An insight and a question
Well, this is the Questions, Answers, and Insights forum, so I thought I'd share an insight, ask a few questions, and see if I get any answers!
I was about to post this on the Bookending thread, and thought it might be more appropriate here:
[I'd been saying that I had been procrastinating, and still am...]
although I'm not sure it can technically be called 'procrastinating' on a day off. I'm certainly putting things off, but they're not things that ~need~ to be done today. I'm half toying with the idea that I'm trying to escape thinking about something I don't want to think about (I was in a bad mood that felt unnecessary, so I'm reading a book I enjoy and it's put me in a much better mood), but if that's the case then I could just as easily work to avoid the negative thoughts that got me in the bad mood. Hmm, maybe it's a ~punishment~ - maybe, in putting things off, I'm making things harder for myself next week as a punishment for having negative thoughts? I wouldn't put it past me.
So my questions are: How can I tell if it's destructive behaviour, or if I'm just being spontaneous and taking the evening off? If it ~is~ destructive, how can I change it? (and even, 'do procrastinators always have to make such a big deal of taking time out?' LOL!). Hoping someone here can see through one of my blind spots, or has overcome a similar experience.