Decide between work or play? HELP!
I'm agonizing over whether or not to go out tomorrow night ("tomorrow" being today at 2am...) and thought I would seek some support.
I've been "working" on this thesis that's driving me crazy and have logged a total of about 2 hours on it for the past 2 weeks. That's pretty... I want to say "pathetic", but let's just say, far from my goal.
I don't have an immediate deadline but it's holding up my entire life - I even moved home to my family's house in order to finish this without the pressure of looking for a new temp job.
So, tomorrow night I had tentative plans to go hear music in the city - this means that I have to leave the house late afternoon to take the train, and the rest of the evening is taken, so starts my weekend...
I would love to think I'll get a lot done today on my work, but that hasn't happened yet, so why would it happen now?
On one hand, I'm scared that if I don't go out, I'll rebel and not get anything done anyway;
on the other hand, I'm scared that if I plan to leave my house on the train in the afternoon, I'll lose track of my day and end up not focusing on my work.
Either way, I lose.
And the truth is that, as I type this I realize, it's really not about whether or not to go out tomorrow night - if I concentrated at ALL tomorrow and got even 2 hours of work done it would be worth the celebration. I'm just scared that I won't. I'm so stuck.
Does anyone have any feedback?
I don't want to do this alone, and most of all, I don't want to waste any more time on this decision!