hi hi
hello
all
where
to start (?!).... I've been a procrastinator all my life, though at various
points I have gotten through by the skin of my teeth at other times I've destroyed
opportunities, lost jobs and most hurtfully refuted other peoples faith in me
by consistently not doing. I fear I am in the middle of that again now.
I
am aware that not doing feels worse than doing most of the time for me and yet
I sit here day after day, avoiding and squirming and never feeling relief. My
main feeling is of shame.
I
write list, set timers, use earplugs and block the internet, with varying success.
I was particularly interested to read here about the intersection with other addictive
behaviours and I feel that there is a little loop of addiction in this procrastination
for me. Likewise I have struggled with various eating disorders in my life, for
the last 5 years this has predominantly been binge eating, which ties in and is
used as a coping mechanism/driver for procrastination for me.
I feel that I am wasting my life and observing that waste in real time. I am
interested in the idea of a 12 step approach, maybe out of perversity because I
find structure so hard. I would be very interested in hearing people's experiences.
It's lonely this procrastination life.
love
ms.x
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hi mole and hazyjane good
hi mole and hazyjane
good to meet you.
ms.x
Welcome ms x
Hello ms x
Welcome!
It's not a solitary thing. There are heaps of us about.
I hope you find this a safe place to move on a little bit at a time, knowing that here you will be among people who will not judge you when you, like them, slip a bit, and who will encourage you back onto your feet again each time.
Have courage
welcome ms :)
You've come to the right place :).
As for the addiction 'intersection' you mention, yes, absolutely. I can switch between compulsions far more easily than I can 'transition' between different tasks. But with the awareness one develops here it's easier to catch yourself and get back on track.
Keep coming back :)
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It's an inside job...
oh I don't know how I
oh I don't know how I managed to do the formating so poorly?! oh dear....