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Saturday January 2, 2021

TraditionTwelve: January 2nd: 6:27pm

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I saw an episode of my favorite television show.  It took longer than expected.  But I wanted to b/c I kept procrastinating on it.  Seeing high quality content, is a priority, although it should be done after I finish my priorities, not before. I must be very careful about what I put in my consciousness. It seems I've demolished quite a bit of time by playing online MMORPG's, social media and movies. I remind myself i"m only here today because of the part of my morning routine I was capable of doing.  Instead of holding the whole world on my plate, which is scary, I should only think in terms of reducing suffering for myself. I admit that part of my I played MMORPG's or spent time there was first, feeling fearful that there might be a message for me from some bitter player or other, but that's letting other people decide my fate for me.  I do not need to read messages from ANYONE. I'm not in a relationship with anyone in the MMORPG. I realized something recently about myself that I want pleasure to be open and shut case.  I am not looking for a lingering circumstance.  I don't have to feel guilty.  I owe nothing to these people. So part of what fueled my procrastination is guilt, that and I thought i could conjure a deeper relationship with someone that I could not.  I knew in my heart those people were off limits, but I kept logging in.  So it's time to cut the cord and get back to the reality of where I'm at.  I know I was taking a nice pill of dopamine essentially, but it's not real, and I can have a comfortable life.  My goals right now are to finish my education, and work at a company where I can earn my desired salary for at least four years.

Ideally on work days, I'd like to wake up at 6am, do my breakfast-pills-exercise, hygeine routine and be done by around 10:20am, go to work for eight hours, attend any necessary meetings.  So I set my timer for 10pm, but I keep like groundhog day, not actually doing the selfcare at 10pm and I keep on watching movies or getting feelings of guilt when I do get in contact with another person that get in the way of my agenda, and that's not okay.  There are some basic things that I need to do in order to feel comfortable with myself, and they are: brushing and flossing my teeth or at least rendering myself in the position where I have done so, running (or walking depending on the day), doing my cardio routine for upper-body comfort.  That's why I devised this routine.  That's why I do it.  I wish I could do it sooner, and I think having a treadmill would help with that.

Things to do

Things I will do today

1. Prayer and meditation

2. Read devotionals

3. Put previous groceries away

4. Go to the grocery store

5. Put groceries away

6. Wash and dry clothes

7. Put clothes away

8. Wash dishes

9. Clear kitchen counter

10. Go through my e-mail

11. Go through my mail

 

Hypatia's check-in

[x] intray

[x] read inbox

[x] locate and charge screwdriver

[x] de-ice car

[x] order birdfood

[x] tai chi

[x] action emails

[x] action from Q list - down to 35

[x] ironing

[-] trip to Swinton - cancelled due to snow

[-] replace letterbox - cancelled due to snow

[x] read racism briefing

[x] repair Windows update

[x] OU coursework

[ ] knitting or embroidery