Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
I'm thankful for my immediate and extended families, for my supportive collegues, for the people of Iran and Mexico and other places who resist tyranny and stand up for democracy. I'm grateful for new technologies and for the people who make them free for everyone with a computer. I'm thankful for the bonus that allowed me to buy a new computer. I'm thankful for another chance at keeping my job. I'm thankful for my basic health, and for the minor problems that alert me to the need to maintain my health. I'm thanful for my faithful dogs.
I'm thankful for my own intelligence, creativity, and capabilities. I'm thankful for this web site.
Today I am grateful for 6 months of sobriety, for the 12 step fellowships I share, and for having a dog that I am taking care of who gets me up and out of the house for a bit each day. I am grateful for having had a long time of not working to be able to start establishing some new habits that are beginning to work. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn how to discuss difficult subjects with my spouse without getting badly triggered. I am grateful for building a relationship with my Higher Power, as I understand it/him/her.
I am grateful for the Serenity Prayer, the Third Step Prayer and the daily reprieve I get from 'self' that I get when I pray them.
I am grateful to learn that it is not my place to run the show.
Today I am grateful for almost everything. I have a life- I am a participator of life and not just a spectator any more. I have a purpose- to work the 12 ateps. By the grace of God, one day at a time , "most" of the time I have acceptance with others, and at least working toward acceptance of myself. For me, that is a miracle.
similar to a recent one, today i have felt periods of intense anxiety, overwhelmed, and feeling like everything was horrible and it was never going to get better.
I've had periods where i felt this way for years.
but now it's different. Even in the midst of those periods, instead of thinking, simultaneously, "what is wrong with me / my life that i feel this way," i now think, "this is what i'm like. i go thru periods like this. I have this trigger in me where i have these intense negative feelings."
Almost as if i was a diabetic and might get sugar shock at times, or had a heart condition and might get winded at times. Or had migraines and might get intense headaches at times.
it's soooo much better to know that this is just something that happens to me. It creates a boundary, a container, to hold the experience. Before, the thinking, "what's the matter w/ me thet i feel this way," was just the opposite--it inflamed and fed back on the feeling, building it exponentially, boundlessly.
Also, now, i am prepared for the time when the feeling will pass. I accept that passing away of the feeling as a natural part of the phenomena.
I am very grateful today to be aware of binging. I did not know 2 years ago that binging and procrastination are two sides of the same coin.
I am most grateful because this seems like a HP thing. Ie, i dont think i would have ever discovered that binging was binging on my own. It had to come from the outside.
That's because binging looks so much like productivity. And as a chronic procrastinator, ANYTIME i was productive, anyhow, i was so happy, i can't imagine being in that state, looking as some binge productivity i had just accomplished, and saying, "there's something wrong with this." How could there be? It looks like the antidote to my whole big problem? In fact the binging, the compulsive, rapid, even frantic work seems to balance out the procrastination.
So i dont think i would have ever figured it out on my own.
Along these lines, i am grateful that i suffer from the procrastination side of this coin much more often than the binge side. If i suffered from the binging more, my workplace would be delighted with me. they would encourage me, reward me. I dont think over those loud and pleasant voices i would have ever heard the softer, quieter voices of family, mental health, and god.
i am grateful that my perspective is changing, tho slowly, from "what is wrong with me" to "i am a chronic procrastinator and it is a huge challenge for me to overcome that on a day to day basis." i am finally starting to believe this message i'm telling myself.
i am very grateful for the autofocus idea of having tasks on your list, doing "something" on them, crossing them out, then adding them again if they're not done.
It gives a sense of satisfaction and breaks the task down into pieces, so i dont have to feel like i have to get the whole thing done to cross it off.
I am having a very hard day today. But unlike 1 year ago, with the recovery i have experienced in this fellowship, i now have an expectation that my day could turn around at any point, and become productive from that point fwd. the time lost is still lost, but this used to feel to me like a fatal sentence, lost forever, ruined. But now i know and i believe that the 2nd half of the day may be productive, and i have perspective to see that for what it is: a half-productive day.
I am grateful today because i binge less. I used to so fear getting distracted that if i ever was in a good working flow, i would never interrupt it, and i would miss meetings and time-critical errands, etc. I did this because i feared getting lost in those short breaks, a 5 min break often turned into a 4 hour online or other type of distraction binge.
With my recovery here, i'm much less likely to binge on the side task, so i'm beginning to trust myself that a song break will be just 3 min and i'll be back to work. So it's much easer to take said breaks.
as i start to make use of small blocks of time, i'm starting to actually believe that i can accomplish things in several 1/2 hr blocks thruout the day, rather than one big 4 hour block. a chance to work for 1/2 hr used to seem to me all but worthless, now i see such small blocks as valuable--an opportunity to take the next step in a task.
The best benefit for me of this change is that i can stop, reflect, and remind myself of step 3 and step 11, that i do the will of Higher Power. That's a much better place than before when i would just let my life shrink to just this one task right now.
1. I'm grateful for the opportunity to help people by answering phones at AA Intergroup.
2. I'm grateful that I'm basically healthy. I have some chronic problems, but nothing hurts at the moment, I'm able to walk, able to see, able to type, etc. There have been times when this was not true, so I know what a gift it is to be healthy and pain-free.
3. I'm grateful for the intelligence I was graced with at birth (nothing I did to earn it!), that I learn fast and can teach myself things.
4. I'm grateful I have good technical skills, since that opens opportunities of many types for me.
5. I'm grateful that I have a roof over my head, a comfortable place to sleep, and enough to eat.
1) Speed reading- I have been a speed reader since 7th grade and a super reader between age 23-45.
2) Glass stain painting
3) able to find anything on the internet
4) able to get almost anything cheaper than retail
5) love of cooking
thankful for...
I'm thankful for my immediate and extended families, for my supportive collegues, for the people of Iran and Mexico and other places who resist tyranny and stand up for democracy. I'm grateful for new technologies and for the people who make them free for everyone with a computer. I'm thankful for the bonus that allowed me to buy a new computer. I'm thankful for another chance at keeping my job. I'm thankful for my basic health, and for the minor problems that alert me to the need to maintain my health. I'm thanful for my faithful dogs.
I'm thankful for my own intelligence, creativity, and capabilities. I'm thankful for this web site.
gratitudinal attitude
Today I am grateful for 6 months of sobriety, for the 12 step fellowships I share, and for having a dog that I am taking care of who gets me up and out of the house for a bit each day. I am grateful for having had a long time of not working to be able to start establishing some new habits that are beginning to work. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn how to discuss difficult subjects with my spouse without getting badly triggered. I am grateful for building a relationship with my Higher Power, as I understand it/him/her.
I am grateful for the Serenity Prayer, the Third Step Prayer and the daily reprieve I get from 'self' that I get when I pray them.
I am grateful to learn that it is not my place to run the show.
asking for help to do the next right thing
grateful
Today I am grateful for almost everything. I have a life- I am a participator of life and not just a spectator any more. I have a purpose- to work the 12 ateps. By the grace of God, one day at a time , "most" of the time I have acceptance with others, and at least working toward acceptance of myself. For me, that is a miracle.
babarino 6.7.09-gratitude
Gratitude List 6.7.09
1. got one item on long term project done
2. have a roof over my head
3. have food to eat
4. have friends who care about me
5. a job
6. kitty cats
7. family
4.6.09-Babarino
1. Coworker who stepped up when needed.
2. another chance later this month
gratitude list
1. Got item on master list done
2. I have a higher power.
3.I don't have to live a life of unfulfilled goals and dreams due to my own inability to stop procrastinating.
4. This website.
CL grateful
i am grateful that today and yesterday i managed to get my morning work routine tasks done. One of them is challenging for me.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL grateful 8--awareness that i get stressed
similar to a recent one, today i have felt periods of intense anxiety, overwhelmed, and feeling like everything was horrible and it was never going to get better.
I've had periods where i felt this way for years.
but now it's different. Even in the midst of those periods, instead of thinking, simultaneously, "what is wrong with me / my life that i feel this way," i now think, "this is what i'm like. i go thru periods like this. I have this trigger in me where i have these intense negative feelings."
Almost as if i was a diabetic and might get sugar shock at times, or had a heart condition and might get winded at times. Or had migraines and might get intense headaches at times.
it's soooo much better to know that this is just something that happens to me. It creates a boundary, a container, to hold the experience. Before, the thinking, "what's the matter w/ me thet i feel this way," was just the opposite--it inflamed and fed back on the feeling, building it exponentially, boundlessly.
Also, now, i am prepared for the time when the feeling will pass. I accept that passing away of the feeling as a natural part of the phenomena.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
thanks, clement
Hi Clement!
Thanks so much for your post, and for sharing your experience, strength, and hope with the group.
This post was very helpful to me personally. I have the same symptom; but often forget to not be harsh with myself.
I will try to think about and remember your post.
Thanks.
Recycler
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
CL grateful 7--awareness of binging
I am very grateful today to be aware of binging. I did not know 2 years ago that binging and procrastination are two sides of the same coin.
I am most grateful because this seems like a HP thing. Ie, i dont think i would have ever discovered that binging was binging on my own. It had to come from the outside.
That's because binging looks so much like productivity. And as a chronic procrastinator, ANYTIME i was productive, anyhow, i was so happy, i can't imagine being in that state, looking as some binge productivity i had just accomplished, and saying, "there's something wrong with this." How could there be? It looks like the antidote to my whole big problem? In fact the binging, the compulsive, rapid, even frantic work seems to balance out the procrastination.
So i dont think i would have ever figured it out on my own.
Along these lines, i am grateful that i suffer from the procrastination side of this coin much more often than the binge side. If i suffered from the binging more, my workplace would be delighted with me. they would encourage me, reward me. I dont think over those loud and pleasant voices i would have ever heard the softer, quieter voices of family, mental health, and god.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL grateful 6
i'm grateful that since i gave the results of my day over to HP, when i hit the pillow each night i can deeply enjoy the relaxation.
before i used to go to bed every night thinking about how i didnt do enuf that day.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL grateful 5
i am grateful that my perspective is changing, tho slowly, from "what is wrong with me" to "i am a chronic procrastinator and it is a huge challenge for me to overcome that on a day to day basis." i am finally starting to believe this message i'm telling myself.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL grateful 4
i am very grateful for the autofocus idea of having tasks on your list, doing "something" on them, crossing them out, then adding them again if they're not done.
It gives a sense of satisfaction and breaks the task down into pieces, so i dont have to feel like i have to get the whole thing done to cross it off.
this is helping me today.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL grateful 3
I am having a very hard day today. But unlike 1 year ago, with the recovery i have experienced in this fellowship, i now have an expectation that my day could turn around at any point, and become productive from that point fwd. the time lost is still lost, but this used to feel to me like a fatal sentence, lost forever, ruined. But now i know and i believe that the 2nd half of the day may be productive, and i have perspective to see that for what it is: a half-productive day.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
making progress
check ins TG are helping reduce my backlog
CL grateful 2
I am grateful today because i binge less. I used to so fear getting distracted that if i ever was in a good working flow, i would never interrupt it, and i would miss meetings and time-critical errands, etc. I did this because i feared getting lost in those short breaks, a 5 min break often turned into a 4 hour online or other type of distraction binge.
With my recovery here, i'm much less likely to binge on the side task, so i'm beginning to trust myself that a song break will be just 3 min and i'll be back to work. So it's much easer to take said breaks.
as i start to make use of small blocks of time, i'm starting to actually believe that i can accomplish things in several 1/2 hr blocks thruout the day, rather than one big 4 hour block. a chance to work for 1/2 hr used to seem to me all but worthless, now i see such small blocks as valuable--an opportunity to take the next step in a task.
The best benefit for me of this change is that i can stop, reflect, and remind myself of step 3 and step 11, that i do the will of Higher Power. That's a much better place than before when i would just let my life shrink to just this one task right now.
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
Pro's Gratitude List - 3 Nov 06
Here are my five things for today:
1. I'm grateful for the opportunity to help people by answering phones at AA Intergroup.
2. I'm grateful that I'm basically healthy. I have some chronic problems, but nothing hurts at the moment, I'm able to walk, able to see, able to type, etc. There have been times when this was not true, so I know what a gift it is to be healthy and pain-free.
3. I'm grateful for the intelligence I was graced with at birth (nothing I did to earn it!), that I learn fast and can teach myself things.
4. I'm grateful I have good technical skills, since that opens opportunities of many types for me.
5. I'm grateful that I have a roof over my head, a comfortable place to sleep, and enough to eat.
Gratitude is great
My List
1. Health
2. A secure place to live which is getting better and more comfortable as I work on it.
3. Friends - people I trust and who trust me
4. Financial recovery in DA. I have money now just don't know how to spend it yet.
5. Times of peace which come more frequently nowadays.
Thanks to others for sharing their lists, they are inspiring.
Regards Rexroth
Beautiful list. Here's mine too.
My health, eyes, strength, breath, sensation, grace
My family, mom, dad, bro and kids
My friend family, including kids
My ability to judge, my clarity, my values and understanding
My imagination, the thing that lets me create the future
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Good to acknowledge these things.
Housereclaimer 11/3/2006
1) Speed reading- I have been a speed reader since 7th grade and a super reader between age 23-45.
2) Glass stain painting
3) able to find anything on the internet
4) able to get almost anything cheaper than retail
5) love of cooking
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