Erin's Intro, the problem, and such
HI...I suppose here's an intro.
I'm 23, in university taking psychology and english. I recently got way too far behind in school and I feel like I shouldn't have ever started with university considering I have 2 more semesters left and I don't even have a remote clue what I want to do with it. But anyways, I'm so close so I suppose I should finish and have something to open more doors to me, or whatever they say an education does for a person. :p
Anyways, I think I've realized my procrastination stems from some serious self-esteem issues. I've always been pretty ADD I think, and bad at remembering stuff, keeping myself in the loop, focusing and all that, and when I was a kid that was all true except when teachers/parents would remind me of stuff, I'd happily get at it and try my best to stay on task, and never experience this terror or bad feelings or panic or anxiety. Now it's different. It isn't being scattered that is the problem, it's some gut-wrenching fear of the displeasure and failure that could come with actually doing my work. It's fairly illogical...if I actually get into something I can do just fine, but these days i never seem to 'actually get into something', and this started during some rough spots in highschool and hasn't changed since.
OK that's an intro for now. Any suggestions how to start fixing this nonsense?