Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Friday 6 March 2009

If you have made mistakes...there is always another chance for may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.

—Mary Pickford, American actress

CL mantra day 4

i needed this several times today:

in my uncomfortable place, seek god, not an exit.

i am posting to report that, and also because i am starting to procrastinate bedtime.

What really helped me yesterday was reading some things to think about when a former alcoholic is tempted to take another drink. Of course, i can't find it now, and, ironically, i spent probably an hour trying.

coming full circle, then, time ty apply my new mantra.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

I am making a commitment to

I am making a commitment to myself and in front of everybody in program that if I follow through with my homework this weekend, or even finish these things this week, I will reward myself.  The things I need to do are the following: finish reading AILD and Hamlet and Cymbeline, write paper on AILD.  Once, I do those things, I shall take myself out to a movie, The Watchmen, or something else that I would sincerely enjoy.

My motto for the day: I expect more for myself. And: less really is more.

GeorgeSmiley 4 PM

First of all my prayers for Agnus, and as my Quaker sister would say, we are holding you in the light...

This morning took No. 1 son to a college visit. His reaction... meh. It's one of 2 places he's been accepted, but he seems unmotivated to go there, and is more likely to start at the less demanding local school. My reaction to that... meh.

But it's his life and I cannot live it for him.

I'm back in my home office now and need to get to work on some 2500 words (two pieces) that I must finish by end of the day Sunday.

I've been avoiding starting but I'm going to start now.

Step 1: Finish listening to/transcribing  the recorded interview that will be used for Project T-G





The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

Quaker expression

GeorgeSmiley -- I've always loved that expression "to hold someone in the light" and I use it often! (I'm not a Quaker, but am very much a friend of Friends) Wink

I think sometimes people are uncomfortable hearing "I'll pray for you" especially if they belong to a different religion or are not religious at all.  But somehow people of all different backgrounds seem to understand "I'm holding you in the light" and feel that they are supported and cared for.


Recycler CI 4:30pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

4:30pm. During the next 1.5 hours, I need to be assertive and talk with someone, just to find out what is going on.

6pm CI. Oops, I didn't properly label my CI thread earlier. I've edited it now. I did talk with the other perons, but will go through the day chronologically.

The last number of days, I've been painting in the condo & I think the paint fumes were bothering me last night; I didn't sleep well. While I went to the gym in the morning, it was another day of stretches and ab workout, rather than cardio. However, I really didn't feel well, so didn't want to push it.

Got some assignments done at work in the morning.

Had taxes done at H & R Block. Somehow I took enough papers; the preparer said it was enough and that the taxes are now done. I am going to pretend she is telling me the truth. I still need to send in checks, and have made reminder notes on my calendar.

After the appt, while I was driving around, I tried to see the person that I needed to be assertive with, but they were out.

When I need to be assertive with someone, I prefer to see them asap -- I tried last night, I tried at lunchtime. Finally I did talk with them in person after work (more about that in a minute).

At work in the afternoon, I did two somewhat big projects -- things my boss asked me for at the last minute, so I felt impressed that I did get the first drafts of them done. Several changes will be coming through next week, but that is ok.

My project list is basically updated for Monday, to help the first of the week go as well as it can.

After work, I did talk with the person. I now have updated contact information.

Serenity Prayer. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. Who knows what is going to happen (other than HP)? There are still things I have concerns about. However, I have talked with the person and asked about the things I needed to ask about. Now I make the choice to let HP take over. It will be mid-April or so before I know for sure; + not being sure about any other shoes dropping mid-May or whenever. I'll talk with my sponsor on Monday.

Tonight: go to 12-step meeting. The other person won't be there, so I'm glad I took initiative to talk to them.

Gratitude for PA & HP. Wel, PA & HP helped me get my taxes done in a timely manner, so that I can be prepared to pay them. PA & HP have helped me continue to develop & follow my enhanced assignment list at work. And while I have tried to not force solutions with this other person, I have followed through as soon as I could to the best of my ability. I need my HP & progams for sure. Talk to you later :)

9:05pm. H.A.L.T. Back from my 12-step meeting. During the meeting, I didn't cry excessively, just a little bit toward the end and after the meeting. I thought about what Clement said about experiencing God in my uncomfortable place and not trying to find the exit. In addition to whatever reality of issues this week, I think I am also on emotional overload and (tmi) hormonal. Some H.A.L.T. is affecting me, so I think I need to go to give it up for the day and turn in and get some sleep.

Have a great night, everyone! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Hazelden thought for the day Friday


Anxiety is often our first reaction to conflict, problems, or even our own fears. In those moments, detaching and getting peaceful may seem disloyal or apathetic. We think: If I really care, I'll worry; if this is really important to me, I must stay upset. We convince ourselves that outcomes will be positively affected by the amount of time we spend worrying.

Our best problem-solving resource is peace. Solutions arise easily and naturally out of a peaceful state. Often, fear and anxiety block solutions. Anxiety gives power to the problem, not the solution. It does not help to harbor turmoil. It does not help.

Peace is available if we choose it. In spite of chaos and unsolved problems around us, all is well. Things will work out. We can surround ourselves with the resources of the Universe: water, earth, a sunset, a walk, a prayer, a friend. We can relax and let ourselves feel peace.

Today, I will let go of my need to stay in turmoil. I will cultivate peace and trust that timely solutions and goodness will arise naturally and harmoniously out of the wellspring of peace. I will consciously let go and let God.



For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want - Romans 7:19

Thanks Journey!

I love that thank you for sharing it - I choose Peace, YES! Let go and Let God :-)

need this one!

Hi Jo!

Thanks! I need this one right now! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

tiptree ci


x edit/mail out minutes 1/4 hr
x promotion tracker 2 hrs
- summary report 1 hr
- detailed click report 1 hr
- ad submission not constrained by width (test) 1/2 hr
- inst munge tested 1 hr
- photocopy sheet music 1/4 hr
- exercise 1 hr
- practice g. 1/2 hr
- return dvd 1/2 hr
- watch Spirit of the Beehive 1 1/2 hr
- autocomplete test 3/4 hr
- read 25 pp EoC 1/2 hr
- read 25 pp saf. 1/2 hr
- clean office desk + floor 3/4 hr

total: 12 hrs estimated

Agnus seeking help

I am sitting in an airport waiting 5 hours for the next plane because I missed my scheduled flight. As others have shared here, I've been procrastinating sleep, which has snowballed into a big problem of low energy, poor and procrastinated eating, anxiety and depression. Last night, after suriving a major work event by the skin of my teeth (I'd procrastinated preparing for it), I felt that strange phenomenon of adrenaline and relief, a sort of "white-out" where nothing matters and I feel sort of high. As a direct result, I overate mindlessly at dinner, to the point of feeling physical pain afterward (a slip in another 12-Step program), and woke up feeling badly hungover. My head still aches. 

Today's impact is that I have lost 5 precious hours with my Mom and Dad, both of whom are in their final months of life on this Earth. And I feel like crap.

This disease is a killer. It kills life out of my relationship with God, others and myself, and it steals joy even from our successful moments. I hate it.

At one time, I was able to contribute some recovery to this forum. But I feel almost hopeless now. Even my prayers feel hollow, inauthentic. empty. It would sure help me to hear some experience, strength and hope from others who have had this experience of major procras relapse - how does one stop the insanity and get back on the right track?

[[[[Ag]]]] Ag, I have


Ag, I have been amazed by how much you were doing, how much organizing for work and family, how much you were travelling, how much you were bearing recently...and your posts always so gracious and with such clarity about what matters. It seems like an awful lot, would be hard for anyone human...wishing you strength.

prayers and hugs!


sending prayers and hugs to you.



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Prayers for Ag

Hang in there Ag!   Remember even normies have bad days.  Put the bad day behind you and go forward.   You are in my prayers, I know this is a difficult time fo ryou.


For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want - Romans 7:19

ikhyf ag

i relapse every day. But a couple months ago, i had a weekend day where i had something things to do, maybe not as imp as spending time w/ mom & dad, but they were important and getting more urgent.

And i just didnt do them all day long. i just could not get myself motivated.

And i suspect that will happen again to me.

But the great thing about belief in a higher power is that sins are forgiven.

I came here to post my mantra for the 4th day in a row: seek god in the uncomfortable place, dont just look for an exit.

Our HP is greater than our illness.

Also, i will observe that you are being very hard on yourself. If i had posted exactly what you wrote, what would have have said to me? Of course someone here told me the same thing when i was critical of myself, so what comes around goes around :)

"cast your cares upon him, for he cares for you"

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

progress not perfection

Give yourself credit for reaching out for help.(I learned that in another 12 step but think it applies here).

prayers for agnus

I am sorry you are having a hard time agnus, i just wanted to let you know I was praying for you and God knows right where you are and has a plan for you. It may not feel like it right now, but He does and He loves you up or down, good day or bad - because its not what you do, but YOU He loves. Praying you experience that love and peace and knowing today in your hard place and let yourself rest in Him.

romans 8:39 the message translation

" or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus has embraced us."

Ag touched, thanks


You all are the best. Thanks for the prayers and encouragement. I am moved to tears. God bless you back lots.





wb lilimissy

i've been here for about a year, so looks like i just missed ya.

from my POV seems like we're all here slugging it out day by day together, shoulder to shoulder.

how 'bout u?

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb


email people
read a lot
call people

9.00am babarino

I am getting my wisdom teeth out today so I think I will not work on anything except resting.I am having tough time with thought of spending time on this procedure and resting up from it but it must get done.

take care of yourself!

Hi Babarino!

I've had that one, too! Good luck with it, and take care of yourself! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

ouch babarino!

For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want - Romans 7:19

Journey 9 am

Good morning!   I'm having trouble getting started this morning.  I think I have Dad-sitting duty tonight, need to check with Mom.

I woke up before the alarm went off this morning - very unusual for me! - and I've been to the gym & read email.   I've been at my desk for 45 minutes already doing a lot of nothing.   Time to get moving!

headed for the coffee pot for a cup of ambition.  Back with my todo list in a half hour or so.


For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want - Romans 7:19

isabo 940am

yesterday was really busy, today less so.  Tomorrow we are going to the 'big city' for the majority of the day.

Today - finish taxes with adjustments, and telephone in.  vacuum and mop.  verify discrepancies in payroll.  Eat when hungry, every couple of hours.  Dinner?

Nothing is worth more than this day  - Goethe

kromer 8:20 CI

I've been falling behind the past couple days.

Today I need to:
*Finish stats HW (mostly done)
*Email about registration, call about W2, call bus company, make plans for tonight.
*Write .5 pg comp bio lab
*Write .5 pg comp. bio lab
*Get MoD program running locally on my computer
*Start MoD running on 6 groups of genes.

I'm going to start w/ stats HW, then make phone calls, then head to campus.

ByGodsGrace todays CI

Sorry everybody for not being able to get the graphic to work - first time, I think I am having a problem on my computer actually, things are freezing or not working as usual, but don't have time to figure it out while on week's list! 

Word and prayer for the day: Isaiah 40:31 (NIV)

“but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint..” As I seek you in this uncomfortable place, help me to not avoid it, but keep my eyes on You and face it with Your grace and power. Help me to look to You and not my circumstances.

My music today:  casting crowns, mercy me

My to do list: 

Daily CI

Call ups

Take a nap

dd school 8:30a

Read Bible/Pray

UPS pick up - Pick up from driver


JOB1 Deadline 3/10 – mini deadlines

   Decide best paper layout, 3 parts (2 parts done)

   Print 3 parts x 350 each     (in progress)               

   Cut/Tie R x 350          (160 done)


Return client emails as needed

dd school 2:30p

playdate with dd

Email Job3 invoice (and schedule)

respond to t email

Chick CI

Thank you for starting and for the starter, bGG--a really great quote!


-slide info

-organize material 1/2




(make a start on paper sort--it never works to say 'do it all')