Dreaming of a life free from procrastination...
I've been lurking on these forums for a while now and have found a lot of comfort from reading the posts of others. It's a huge relief to know that I'm not the only one struggling with the frustrations of chronic (and in my case I really mean CHRONIC!) procrastination.
I have come to a point in my life where I feel that I cannot continue to exist as I have been up to now. I'll be 30 soon (OK - not too ancient...) and am terrified that I am going to procrastinate away the rest of my life as I have done the preceding 10+ years.
Although I have managed to achieve many of the things that society says I 'should' have achieved (decent education, semi-successful career etc.), it has been a constant battle against myself and my need to procrastinate and, as a result, has been at the expense of any sense of satsfaction or pleasure that I might otherwise have had. Why do I have to force myself to do the things that seem to come so naturally to others?
At this point, my procrastination has got so bad that I am genuinely afraid that my job might be at risk. I am a good employee in many ways but if my boss knew the true extent of my constant putting-off of tasks then I'm sure I'd be fired.
I have recently begun a masters degree in addition to my job and am determined that I won't let procrastination ruin my chances. However, I've already noticed some of my dysfunctional behaviours creeping in whenever I sit down to study. I really think that the daily check-ins could be a great tool to help me overcome this - I just hope that I can persuade myself to use them regularly!!
Well, I doubt anyone has read down this far, but setting this all down in writing has felt pretty good. Maybe it's the first step on the road to recovery.
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Welcome to the group cmw! I relate to almost everything you've said. Don't be so hard on yourself - things don't come as naturally to other people as it looks from the outside.
Read the posts and be diligent in working at the problem and we'll all support you along the way! Hope to see you around in chatbox!
Welcome ((((cmw)))) & ((((chess pawn)))
So glad you are here with us and that you've taken the courageous steps to share. Of course, I relate too!! It's really so nice to know I'm no longer alone in this crazy, crazy "thing!!" Please keep coming and posting!!
♥"Careful the wish we make, wishes are children. Careful the path they take, wishes come true..." From "Children Will Listen," by Stephen Sondheim.♥
Almost everything that you wrote word for word would apply to myself. I'm also new to the site and also in fear of losing my current job. I think that the only minor difference is that I have five more years of procrastination under my belt!
Best hope in recovery. Lets just keep walking.