Accountability in close relationships
I hit a new low yesterday, after a week of feeling quite good and doing "something" at least. "Something" means that I did every "around" the paper without writing anything. I am supposed to deliver this tomorrow, but had planned on delivering end of July. Yes, I am a chronic procrastinator.
The worst part is that I started lying about my progress to my S/O and friends from University, and I was telling them I was almost done. (Since a month, so I guess they figured something.) The hard truth is that I have done a lot of research, but I have not written a single page. Not a single line even. I had to confess this to my S/O yesterday, and I have felt really depressed ever since. I also started to "hide" from everyone that might possibly ask, and nearly had a panic attack in the library when I thought I had seen the professor that I should be giving the paper too.
I came completely clean to my S/O, who has always been extremely supportive and wanting to help me in every way possible. All I did in return was to tell him "he is not my father, to check my homework like that". After yesterday, I asked him to check my progress in the evening from now on, so I might feel a pressure of sorts.
Though this might really help, I fear of feeling aversion to the one closest to me...
Does anybody have any experience with accountability to people close to them and how to deal with this in a relationship saving way?