hope you all will help me to go forward and acheive the life I was meant to have.
Doug, Glad to have you here. It's great to have another veteran procrastinator on board! I encourage you to consider that you have arrived at this place and this awareness at exactly the right time. I like the Buddhist proverb, "When the student is ready, the master will come." You sound ready. One step at a time, you will overcome.
Thanks for the support! by the way, I am going to post a WONDERFUL" quote by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe. It is constantly my encouragement and I believe is something that will lead many of us to finding "terra firma" .
"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back-- Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now."
Okay,,, I have to go to a meeting at 7:00. I don't want to go... I can't 5 minute this thing... @#$%#. okay... Go to meeting come home eat brush teeth work for 5 minutes on project due Friday... pick up clothes shower journal bed...wake-up...bed...eat cereal...bed...Andy Griffith
No kidding, does anyone else live with a @#$#%# like me? God I couldn't live with myself, it is amazing my wife can.
That happens to me often. Cereal is the easiest thing to make and I actually like it a lot. Most mornings I wake up, grab cereal, eat then end up in bed where I'll sleep for a few more hours, then wake up eat cereal again (or nothing at all until late at night).
I've been having a big internal struggle for the last couple weeks, okay for decades, but in a more focused way lately... I applied for/had a job interview/did not hear back last week/left a message yesterday/praying it comes through/not feeling hopeful... So this morning, on Super Tuesday, I'm asking God/HP to vote for me.
This potential job is not the end all, be all. It might not be a good fit or pay what I need. But from my vantage point at this moment, it would be really great. I was gnawing on myself last night because I thought about a couple key things I did not talk about in my interview. I know these are sabotages I cannot indulge, but I want the comfort they give.
Watching the Super Bowl (apologies to Patriots fans and people who hate football), but I was thinking how great it would be to have the longshot win. I feel like that with my job situation. I can apply for other jobs, obviously, but I'm a contractor at another job and they are starting several longer term projects that they want me to commit to now. I don't want to commit if I plan to look for a full-time job, because I know I will not engage as needed where I am now. I also don't know if I even want to commit to this current job, but it's one in the hand, and my finances are in bad shape. I want to make decisions about this and get on with it.
So this is a prayer, full of hope, fear and doubt..."only for the knowledge of God's will...and the power to carry that out."
Now here is the prayer of my feet and hands: -call O -shower -exercise -make revisions for BV -celebrate being loved and heard
Just a suggestion: I have seen people follow up on interviews with a letter of thanks that takes the opportunity to add some things that were not said. I don't know if this is an appropriate part of 'interview etiquette', but it does show your potential employer that you do follow up on things, that you are thorough, and that you are seriously interested in the job.
Yesterday was a very non-productive day - I did a lot of numbing out, which followed me into the evening. Today has begun off the same way, but I resolve to just keep starting. I need to go to a meeting in a few minutes, but wanted to post here before I did so I'd have something to come back to. When I come back I'll do a rough schedule for the rest of the day and then cracking.
Ta da: Eat breakfast Take pills Check voicemail
MITs I want to get done: Review Check flags/schedule Call A re: Remove links in report
Other: Sched f/u on equip Type up edits on brochure Funding letter
Pebbles: Set trip to OCL w/ A Send forms for RR Email M re: GM site Check on concr. re Dishes
Wow, it's well into the 60's this morning. I have to prepare some items to ship out this morning, and also help a friend with her computer, so I'm going to try to be at two places at once (usually a recipe for failure). Now it's storming and dark as night outside, so I'm staying here for a while. To do: morning things prepare thing to ship help friend focus on this morning's work project make phone calls: A_, B_, C_, D_ check in here at lunch
Good morning! I'm still struggling with this weird mood or whatever it is - it surely feels like the old hormonal fluctuations that I thought I was done with. This morning I am just angry for no reason. I'd really like to just smash something or punch somebody.
I did my normal workout but with a marked lack of of enthusiasm. I surely hope I am back to normal tomorrow. At least the bad mood is better than the weepy and nauseous state I was in yesterday. I can't believe I used to deal with this every month! My mom always said this is the price we pay for being able to have babies. I suppose it's true . . .
I have one meeting today, and I need to go to the bank at lunchtime, otherwise I will be working on my big work project all day. Tonight I'll be watching TV, as American Idol is in Atlanta. I should fold some laundry while watching . . . rather I WANT to fold some laundry while watching.
I've noticed it really does make a difference if I think or say that I WANT to get something done, rather than I HAVE to do it. Last night I said to dh "I want to get these dishes done before I go to bed, so I can get up to a clean kitchen in the morning". That is such a simple thing but it really made a difference. I almost enjoyed doing the dishes.
Journey/Josephine
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
Worked pretty steadily on the work project today, now I'm going to switch over to some small tasks and then get out of here, before I actually do punch somebody. One of my coworkers "needs killing" as we say down here, i.e., "Loreen finally shot that abusive husband of hers" "Well, good, he needed killin' anyway"
Jo
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
Journey, Thanks for including us in your honest assessment. Your faithful checkins and feedback have encouraged and inspired me. I didn't check in for the last couple days and I realize I need to do this daily. My procrastination urge is too powerful to resist alone. After a month on this site, I feel like I have won a number of battles with my procrastinating self...checking in and being part of this community have been key.
I also relate to the destroy impulse. It's a good thing I'm not omnipotent, because on some bad day, I would paint EVERYTHING black.
Classes start today! Lots to do, it's a bit overwhelming...
Must do: Go to Spanish I Go to Bio Prep for Wed expt. Finish scanning code Make new graph Run test job Meet with PF 5:15 Ask about tutoring
Should do: See A! Questions for CSBi Chores for labmates House job
Would like to do: Prep for journal briefing Finish fines 30-45 min of exercise
Whew! To start, I'll go get some caffeine, then I'll: 1)Work on scanning *Fix it so it doesn't take so long (done) *Investigate strange results for BARC1 scanning (done) *Larger test job (done) *Do all scans (started) 2)Leave for class at 9:30 (leaving now, a bit late!) 3)When class ends at 11, continue working on scanning. Make new graph and do test job when scanning is finished.
OK, have a break from classes (until 2), need to use my time wisely! Scanning is still chugging along, so I'm going to work on chores for my labmates. When the scanning is done, I'll make the new graph and try a test job. Then I'll go start prep for Wed.'s experiment: I'll work on this until 2, then go to bio class until 4. Check in when that's done (at 4)
Finished the scanning, made progress on chores for labmates, and went to bio class.
Up next: preparation for meeting! 1)Make the new graph, try a test job, and compare the results to the canonical pathway. 2)Take some notes on what I'm going to talk about at the meeting. If I have extra time before the meeting, I will hand-compare results from old and new scans and start working on incorporating THEME results into scans. 3)Meeting 5:15-5:30ish. After the meeting, I will take notes on what was discussed 4)Go buy a book, finish up chores for my lab mates. 5)Go to the gym, then get some dinner 6)Go to the library to do my Spanish homework 7)Get ice cream with A!
I can already tell this semester will be a killer...But I know I can do it!
elisaveth's belated c/i
It has been such a pleasure reading everyone's entries today: they are inspiring! Today has been a semi-productive day, even though there was ample time zoning out. There is much to accomplish, but I am glad that after all this time I
a: transfered money that will enable me to pay bills on time
b: got to the doctor to replace a prescription
c: walked a little bit today
d: followed up and filled my prescriptions so I actually can take them.
Does anyone else have difficulty following through on basic needs? Sometimes I loath the idea of going out to get medication that I must take on a daily basis! Sometimes I will go for days without it, which is horribly bad for my health and metabolism.
In any case, I know what I am going to fix for supper, even though I don't really want to cook. I am sticking by my guns in getting the kids to do their chores on time so I can do what I need to do when I get home.
Tonight:
hotspot the bedroom piles
handwash 3 items
big book
dinner
watch download of House
fold and put away clean laundry
c/i with C on his backpack and homework
basic needs
"Does anyone else have difficulty following through on basic needs?" You're kidding, right? I can't speak for anyone else, but I drop myself out more consistently and painfully than any other person in my life. it's more apparent some days than others. Lately, as I've been working on some projects from home, the basic needs drops have been high. I feel a little foolish making goals out of showering and eating, but without accountability, I'll often skip them. This is one of the key reasons I see my procrastinating as an addiction. I will destroy myself with my procrastination, unless I take intentional steps.
freer
putting off basic needs
Sorry I didn't see your post till tonight. I often procrastinate that way too. Meals are a biggie, and I end up eating junk food instead. Sometimes I find I need to actually fill the tub with bath water to remind myself to bathe. It's not that I'm a dirt ball )I hope not.), but it's easy to talk myself into putting stuff like that off. Going to evening 12 step fellowship meetings is a good way to commit myself to those needs. Offering to give someone a ride, or to just plan to meet someone at a meeting helps too. Inviting someone to my place is a good way to get myself to tidy things up.
basic needs
That is where I am at as well. At my worst, often when I am trying to meet deadlines, all basic self-care goes unmet. It absolutely screws me up, long term. I know when I am doing it that I am undermining myself, but I am powerless over my lack of willingness to do.
Owning my life
I just joined PA yesterday while I was in the midst of coming to the realization that I have procrastinated so much of my life away. I am taking the steps necessary to get to the root but I must say, that when one has procrastinated for almost 44 years, it is not an overnight thing!!! I hope you all will help me to go forward and acheive the life I was meant to have.
Having just awakened,
Doug
welcome
Doug,
Glad to have you here. It's great to have another veteran procrastinator on board! I encourage you to consider that you have arrived at this place and this awareness at exactly the right time. I like the Buddhist proverb, "When the student is ready, the master will come." You sound ready. One step at a time, you will overcome.
freer
Welcome Doug - Having just awakened lol
Glad to have you aboard. We will wake up and smell the coffee together.
Journey
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
Until one is committed...
Thanks for the support! by the way, I am going to post a WONDERFUL" quote by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe. It is constantly my encouragement and I believe is something that will lead many of us to finding "terra firma" .
"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back-- Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now."
Goethe
Having just awakened,
Doug
love that quote
I love that quote ("Until one is committed..."). I had it on my wall for a long time.
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Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
love the quote too
It shall be on my wall henceforth!
Journey
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
Dragging my butt.....
Okay,,, I have to go to a meeting at 7:00. I don't want to go... I can't 5 minute this thing... @#$%#.
okay...
Go to meeting
come home eat
brush teeth
work for 5 minutes on project due Friday...
pick up clothes
shower
journal
bed...wake-up...bed...eat cereal...bed...Andy Griffith
No kidding, does anyone else live with a @#$#%# like me? God I couldn't live with myself, it is amazing my wife can.
Seeking to go back into my coma,
Douglas
"bed...wake-up...bed...eat
"bed...wake-up...bed...eat cereal...bed..."
voting and decisions
I've been having a big internal struggle for the last couple weeks, okay for decades, but in a more focused way lately... I applied for/had a job interview/did not hear back last week/left a message yesterday/praying it comes through/not feeling hopeful... So this morning, on Super Tuesday, I'm asking God/HP to vote for me.
This potential job is not the end all, be all. It might not be a good fit or pay what I need. But from my vantage point at this moment, it would be really great. I was gnawing on myself last night because I thought about a couple key things I did not talk about in my interview. I know these are sabotages I cannot indulge, but I want the comfort they give.
Watching the Super Bowl (apologies to Patriots fans and people who hate football), but I was thinking how great it would be to have the longshot win. I feel like that with my job situation. I can apply for other jobs, obviously, but I'm a contractor at another job and they are starting several longer term projects that they want me to commit to now. I don't want to commit if I plan to look for a full-time job, because I know I will not engage as needed where I am now. I also don't know if I even want to commit to this current job, but it's one in the hand, and my finances are in bad shape. I want to make decisions about this and get on with it.
So this is a prayer, full of hope, fear and doubt..."only for the knowledge of God's will...and the power to carry that out."
Now here is the prayer of my feet and hands:
-call O
-shower
-exercise
-make revisions for BV
-celebrate being loved and heard
Thank you!
freer
freer 6
I heard from my job prospect and am still in consideration. I feel happy and grateful.
x-call O
x-shower
x-exercise
x-make revisions for BV
x-celebrate being loved and heard
good luck, freer
Just a suggestion: I have seen people follow up on interviews with a letter of thanks that takes the opportunity to add some things that were not said. I don't know if this is an appropriate part of 'interview etiquette', but it does show your potential employer that you do follow up on things, that you are thorough, and that you are seriously interested in the job.
scarlett CI 9:50 am EST
Yesterday was a very non-productive day - I did a lot of numbing out, which followed me into the evening. Today has begun off the same way, but I resolve to just keep starting. I need to go to a meeting in a few minutes, but wanted to post here before I did so I'd have something to come back to. When I come back I'll do a rough schedule for the rest of the day and then cracking.
Ta da:
Eat breakfast
Take pills
Check voicemail
MITs I want to get done:
Review
Check flags/schedule
Call A re: Remove links in report
Other:
Sched f/u on equip
Type up edits on brochure
Funding letter
Pebbles:
Set trip to OCL w/ A
Send forms for RR
Email M re: GM site
Check on concr. re
Dishes
Become aware of resistance, and let go.
9:00 am CI for Lark
Wow, it's well into the 60's this morning. I have to prepare some items to ship out this morning, and also help a friend with her computer, so I'm going to try to be at two places at once (usually a recipe for failure). Now it's storming and dark as night outside, so I'm staying here for a while.
To do:
morning things
prepare thing to ship
help friend
focus on this morning's work project
make phone calls: A_, B_, C_, D_
check in here at lunch
Journey's evil twin Josephine 8:45
Good morning! I'm still struggling with this weird mood or whatever it is - it surely feels like the old hormonal fluctuations that I thought I was done with. This morning I am just angry for no reason. I'd really like to just smash something or punch somebody.
I did my normal workout but with a marked lack of of enthusiasm. I surely hope I am back to normal tomorrow. At least the bad mood is better than the weepy and nauseous state I was in yesterday. I can't believe I used to deal with this every month! My mom always said this is the price we pay for being able to have babies. I suppose it's true . . .
I have one meeting today, and I need to go to the bank at lunchtime, otherwise I will be working on my big work project all day. Tonight I'll be watching TV, as American Idol is in Atlanta. I should fold some laundry while watching . . . rather I WANT to fold some laundry while watching.
I've noticed it really does make a difference if I think or say that I WANT to get something done, rather than I HAVE to do it. Last night I said to dh "I want to get these dishes done before I go to bed, so I can get up to a clean kitchen in the morning". That is such a simple thing but it really made a difference. I almost enjoyed doing the dishes.
Journey/Josephine
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
Journey's evil twin Josephine 4:00
Worked pretty steadily on the work project today, now I'm going to switch over to some small tasks and then get out of here, before I actually do punch somebody. One of my coworkers "needs killing" as we say down here, i.e., "Loreen finally shot that abusive husband of hers" "Well, good, he needed killin' anyway"
Jo
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
smashing urges
Journey,
Thanks for including us in your honest assessment. Your faithful checkins and feedback have encouraged and inspired me. I didn't check in for the last couple days and I realize I need to do this daily. My procrastination urge is too powerful to resist alone. After a month on this site, I feel like I have won a number of battles with my procrastinating self...checking in and being part of this community have been key.
I also relate to the destroy impulse. It's a good thing I'm not omnipotent, because on some bad day, I would paint EVERYTHING black.
freer
painting it black
probably sometimes I share too much information lol, but it's good to share it with people who will understand!
This site definitely helps me, the checkins help, and knowing that you guys understand helps even more.
Jo
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes
kromer 7:45 CI
Classes start today! Lots to do, it's a bit overwhelming...
Must do:
Go to Spanish I
Go to Bio
Prep for Wed expt.
Finish scanning code
Make new graph
Run test job
Meet with PF 5:15
Ask about tutoring
Should do:
See A!
Questions for CSBi
Chores for labmates
House job
Would like to do:
Prep for journal briefing
Finish fines
30-45 min of exercise
Whew! To start, I'll go get some caffeine, then I'll:
1)Work on scanning
*Fix it so it doesn't take so long (done)
*Investigate strange results for BARC1 scanning (done)
*Larger test job (done)
*Do all scans (started)
2)Leave for class at 9:30 (leaving now, a bit late!)
3)When class ends at 11, continue working on scanning. Make new graph and do test job when scanning is finished.
kromer 11:20
OK, have a break from classes (until 2), need to use my time wisely!
Scanning is still chugging along, so I'm going to work on chores for my labmates.
When the scanning is done, I'll make the new graph and try a test job.
Then I'll go start prep for Wed.'s experiment: I'll work on this until 2, then go to bio class until 4.
Check in when that's done (at 4)
kromer 3:40 CI
Finished the scanning, made progress on chores for labmates, and went to bio class.
Up next: preparation for meeting!
1)Make the new graph, try a test job, and compare the results to the canonical pathway.
2)Take some notes on what I'm going to talk about at the meeting.
If I have extra time before the meeting, I will hand-compare results from old and new scans and start working on incorporating THEME results into scans.
3)Meeting 5:15-5:30ish.
After the meeting, I will take notes on what was discussed
4)Go buy a book, finish up chores for my lab mates.
5)Go to the gym, then get some dinner
6)Go to the library to do my Spanish homework
7)Get ice cream with A!
I can already tell this semester will be a killer...But I know I can do it!
But I know I can do it!
You're off to a great start, Kromer. Keep the momentum going!
Jo
“There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.” - Bill Watterson, Calvin and Hobbes