Thank you all for your contributions here. I just received my official acceptance and so I'm going to tell my story, and I'll be quasi-brief.
Up until 7 years ago, I was a monster salesman. I owned three businesses and made a ton of money. With 75 employess, I was a "somebody." Then the market crashed and so did my confidence. I became a nobody.There's nothing worse.
I sit at my desk and do nothing and justify it in my head. The excuses are legendary. I've been on drugs for ADD, spent many thousands of dollars on therapy, and posted everything around my office from the Nike swoosh, to pics of things I want, to my kids' photos. Yet, here I sit. Perhaps this is my past resort?