No work ethic anymore
Hey guys! If you've noticed me posting and then not posting again, that is me struggling.
I'm sure this has been posted before by others, but lately I have had zero work ethic (work being school for me). I have switched majors twice, and really need to stick with something for my son's sake. I really DO want a degree, but I kind of hate working on it. Why do I want it? So that other people don't think I am a failure. Everyday I tell myself I want to QUIT school forever and get a crappy job. Every one of my classes I am not interested in because I don't give an eff and everything seems pointless. I may have PPD, so that is probably part of it.
But also I am so TIRED. Sure, I have a baby who wakes up a few times a night to be fed, but even if I get some sleep it isn't enough. I have no pep in my step. And I'm not anemic.
How do I get my work ethic back? Crossing things off the list used to give me such a thrill, but now by the time I sit down to do hw, I am exhausted.
Thing is, my dad wants me to go to medical school, and I just don't think a procrastinator like me would do well in such a competitive environment.
I hope some of this makes sense and doesn't sound like a whiney mess. What do I do???