If there is one, it feels like I've lost it.
Really stuck. Can't seem to convince myself to move. Work, leave work, get a taxi, visualise, break tasks down, start, meditate, use a timer, pray.
Eh, I'll be going to the doctors on Friday.
Dammit. I just found out that there's a 10 day, mostly-silent meditation course available in a couple of weeks, which really might help either give me a break, or let me sort some shit out, but - I went to the doctor last week and just started anti-depressants.
And the meditation course has a rather sensible 2 month standdown period if you've started or stopped medications.
If only I'd read about the meditation course first, doing it the other way round may have worked better. It doesn't feel like this approach is going to show results any time soon.
I feel like I've been coming across a lot of good tools in the last few months... I just feel like I'm waiting for a point where I can actually use them. Spring is around the corner at least. Maybe I really do just have to wait it out, but, how on earth to keep things rolling along in the meantime?