Hi. I found this forum about 3 months ago but I've found it really hard just to bring myself to make this first post. So at this very moment, my intention is not to write too much, even though I have so many things I have wanted to say on this forum. I just want to make the first post. Hopefully as I continue to write this post I will gain enough momentum to write more about myself and my situation.
It took me 20 minutes to write the above paragraph. I deleted and re-wrote it about 10 times, trying to find the 'right' words.
I'm actually getting quite emotional writing this, for reasons I don't know.
I've spent 30 minutes now just trying to write this and I'm feeling quite anxious physically already. So I've just decided to just post. Sorry if this is a terrible post. I just want to get this out the way.
I will post again soon hopefully.