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Project R Post-mortem from GeorgeSmiley

Project R was a case study in how my procrastination ends up sabotaging my efforts and making me miserable.

The assignment--a feature story that I am distinctively, if not uniquely, positioned to write--was proposed in the spring. I accepted it enthusiastically.

I started off with a number of interviews and made some progress. What I did not do is the sort of advance planning and analysis of the basic idea that would help me better organize the interviews and, subsequently, the writing. I kept saying I was going to, but it always seemed to be less important than 1) Just doing the interviews and research, going in whatever direction, and 2) whatever else was more urgent at the time.

So by the time I needed to write something I had a mass of information, but no really well-thought-out organizing idea. Which is why I was stuck trying to write it for 3 weeks. In time, I managed to pull it together, and eventually I'll probably look at it and say, 'Not bad.'

But getting there was horribly painful and disappointing.

The kicker is I have successfully used in the past some very helpful techniques for assembling, organizing, and prioritizing information for stories of just this kind. I've been re-reading this week my favorite book on this topic. When I have used these techniques, the process has been better. But I tend to ignore these techniques or push them to the side as "well, I don't have time to do that today." (That's why Steven's post about already having everything we need resonated so strongly with me.)

That brings up another recurring habit: I have a lot of difficulty exploiting small chunks of time. Say, I've finished a task and I need to leave for an appointment in 15 minutes. I'm more likely to spend that 15 minutes in an aimless task rather than getting started on some more important one.

So along with my big picture schedule, and along with my daily MITs, I'm looking here for help and encouragement on these two habits:
1) Making more time at the beginning of big projects to plan them strategically; and 2) making more aggressive use of short windows of time that arise unpredictably.

As always, I welcome any feedback and I treasure the community here as a place for safety, encouragement, support, and accountability. Thank you all.

Thanks Angus, + one question.

Thank you, Angus, for your valuable thoughts. Thank you to those who have added comments as well.

regarding your comment:

> The kicker is I have successfully used in the past some very helpful techniques for assembling, organizing, and prioritizing information for stories of just this kind. I've been re-reading this week my favorite book on this topic. When I have used these techniques, the process has been better. <

One rather selfish question (hope not off topic here); may I ask the reference for your favorite book you mentioned? drun

It's specifically a journalism book

 "The Art and Craft of Feature Writing" by William Blundell. It's from the mid-80s and Blundell was a veteran Wall Street Journal writer. They don't so much now, but for decades the WSJ excelled like no other newspaper in the long-form, magazine style feature story -- which at least one if not two of its front-page stories were every day until the paper was redesigned last year.

 I also like "Follow the Story" by James B. Stewart, another WSJ (and New Yorker) veteran.

 But the Blundell book has a lot more about really organizing material well and setting research/reporting priorities...

 

The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

Sorry, I meant George, and Thank You. drun

Thanks George, drun

No problem, and you're welcome! :-)

The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

about short windows

<<<I'm more likely to spend that 15 minutes in an aimless task rather than getting started on some more important one..>>>

This is a sticking point for me too. I've been amazed at how others on the daily pages use these little moments so effectively. 

I wonder if it is related to my dismal results at using a timer.  I'm afraid if I stop suddenly and change tasks, I will forget something important, or never regain the momentum I had when the timer went off, etc.

 Interested to hear what others say on this. Thanks, GS.

project postmortem and small windows

Hi George, I can really identify with that--I have several like that and work at not being eaten up by chagrin. It helps me to know I am not alone, but I am still piling up UTs to avoid these ITs, even though the ITs will give me joy to accomplish. Because the guilt attached to the neglected ITs is more emotional work than the practical work of doing them.

 I am going to share a quote that I have on my board--I cannot say it has helped me solve the  issue, but it seeps in and I like it

from Annie Dillard, The Writing Life

'A work in progress quickly becomes feral... it is a lion you cage in your study. As the work grows it becomes harder to control... you must visit it every day...reassert your mastery of it. If you skip a day, you are, quite rightly afraid to open the door to its room. You enter, with bravura, holding a chair at the thing abd shouting "Simba!"'

 Well, I am more into small steps and gently gently catchee monkee, because I see the problem as in me, not embodied in the project... but it's food for thought--rushing in brandishing a chair is the stance of bravura and conifidence rather than fear, resistance or self-criticism. Maybe, like the tin woodsman, more courage is part of the solution?

courage, the very thing!

I've been thinking about the Serenity Prayer: "God, grant me Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and Wisdom to know the difference." 

Sometimes "I" am in the first category, i.e. I cannot change my shoe size, my IQ, my addictive personality.  But also "I" am one of the things that I can change: my attitude, my isolation, my habits. And when I change what I can, it becomes easier to live with what I can't.  

Love the Dillard quote. George mentioned the feature topic was within his personal field of expertise. Man, do those trip me up!  When I think I know the tiger, I go into the cage unprepared...and of course, that's the tiger that tears me up.  Complacency breeds false courage in me, and then I am more scarred and scared than ever.

I pray for Serenity today to accept that I am powerless over compulsive procrastination and that this has caused my life to become unmanageable. I pray for Courage today to take my "medicine" for this incurable condition, by checking in to this PA program, participating in the fellowship of recovery here, practicing the Tools and Steps. I pray for Wisdom to discern when I'm powerless, and when I actually CAN just open one file, or pay one bill, or look up one phone number.