October 22, 2010 Friday
Again this morning from Micheal Z "Wisdom of the Rooms" on the 12 steps program:
Accepting that I was powerless over people, places and things was a
concept I rebelled against on almost every level in the beginning.
Before recovery, I labored under the belief that I could not only
control others (especially those I loved and cared for), but that it
was my duty to do so. Despite the fact that it rarely worked, I
stubbornly persisted, frustrating myself and irritating and alienating
those I was trying to control - er, I mean help.
When I entered Al-Anon, I was told that the reason I had been unable to
influence, help or control another was because I was in fact powerless
over other people, places and things. "If that's true, then there is
absolutely no hope for this situation!" I thought. Accepting this was
contrary to everything I believed and meant complete defeat and sure
ruin. What was I to do?
By working my program, I soon learned that surrendering to this
powerlessness was actually the gateway to a new freedom. Once the
untenable burden of controlling or fixing others was lifted, I was
suddenly free to invest my energy where I did have some power and
influence - over my own life. And that's when I realized I was no
longer helpless to really fix my life and situation.
Today I understand and truly appreciate that I may be powerless, but I'm not helpless.
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tracy-la fri oct 22 showing up
Good Day:
1. Checking in - Done
2. Reading - Done tracy-la
3. Check calendar - Done
4. Plan to Plan - Done
5. Exercise - planned
6. Gratitudes / Self Affirmation - Done
Have a great day everyone!
Financial Responsibility (adapted from Melodie Beatty)
God/HP, help me remember that what seems hopeless today can often be solved tomorrow, even if I can't see the solution. If I have allowed my procrastination, other habits, the problems/financial irresponsibility of others or my own lack of action to hurt me financially, help me repair and restore my boundaries around money -- and what I am willing to lose. Help me understand that I do not have to allow anyone else's problems to hurt me financially. Help me go on with m lie in spite of my present financial circumstances, trusting that if I am willing to make mends and be responsible, things will work out.
To get more done, work less
Saw this article (while procrastinating) and thought it fit pretty well:
http://money.cnn.com/2010/10/21/pf/jobs/tony_schwartz_energy_project.fortune/index.htm
Good morning! Here's my
Good morning! Here's my list for the day. Have a good one!
- apply to two jobs
- find car accident report
- walk for one hour
- kick ass at interview
- send invoice to friend
A.-
Journey 11:15
Late check in but did ok this morning - I got up at 5:15. I wanted to be at the gym at 6:15 but I didn't get there until 6:30 - but still much better! I was at my desk at about 9:05 which is ok. Today I can really blame traffic too, as it was pretty bad.
I'm just now making my todo list but that's because someone asked for help with a problem first thing and I worked on that for a while. I have to strike a balance between how much time I spend on helping walk-ins, but it is part of our job to do troubleshooting and this guy is working on my 2nd priority project so I figured it was a good use of my time. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
Anyway, now for todo list. In general, I know I have to go to a business lunch today, and I have a meeting this afternoon about my #1 priority project. I have some batch jobs that must be done today for this weekend, and the rest of the day will be spent on the 2nd priority project.
Jo
'You become what you think about most of the time.' - Brian Tracy
End o' the Scribbler's Week - The Saga Continues
rep
get up at 6make bedexercisecoffee, paperhealthy breakfastcheckinsMorning
Update QuickenIntvw Price re: Outlook11Call 3 re: social ///Afternoon
Evening
kromer 9:45 CI
Kind of a slow start today but I've had prayer time, started gel and checked email.
For today I need to:
*
order primers, read through probe-making protocol, get blotting protocol (to read over the weekend)*Prep RA and order more
*shopping list (will do this soon)
*financial stuff
*read through SCF papers (working on this now), look at SCF slides, read up on fixation so I can fix what I think are some problems there, and come up with a plan for what to try next
*Youth group (email/text to make sure I'm confident of plans
*Email DC, look for notes, email DP (will do these soon)
*Figure out how to split sample(I have some ideas for this; will practice tomorrow)
OK, right now I'm going to figure out how to split sample, then I'll work on primer orders.
End o' the Scribbler's Week
Prep
get up at 6make bedexercisecoffee, paperhealthy breakfastcheckinsMorning
Afternoon
Evening
Hi, Just happened to read
Hi,
Just happened to read your post. I am also working on making a daily schedule and following it but I am just a beginner. The word 'Healthy Breakfast' attracted my attention. Can you tell me what is a healthy breakfast ? Hope you don't mind.
Breakfast
Oatmeal seems to work the best for weight management for me, in addition to generally being regarded as healthy by experts. I usually eat two-thirds of a cup (dry), with some frozen blueberries and a half-cup of active, sugar-sweetened yogurt do help it down.
Thanks!
Thanks!
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I will do today
1. Take shower2. Get dressed3. Make bed
4. Eat brunch5. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
6. Go to class from 10-17. Eat dinner8. Print out copies of lessons from Step Study9. Clear the floor for 20 minutes
10. Wash dishes
11. Study religious material12. Declutter e-mail from this week
13. Go to work14. Go to the 10:00 telephone DA meetingThanks for letting me share.
today
Control is a big issue for me. I get frustrated when things dont go smoothly, which of course is often as with farming, the weather, the animals dont always cooperate with the plan you have in your mind. Yesterday, the day went pretty much on time and on schedule, I was pretty much ready to go to bed at 9h00, except one of the cows showed signs she might go in labor. After 2 hours in a cold barn, I realized she was probably just uncomfortable due to the calf dancing the Rumba in her belly. I am powerless to make things happen exactly how and when I want. The older I get, the more I find life is just like sailing. You can give it a general direction, but the sea will do what the sea will do, a nice gentle breeze or a storm. The only thing you control is what you do to maintain your bearing. This make me think a lot to the first part of the Serenity prayer: "God, grant me serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference." Where I need to work the most on this is in my relationships. Recently a friend I care about a lot decided to move out of my life, after I invested a lot emotionally. I was upset and resentful. It has been difficult to accept. Many times I tried to turn over things to God but I would still try fix it on my own, unable to accept and let go, wasting time and energy to control the outcome. Another anonymous 12 steps quote that I saw recently helps me understand what is going on:
"Expectations are premeditated resentments."
Oh, how I still like to try to control people, places and things.
Although the first step teaches me my helplessness, and the third step
gives me the tools to face life, I'm still annoyed, if things go my
way. And usually I can go back to my resentment of my expectations.
Expectations are signs that I am not yet completely transformed my life
in God's will and the means that I forgotthat my task is to adapt, and
to show that God and it is his duty to consider carefully the results.
Since the results of the expectations are covered, it's no wonder that
so easily lead to resentment. Today I use the expectations of my
memories and thoughts on energy policies more wear and I stay out of
the focus on results. I do now, just a quick first step, the second and
third on the situation and above my expectations of my higher power.
This allows me to be really open to(Presents the results and are always
there when they are open for it), and keeps me safe unnecessary
resentment. This program really works, when I work out.
wake up--->6h15
dressbarn check: no calf yetLuath housetrainingcoffeeSerenity prayerLaundrycheckin--->7h50
plan dayput clothes asidebarn choresbreakfastdecluttering challenge: car (6)can tomatoes
plan barn winterizing: started
technical bulletin writing (1 hour)
checkin--->13h15
lunch
coop: hardware for barnget beef and ask for loading box at DK and socializing Luah (SL)
pork and feed at FK and SL
stop at HC and invite him for supper Saturday and SL=turned into coffee and convostop post officephone GF for butchering
phone Tim for steer slaughtering
phone coop for butchering lamb
pick TDBB beans for seed
checkin---> 17h53 (16h00)
time with John and Luathbarn choressupperphone JW for car
chekin--->20h25 (20h00)
supper
Luath housetraining
bedtime--->21h00
Carpe Diem