Well, I joined this website 11 weeks ago and funnily enough I've put off writing on here.
My procrastination has become worse in the last four years or so. Although I have procrastinated since being at school when it came to completing work etc.
I am now 29 and I feel that procrastination is impacting on my personal life and employment - everything basically!
I was prescribed medication for depression at 17 and I have been on different types of meds (currently fluoexetine 40mg) as well as attending various types of counselling - group, 1:1, pschodynamic and cbt but to no avail in reference to my procrastination! In fairness I do not believe it is recognised yet as a real problem. I myself have contemplated if I am just plain lazy or depressed or whether this is an illness in itself.
My procrastination/lazyness/depression means that I do not wash for days - in particular my hair, I dont attend to household chores (havent washed clothes for over two weeks) Im sure I sound delightful to you all! I recently got a parking ticket because I couldnt be bothered to get back on time and had to pay £25.
At work (and this is where I really struggle) I put off typing up my assessments (work for social care) and this in turn lets my clients down as they are waiting for paperwork etc to come through - i action things it is just the typing up that I have become to loathe. If I make another list of what it is I 'need to do' I think I will go insane!!
As a side affect to this procrastination I eat and sleep excessively to avoid what it is I am putting off. The sleep in particular bothers me as I am ALWAYS late for work, in fact I am late for everything - i put off getting up let alone getting ready till beyond the last minute - then rush - then get angry with myself for being late, then think tomorrow I will get up and do X, Y & Z (Usually a list is compiled with it being put in order and times at the side of how long it will take. None of this ever gets done and then I feel bad about failing at this - it is a vicious cycle.
I am always looking for the magic answer although I know deep down it will boil down to me getting on and doing something to initiate the motivation. However the negative voice in my head or the devil on my shoulder is always louder and more convincing.
I have also noticed another side affect to be for me to lie prfusely about where I have been and why I have been late or why I havent completed my work. The lies just pop in to my head as though it is the truth and roll off my tongue at a rate of knotts which is quite disconcerting. .
I have looked at going for more psychological therapy to address this problem in particular but at £60 a pop I cannot afford to do so. I am not convinced my doctor would refer me as he has said twice at two 6 monthly reviews that it is just my way of life and that we are all different! I have also told my old cbt service who put me on a be your own therapist course - which surprise surprise I didnt follow up the actions. I feel as though I need someone to hold my hand (so to speak) in getting me through this as it is so easy not to bother if they allow me to try on my own.
I dont think anyone can help but sometimes it is good to get things off your chest I suppose.
If you managed to continue to read this far then thankyou for taking the time.