My problem and my vision

Briefly this is my story.

I am a newly college graduate

Many assignements in school I have procrastinated doing. Being late has been somewhat of a habit for me especially for school work.

In primary school I procrastinated learning poems, and I would stand in front of the class crying because I hadn't learned my poem. I never flunked out of school or college, but my grades were mid-averages while they could be excellent.

I procrastinate a lot, and I wonder where this comes from. It is important for me to live my own life and have my own values and not let other people tell me what to do or how to live. Sometimes procrastination is a rebellion against the MAN or society for me.

The avoidance part of procrastination is a reality for me. I procrastinate to avoid work. I may ask: why?

-Because I am lazy and can depend off my parents or friends?

-Because I'm not sure what I want to do, and if I want to do it?

-Because I have some depressive symptoms?

Nevertheless there are some things that I am sure of. I value the world I live in, my health, my family, my friends, nature, trees... I want to help make this world a better place. I know that doing nothing can do little to mend this world.

 I digress a bit, but the point is that I procrastinate decision. Uncertainty in career path and the fact that I believe we live in a consumerist society that is not sustianable makes me kind of feel that my procastination is ok.

But actively loving your parents does not wait, exercising, makind sure I have money because my parents will not always take care of me does not wait. 

I love the quote on this website because I know many opportunities have been buried in my life because of my procrastination; moreover, procrastination has made me live a stressful life.

I envision a life in which I am always a little bit early on tasks I choose to do. I envision alife in which I obtain good deals on plane tickets, attend many events I want to, produce work I am proud of because I know I did the best I could. I envision a life I do what I need to do now, so that I have more time to be. I envision a world in which because I don't procrastinate work, play tastes sweeter.