I am grateful to find this group. I've been in need of a community like this for years. I've come to recognize that I am addicted to procrastination. I used to believe it was a bad habit, or an annoying idiosyncrasy. But there are many moments when I simply cannot keep myself from procrastinating. On a daily basis, I unconsciously and compulsively do anything but the thing most needed in the moment. Sometimes I sit and think, sometimes I surf the Web, sometimes work on a to-do item that's not right for that moment. I've spent years trying, failing, then promising to try harder next time. Procrastination is my drug. Many people would probably laugh to hear it described this way. But substitute the word procrastination with the word alcohol or drugs, and my actions fit the profile of an addict. The direct and indirect consequences of my procrastination are very significant, not just for me, but for my wife and three young children. I feel very angry, sad and scared.
I feel hopeful to approach my procrastinating using the 12 Steps. I've seen the power of 12 Step in a friend whose addiction is more sexy. I've looked into other related 12 Step programs: Debtors Anonymous, Underearners Anonymous, Artists Recovering Thru 12 Step (ARTS). All have given me valuable insights and encouragement. I recommend them. However, none of them really address my core struggle. The daily online check-ins/bookending looks like a great help. I would also like to explore other 12 Step resources. It looks like a weekly phone meeting has been on and off. I think that might be good for me. I'm also wondering if there are PA sponsors?
Thank you to all who contribute to this site!