progress

hello ladies and gents,

wanted to share my progress it's been close to 3 or 4 mos with you guys now. It's been rough in some ways and overall a growing experience. But, I'm gald to say that things have gotten better. Adaptation I guess, now that I'm close to being done with my first years classes I'd say I'm not an epic procrastinator anymore!!!!! I'm just more of an intermediate one, I get the job done I do studying usually daily or atleast every other day. My cramming is down, which is nice (not completely gone but down).

do you know that your brain can review the material you learned thousands and thousands of times during sleep? Yeah cramming is overated.

I've learned a bunch too, especially that anything can become an addiction. I'd like to talk some about my take on procrastination though, because it's something I think I've given quite some thought.

(I apologize but from here on out the writing will not be as logically composed but rather a continous output of thought, kind of like a creative writing piece, simply a self reflection) 

 Procrastination to me is not only the "grave in which oppurtunity is buried," it is also a sense of laziness and comfort. To me it really has a lot to feeling comfortable and wanting to stay comfortable. It's so easy to feel comfortable, comfort has a strong inertia to it one of the strongest pulls I've experienced. Makes sense though. But then the discomfort is worst during anticipation of a task. I'd like to say I'm an overachieving powerfully willed awesome motha trucka, and that my drive to be the best has constantly pushed me forward to do tasks and overcome procrastination. But, I feel like I'd be being dishonest. 

Well not entirely dishonest, my motivation to be a competant professional one day, and to master and understand material is there, and I use this motivation to edge away procrastination daily. However, I think a big component of my success is a healthy dosage of "fear." To me you need both. In a sense when I feel like slacking I just remember how much worse things will be if I put them off the pain, depressed feelings  and failure associated with it. That discomfort almost slaps me into working. It makes the comforting feeling go away fast, really fast. 

So how about now, right now I should technically be studying deep head and neck in anatomy, but I'm writing this instead in a sense procrastinating. Well I only said I'm making progress. Regardless however, just thinking about how stressful my sunday will be if I put off the work is already making my book seem more appealing "gray's Anatomy!"

So put it into my words find a way to make that comforting feeling be not so comforting anymore, if procrastination can no longer make you feel good. Then in a sense it's losts it's rewarding feeling and it will be harder for it to grasp you.