New to group: Hello and HELP!
I've been a member for 14 weeks 3 days and am just now posting an intro. *sigh*
I am 34 years old, a single professional mom of a 9 year old, and am at my wit's end with myself. My daughter has learned all of my worst habits - and we live in a state of perpetual de-cluttering; maneuvering around boxes, clutter and cat fur (because it's impossible to vacuum around the clutter).
I can't let GO of my clutter. I am a packrat. We live in C.H.A.O.S. (For anyone who knows Flylady, that stands for Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome). I cannot be creative because I cannot find any of my art or sewing supplies, and if I do locate what I want I have nowhere to work. I also have a huge backlog of To-Do's and therefore I cannot be creative because of all the guilt.
I've been unsuccessful at my many attempts to get my poop in a group: Flylady, books, mom, etc. I suffer from depression - and am medicated. I function fairly well, and do have spurts where I get things 'almost' done. (Like housecleaning, for example). I know I am going about things in the wrong way; the all-or-nothingness of my perfectionism is choking me to death. I am sad and embarrassed for my daughter. I just cannot stay focused when I try to rid myself of cluttery baggage. I end up re-organizing it instead of ridding myself of it for good. I got rid of two truckfuls when we moved (First week of June) and we're still tripping over boxes and piles of crap that i can't find a home for yet cannot let go of.
Since I am at work, and I am just putting off my work by typing this (OH, I could go on and ON but I am sure you know exactly where I am coming from), I will cut this short and say "thanks for being here" and I need help but don't even know where to begin. I printed the "Motivation Follows Action" sticky and will try to work on this today.