A Squandered Life, a lost Career
Let's see...I'm 33, a guy, I play in a band, struggle with quitting smoking, and have been a Pro-crastinator as long as I can remember. Mostly, I want to quit Procrastinating because I see what it has cost me through out my life...most importantly the chronic destruction of my academic goals, I'm 33 and have more or less been a constant student for the last 15 years trying to finish a single BA degree. I always start with the best intentions, and 'this time I'm really going to do it!' but once the long slog of schoolwork sets in, there' always something more interesting or important to do. Particularly the 'more interesting' things get me, and schoolwork just pales in interest in comparison, and then it gets boring and awful, and I stop doing the schoolwork.
To my shame, I've dropped out/been kicked out of Four (!) Universities/Colleges due to my procrastination (one University twice!) . I could have/should have finished a degree at 21, at a great University, but instead am still not finished and am doing my school-work at a third-tier corresponence college, and getting only a 'General Studies' BA due to my screwed up academic record.
That just shames me and embarrases me to no end. What squandered potential, and what lost time!! The career I could have had as a Doctor has been lost, and instead I've been burning my time in dead-end low-wage jobs and living near-poverty for years. (Though I did enjoy living overseas for a number of years).
I saw a definition on the front page:
: Procrastinators do not have a problem with time
management. They have a problem with compulsive
And that's me exactly.
I've accomplished a lot in my life, but I can always feel how much opportunity has been lost, and what could have been for me. I've matured a lot and I really want to get this 'compulsive avoidance' addiction beat, and get my BA degree finally, (only one more course to go!).