From a new (future past ?) procrastinator

Hello everybody !

My name on the site is Perfectly_Human for I have just read The Now Habit by Neil Fiore and I liked the expression very much since I have always had a BIG problem with perfectionism. Since my early childhood, my mother has never been satisfied with any of my results. As a consequence, I became a very good student (but quite an unhappy one) and a great procrastinator... 

Currently, I am doing a PHD in an Asian country. I am a second year student. But my thesis hasn't started yet. Terrible, isn't it ? Well, the first year, I spent my time doing three major things : trying to forget the biggest love of my life (who dumped me the first month I entered the doctoral program) ; attending the compulsory courses of the first year (no more course from the second year) and asking myself what I was doing in a doctoral program (apart from the scholarship I got, I had not a clue).

Eventually, the second year started and I decided to give it a try. My motivation rose tremendously after reading The Success Principles by Jack Canfield and I started to work crazily, inhumanly, 11 hours a day, 6 days a week. The result of my workaholism ? I exhausted myself ! And I ended up doing nothing for nearly 2 whole months. So since the beginning of September, I am looking for a balance.

No more Jack Canfield's «Push it to the limit !» But Neil Fiore's «Play more - Work less, but better !»

I really want to make it. I want to complete my PHD and preferably... ALIVE !

As it is the biggest and longest project of my life, it is also the scariest. So any support will be more than welcome !

After reading The Now Habit, I tried to work 5 hours a day just as he says. It lasted 6 days. Then, it was followed by 4 days of procrastination and masochism (eating more than I should, watching desperately movies after movies, and so on). What happened ? Well, during those 6 days, as I was progressing slowly (but effectively), an inner voice would come and say louder and louder to me : «You are not working enough ; You will never make it at that rhythm ; You should quit right away ; No use ; What you write is not good enough...». And I quit... well, four days. This is when I decided to join you !

In personal development books, they say that it takes 21 days to install a new habit. So I would like to come and post everyday (on weekdays) after my 5 hours of work, for at least the next 3 weeks and maybe... till the graduation if it is working well !

So come and drop me a line anytime at the Special Projects and Master Lists ! I will definitely appreciate it.

Forgive me if my English is a bit strange from time to time. I am an European but English is not my mother tongue. 

Thank you in advance and good luck to everyone ! We can make it !