Starting out today, 12/14/09
Good morning all:
so, this morning I am sitting with shame and dismay.
Today is the deadline for my paper and I don't think it will be done.
I'm tired. I have exerted a huge amount of effort over the past few days - but the energy hasn't been on doing the work. It's been on avoiding doing it. And then trying to deal with the emotions that come up when I avoid.
I wish for peace today. Peace and productivity. Then, maybe, when this all blows over, I can reflect on what actually went down, how I actually approached thing and learn from that for next time.
I imagine my Higher Power picking me up (a younger me, maybe 9)and placing me on his knee. Holding me close and wiping my tears. And telling me, "It's alright. It's all going to be alright. Do what you can. That is enough. That is enough."
Wishing all well, and thanks for listening.