Hi Pro Buddies!
This morning at the gym I did my cardio, stretches & ab exercises.
At work this morning I did my highlighted projects first, so I would have things ready for my boss to sign &/or give feedback on. At lunchtime I did an errand, ate my food, then partially assembled a project from home (I need to finish that one tomorrow). After lunch there was another avalanche of projects, so I spent most of the afternoon digging out from those. At the end of the day I prioritized and highlighted my project list for Thursday.
After work I went by the condo & started a load of clothes to wash, ate dinner with some acquaintances, then went to a class. Arriving at home, I put the clothes in the dryer and started another load to wash. I brushed my teeth, and washed and moisturized my face. Will I do any more things before going to sleep? I guess I'm going to find out! ;)
Have a great night, everyone! :)
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Didn't get so much done today:
Checked personal email, LJ, etc
Got to work on time, looking presentable and without mad rushing
Read book on train
Updated shopping list
Checked work email
Punched some documents
Founds some time slots for a conference call
Planned how to remind my 4 bosses of all their meetings in future
Checked whether AC meeting was going ahead and had a look for minutes
Made a charity donation
Did some bible filing
I honestly can't remember if I achieved anything in lunchbreak
Sent conference call invite
Did some bible filing
Went to collect a set top box for S
Printed thing for L
Sorted out/prioritised tasklist & emails for tomorrow
Read book on train
Listed an item for sale on ebay
Changed my details on ebay
Changed my details on paypal
I had a big old procrastinate at work today (as I said earlier) and I think I know what the problem was - being all flushed with the success of the last couple of days, I'd devised a new work timetable for myself - much simpler than my usual ones, but still a timetable. Within the first hour, actually the first minute, of work, I had 'failed at it' and that had a knock-on effect on my day. I clearly need to stop doing timetables at all!
I keep getting the impulse to set up routines and time targets for myself - I'm only now realising how utterly hedged in I was by rules and failures - I almost can't conceive of doing things without a rigid structure - and yet I'd been thinking of myself as a very chaotic, creative, random person! I'mnot sure what's caused the blinders to lift recently.
I need to add in more ways to change my thinking and get me feeling positive about what I can do. But without insisting that I must do all of these every day! How about...
Reading/watching inspirational fiction
Finding real-life stories that inspire me
Making myself look fantastic
Healthy eating and exercise (good for the mind as well!!)
I'm going to do what I can to surround myself with positive sounds and images - I might pick up a (cheap, I'm so broke) music player tomorrow so I can listen to my favourite songs and my own voice saying 'I can and I will...' over and over :)
First day back from vacation - and I took a couple weeks off my daily check-ins before that, as we dealt with a new J health crisis. Vaca provided some good time for a review of Steps 1-2-3 - this time I used an old Hazelden classic, "Stools & Bottles," and got some new insights that were helpful. Realized that ever since J got really ill, I've slipped back into trying to manage my life perfectly, to control the grief and secure the future - both impossible so I'm left feeling like a failure, chronically guilty and unhappy. It was quite a revelation.
My only chance for serenity is complete surrender, to "real-eyes" my powerlessness, my need for multiple 12-Step programs and support; to daily ask God to handle everything that I can't today, and just do the next right thing.
So far today I've had some breakfast, quiet time, sponsor call, pet time including a little play (my Cavvie is a compulsive bubble chaser!), cleaning time, went through the vaca-mail pile, tuned up my 'puter, resolved a couple of intranet issues, talked to a program friend on the phone for a few minutes, and checked in here. Not as productive a morning as I'd hoped for, but the computer porblems were unexpected and the time they required, unavoidable. I also spent about half an hour catching up with some interesting posts here. It's good to be back among my PA friends.
Welcome back *hugs*
thats a good one. i relate! :D
the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
i am emotionally shaken (in a very good way) because of that quote i put in yesterday's thread replying to lucky. It just goes to show, god is MORE real than real life to me.
The way god presses on my spirit. It is too much to take. It is so good, and so beautiful. It is also irresistible. It is so clear that there is only one thing to do, to yield. to respond. The self gets pushed out.
It's as if i was a writer, say, and i got to spend time with the greatest writer of all time, say JRRTolkien. But not Tolkien, but someone who was 1000 times better than him. Someone who knew every instinct and talent and perspective i had on writing and had all those only 1000 times better. and had every other instinct and talent and perspective. And i got spend gobs of time with him.
Cause that's the thing. God knows how to be "me" better than i do. That's why for me 'self' is nothing. 'self' is a significant demotion.
And yet self is a resiliant buggar. Like kathy bates in Mercy, i keep think it's beat down and i can move on w/ life and yet it rises up to do battle once again.
And this is all why procrastination is a huge issue for me. Because when i'm feeling like this, lost in this wonderful (o and "by your side" by tenth avenue north is on the radio, i just love that song, so peaceful, so beautiful, so meaningful, as if i needed anything more beautiful than where i am in my own head right now) world in my own head. The fact that people at work are waiting for various programming tasks to be done...well that seems like an underworld thing (from the silver chair quote yesterday). I am indeed right now living in overworld in my own mind, just like puddleglum said. And that this work of fiction can actually come true in my own life...well it's just mind blowing. I am smitten before the overwhelming beauty of god. i'm done.
in a way i can't quite put together. it is time to leave this world, and return to underworld and programming and the various tasks that i am scheduled to do today, including mailing this urgent financial envelope. Why would i want to do that? well, i wouldnt. it's just that this overworld living has gotten me to believe that the god of the overworld wants me to, so, given the awesomeness of Him, i will. Even tho it seems irrelevant.
I SO want some of what you've got.
Re boring work, since we're swapping quotes try on this for size: (It's 'The Elixir' by George Herbert <3 )
TEACH me, my God and King,
In all things Thee to see,
And what I do in anything,
To do it as for Thee.
A man that looks on glass,
On it may stay his eye,
Or, if he pleaseth, through it pass,
And then the heaven espy.
All may of Thee partake ;
Nothing can be so mean
Which with this tincture (for Thy sake)
Will not grow bright and clean.
A servant with this clause
Makes drudgery divine :
Who sweeps a room as for Thy laws,
Makes that and the action fine.
This is the famous stone
That turneth all to gold ;
For that which God doth touch and own
Cannot for less be told.
very good. It reminds me of The practice of the presence of god by brother lawrence. and of the touch of the master's hand in my sig. Ie, this is where i feel like my life is heading, albeit slowly =/
<<<'self' is a significant demotion....And yet self is a resiliant buggar. Like kathy bates in Mercy, i keep think it's beat down and i can move on w/ life and yet it rises up to do battle once again.>>>
Thanks for this thought, clement. I so relate. Despite my best intentions, my "living sacrifice" keeps crawling off the altar! :-)
"crawling off the altar" - lol :D
I cannot see the threadstarter image :( I think it has something to do with firewall at work filtering content from mail.yahoo.com. anyway, I'll try to take a look from an outside connection later. thanks Vic!
Thank you all for sharing!
I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed this morning. I'm going to work on my take-home midterm until 10:30, then I'll make slide for mtg, then I'll go to mtg 1-2:30, then I'll talk to TE and DP and take care of VAD, then I'll do website updates and maybe go to dinner w/ classmates.
OK, now I have a plan! Heading to the chatbox now.
Good day all,
Thanks for the threadstarter! The image isn't showing up for me for some reason...
I'm in a dilemma now, was planning to go shopping in lunchbreak but have wasted about an hour this morning, hence really shouldn't take ANOTHER hour to go shopping when I'm very busy at work. But no shopping today probably means no running club tomorrow (I need a sports bra!) and I'm semi-convinced I've orchestrated this just to avoid going running. Grr.
I guess just take a little stroll for lunchbreak to clear my head and then really make an effort to be in an hour early tomorrow to get the bra. Except I really made an effort on Tuesday and that failed. It's hard to get up an hour early to do something you're decidedly apprehensive about doing anyway... HARD BUT NOT IMPOSSIBLE, I say :)
Thanks for sharing your inner dialogue, listen to the one who says you can no matter what the nay sayer throws at you. Good Luck.
Thank you Spirit <3 <3
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Thanks OZC I found the starter just for you.
Another "trick" I have been using is write down the next 3 things, along the microburst concept. 1. is always showing up and a bonus is knowing what day it is and now rememeber to smile!!!
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