Things I have learned, and things I will hopefully remember...
So I came to this forum, because I was desperately trying to find a way out of procrastinating on my bachelor thesis. The good news is, that I have finished the thesis (3 months late) and though I am not out of all the trouble that got me into, I delivered just on time that will not make the next steps impossible.
Things I have learned:
I am incredibly good at doing things under time pressure, but it cannot
be done in a healthy way (long nights, little sleep, no time to eat). So
I do not have a concentration problem, but a procrastination problem.
I am a perfectionist, and the only way I overcame that was by waiting till the pressure was really high, as in swim or perish. Perfectionism also keeps me from doing things I would enjoy, because I hate not being good at something immediately and I hate being seen practising or failing. Yes, weird. So thats why I avoid people when I feel like I am failing and I hate it when someone asks about my work. What do do about that? I don't know...
I am afraid of change. The more change a task implies, the more I procrastinate on it. At the same time change is inevitable and I enjoy new things when they happen. I believe I know how that developed, but maybe I need therapy.
I believed the memory would start me going earlier next time, but when I
delivered the paper, I started procrastinating on the next thing
But how do I remember this breathtaking feeling of panic, of fear of failure and unhealthy, stressed out, jet-lagged feeling of writing 16 hours a day?