Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Monday 17th March 2014

hazyjane ci thursday may 22nd

am prioritising essay: one section, 800 words, by 3pm.

Will use chatroom for bursts.

Then off to a mindfulness class. 

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It's an inside job...

Thursday

  • readings
  • diary
  • tidy
  • address e
  • laundry away
  • laundry
  • rubbish out
  • unpack
  • wrap present and write card
  • flowers v and e
  • bank
  • thank you card 
  • sympathy card e
  • meet v m and l
  • appointment e
  • groceries
  • fishmonger
  • put groceries away
  • dinner
  • a r into excel
  • accounts
  • rehab excercises
  • meditation
  • HIO

Wednesday May 21, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meetings, and my life.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:55 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Gathered my medicine

3. Tested my blood sugar

4. Cooked and ate breakfast

5. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Went to the kidney doctor at 9:15 a.m.

7. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

8. Go to the 12 noon telephone Al-Anon meeting

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 1:20 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

3. Clean apartment

4. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

5. Get mail

6. Take shower

7. Get dressed

8. Wash dishes

9. Clean apartment

10. Cook and eat dinner

11. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

12. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

13. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

14. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

15. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

16. Test blood sugar

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 5.21.14

Maintainence. Do what works. Grateful.

"The brain is like a VCR or DVR, not an iPod: we must play the song to record it - we must experience the strength to install it in the brain. " Rick Hanson

"We can deliberately use the mind  to change the brain for the better."  Rick  Hanson

re: failure as part of process of suceeding


"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career.

I've lost almost 300 games.

Twenty-six times, I've been trusted to take the game-winning shot ... and missed.

I've failed over and over and over again in my life.

And that is why I succeed."

-- Michael Jordan, one of the greatest basketball players of all time



Vic 5.20.14

Maintainence. Do what works.

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Tuesday May 20, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Test blood sugar

5. Cook and eat breakfast

6. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

7. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

8. Vote

9. Go to recertification at 10 a.m.

10. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

11. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

12. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

13. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

14. Go to the taped OA meeting

15. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone DA meeting

16. Do ACA work

17. Go to the 6 p.m. telephone OA meeting

18. Warm up and eat dinner

19. Go to the 8:30 p.m. telephone ACA meeting

20. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

21. Do some housecleaning

22. Test blood sugar

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 5.19.14

Maintainence. Do what works.

Monday 19th May hazyjane check in

My goal today is to finish this one essay that I've been working on since Friday...well, on and off...

I need to structure it, and to make sure I answer the question being asked. I can do it, I need to have some faith in myself and to not get bogged down in self-doubt. Keep it simple.

I'll use the chatbox, and I'll work for shorter periods than yesterday but do more of them. Also it may help to actually set a specific task per unit of work, such as creating sections/headings that will help me with the structure, and writing connecting paragraphs where necessary.

I'd better get started! Am also having to work at home (full of distractions: I want to clean my windows! Yesterday I baked bread!) as there's an appointment booked for sometime, very imprecisely, 'this afternoon'. 

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re: imperfectly done is ... beautifully done.



Small scraps can make
a beautiful whole,
even if each one is not perfect.

-- wisdom from PA member Chickadee


Monday May 19, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meeting, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Test blood sugar

3. Fix and eat breakfast

4. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

5. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to see the doctor at 8:30 a.m.

7. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone UA meeting

8. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

9. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

10. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

11. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

12. Go to the pharmacy and get my prescription filled

13. Go to Family Dollar and get a tote

14. Call to make a payment

16. Do some housecleaning

17. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

18. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

19. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

20. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Sunday May 18th

 

Didn't check in all week, just too much stress at work ... was strange, difficult week, with   slaps on the wrist for no reason. Tired of it, and in very bad mood today.

The latest procrastination behavior to take hold is as usual, putting off the oil change. Why I am glitched out about this particular task is beyond me. I have now officially waited the longest ever to do this, still have not, now planning to go first thing Monday morning before work, because the car sounds/feels bad, air is low in tires, and engine oil light started to flash briefly yesterday, which I've never seen before. Duh. So sick of my behavior (or lack of it). 

I found a technique of reverse psychology, out of pure chance and mostly exasperation: on my to-do lists, tell myself *not* to do it. For ex, "don't get the frickin oil change, just let the engine die so you can't get to work" ... it takes the pressure off, shows direct consequences and plays with the wires in my brain the minute I tell myself I "have to" do something and want to defy it. 

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference. And Lord please forgive me for my gross inability to take care of maintenance, and protect me and my car esp. tires and engine until the Holy Spirit can drive me over there tomorrow morning. Amen.

Joshua 1:9 (NIV) "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Psalm 118:6 (KJV) The LORD is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?

Romans 8:31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

Hebrews 13:6 So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?"

Psalm 27:1 Of
David. The LORD is my light and my salvation-- whom shall I fear? The
LORD is the stronghold of my life-- of whom shall I be afraid?
 

Vic 5.18.14

Maintainence. Do what works.

Psychologists have found that it may take as little as 10 trials for a dog to learn a "learned helplessness" behavior. Yet it takes as many as 100-200 or more trials for that dog to "unlearn" that same "learned helplessness" behavior. I need tio gratefully remember-it can be done, progress not perfection.
 

Sunday May 18, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life

Thing I have done today

Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Test blood sugar

2. Go to the 8 a.m. telephone OA meeting

3. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone DA meeting

4. Cook and eat breakfast

5. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

6. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone Al-Anon meeting

7. Go to the 1  p.m. telephone 12-Step meeting

8. Cook and eat dinner

9. Type three questions for tonight's meeting

10. Do some housecleaning

11. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

12. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting

13. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

14. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

15. Go to the 9 p.m. telephone PA meeting

16. Test blood sugar

Thanks for letting me share  

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hazyjane check-in sunday 18th May

I had a nice start to my day and used my 'morning pages' exercise to clarify something mentally...but have since fallen into the trap of not ACTING on the good advice I gave myself!!!

So, it's almost noon here (and beautifully sunny weather), and I want to get my essay (draft) finished soon enough to be able to go and enjoy some of that sunshine...

I will write in one hour increments, and take a 15 minute break at the end of each hour. If I resist the urge to go 'off-plan' and just write and don't worry too much about polishing my prose at this point, then I can actually get a good amount done. Maybe even be finished by 4. That would be great :).

Ok, using the chatbox to help me get started... 

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Sunday

Sunday morning

I will be away until Friday this week. Have a great week ahead everyoneSmilexo

  • tidy room
  • diary
  • accounts
  • sort vs bday present and card 
  • rubbish out
  • diary
  • pack hospital bag
  • find folio
  • look up p 
  • email d
  • address cards
  • post ready for tomorrow
  • accounts
  • check b
  • add up tr
  • write letter cwo
  • email c re flowers
  • sort bm letters to post
  • look up closing dates g and uc
  • laubdry away
  • a into excel x(do when back)
  • filing papers away
  • bag ready
  • fix computer
  • reports to bring 
  • dont forgets ms and letter and pp
  • read new report 
  • rehab
  • meditation
  • readings
  • HIO 

 

hazyjane ci saturday...may 17th

I am. being incredibly resistant today to the idea of working. I don't understand. I need to complete the work, so why am I delaying???

Next: gather books, pencil, notepad... leave house... go to meeting... then see how I feel...yet, knowing that waiting for 'feeling' like doing something is a trap... DO THE THING INSTEAD!!!!! MOTIVATION FOLLOWS ACTION!!!!!!

So, meeting, then work on essay at friend's place where I won't have any distraction..

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@ Vic

Thanks vic for the lovely post about a 'glory': very beautiful and inspiring.

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@hazyjane

Thank you. Happy you enjoyed it. I think it is awesome (and humbling) to remember how limited my perspective can be and to believe there is a glorious perspective I do not see.All is well. xo Vic

Vic 5.17.14

Mantain and do what works

"Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.) "
Song of Myself
By Walt Whitman

Saturday May 17, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:55 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Cook and eat breakfast

3. Go to church/food bank

4. Put food away

5. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 11:15 a.m. telephone DA workshop

7. Fix and eat lunch

6. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone 12-Step meeting

7. Receive call from sharing partner

8. Go to the 4 p.m. telephone Al-Anon meeting

9. Cook and eat dinner

10. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

11. Go to the 7:30 p.m. face to face NA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 5.16.14

When a rainbow is observed from an airplane, a rainbow can appear to be a full circle. This is called a glory.  Just because I do not see the glory from where I stand, does not mean it cannot be seen from above. Trust and rely.

keep doing what works.

ploughing, going through, starting, rising, inspiration, sparks


You cannot plough a field
by turning it over
in your mind.

-- Author Unknown

The best way out
is always through.

-- Robert Frost

Nothing will ever be attempted
if all possible objections
must first be overcome.

-- Samuel Johnson

Our greatest glory is
not in never falling
but in rising
every time we fall.

-- Confucius

Without inspiration,
the best powers of the mind
remain dormant.
There is a fuel in us
which needs to be ignited
with sparks.

-- Johann Gottfried Von Herder



Thank you to PA member Chickadee for this series of inspiring words and images.

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Friday

@jalla

Congrats on completing the project after two years work!  And thanks for telling us -- because it gives us hope!

@ movingalong

Thank you and for all your work on site and support over the past few years! xo

Friday

I  completed a very big project and goal on Wednesday night after two years of work. Thank you all for your support andfor being here - it really helped me.xoxo

  • reply emails
  • send document out
  • diary
  • accounts 
  • log
  • laundry
  • laundry away
  • sort papers
  • filing
  • readings
  • add up tr
  • write letter cwo
  • put together pack
  • write thank you cards
  • a excel in
  • docs to post
  • change hospital appt
  • send letter to c re appt
  • look at letters dm and dm and ring re payment
  • sort computer
  • call photo
  • meet d
  • go hairdresser
  • photo
  • rehab
  • meeting
  • dinner
  • rehab excercisies 
  • HIO

 

Friday May 16, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meeting, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Test blood sugar

2. Cook and eat breakfast

3. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

4. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone UA meeting

5. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone DA meeting

6. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

7. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

8. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

9. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

10. Call for a ride to the store

11. Go to the store

12. Put food away

13. Do numbers

14. Cook and eat dinner

15. Go to the taped OA meeting

16. Go to the 5 p.m. telephone OA meeting

17. Go to the 6 p.m. telephone CLA business meeting

18. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

19. Go to the 8 p.m. online EA meeting

20. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Hjf2bme check-in 5/15/14

Progress, not perfection! That is my issue! If I cannot do it perfectly, why even start? 

All that is needed is willingness to make a start...

it's the days I don't have the willingness(overwhelmed? That I am not able to start...

yesterday depressed/overwhelmed

today manic/motivated/willing...

5:30 dinner

6:00 clean kitchen/banana bread

6:30 laundry in

7:00 attack paper piles!  Check!

sort work/nonwork check!

sort by class check! 

check back in!

well, here it is...9:15...I am checking back in...I didn't do my best attack on the paper...but I didn't do my worst either...kind of waffled it with other stuff..oh, well...I am going to call it a night and go take a nice bath as a reward for being willing to try!  Tomorrow is another day!

ready or not...and I am ready, here I go! 

Remember a bubbly bath at the end as reward! 

fudoshin: checkin: 5/15

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                                  

I need help, like seriously.  I am at work right now, but I am committing to checking in here, as soon as I get home in order to re-establish priorities for the following:

Weekly Writing Prompt #6

Weekly Writing Prompt #7

LitJ Midterm Pitch (the reason I need to turn this in is so that I can comm with my teacher about upcoming assignment)

Reading Yonnondio

Latin Homework for friday 

my commitment to running, not sure how I'll fit it in.  Part of me is tempted to just prioritize exercise over all else. 

 

I feel like I'm going to put a bullet in my brain if I don't do something.  And yet I haven't done anything.  I've been freaking out and have no faith that I will do everything I want to do when I get home.  Hence, I feel paralyzed at work.  

Prioritize by

Prioritize by deadline...unfortunately, I have a gym membership getting dusty...just no time right now...rest and sleep time more important right now...when classes r done..I am a teacher...then I can focus more on fitness...although...stress relief practices r necessary...maybe run just 15 minutes? Set a timer...do a little of one thing for 15 minutes then switch to another...including running...so tempting to run longer! A bullet will not make anything better, nor a drink or any other substance...there are free guided meditations u can download if u need to physically slow ur brain down...just a few , mindfull, deep breathes, if nothing else..look at the 12 steps and put in your issue...everything boils down to fear...that you will lose what you have or not get what you want...write, share, walk thru those fears...no matter what...go to bed on time...all hard things to do, but all so very important...hang in there...take what you need from me and leave the rest...be where your feet are...my goal these days...

fudoshin: "prioritize by" hijf2bme

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                            

Excuse me, but -- as clearly specified at the top of my posts-- I do not want "Advice or feedback" and that includes replying to my posts on this message board.  This advice is entirely unhelpful b/c the deadline for all of these has already past.  I don't even want to get into a conversation with anyone about my projects for exactly this reason.  I suffer from "demand resistance disorder" and giving me a bunch of unsolicited feedback is extremely unhelpful and counter-productive; and even if that weren't the case not respecting my wishes is inappropriate.  I have been traumatized on many previous occasions, including this one.  You don't know the importance of exercise in my life or how it is important to me professionally.  You don't know my situation.  In meetings I appreciate the no-unsolicited-feedback rule and I would appreciate your respecting my clearly stated request for that here.

fudoshin: checkin: 5/15: 1:53pm

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                        

"If you have “Guilt-Free Play” in your week you are less likely to be resentful of your work. In fact, when you have a planned event to attend and people to see outside of work, you are more likely to complete your work more rapidly and efficiently, and are less likely to procrastinate because you are not resentful or ambivalent. 

                Make sure you have events in your weekly schedule to look forward to – sports, yoga, dinner with friends, music – and you will avoid the resentment that causes procrastination andburn-out. See The Now Habit for Overcoming Procrastination and The Now Habit at Work for more strategies for achieving Optimal Productivity by maintaining your commitments to your life and family."

- I got this from Niel Fiore's blog.  Absolutely helpful advice.  I think this is one of the problems with my addiction.

-Things I I want to have in my week to look forward to:

* Going to at least one face to face fellowship with a group of people. 

* Something social, could be the above, or could be a movie or karaoke.

* Going running about 3-4 days a week.  It makes me feel alive and productive.

* Weekly movie vlog 

Vic 5.15.14

Use the tools that work.

 

"A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds,adored by little statesmen and philosophers and divines."   R.W. Emerson

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InnerTruth's day for Thursday, May 15

11 - 1:30 - apply to os jobs

1:30 - 2:30 - UA meeting

2:30 - 3:30 - PIC stuff

3:30 - 4:30 run, bring luggage & peeps to sister

4:30 - 5:15 - dinner

5:15 - 6:00 - travel

6:00 - 8:30 - campaign

home at 9:15 am

1 hour grammar before bed

wash dishes

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hazyjane ci thursday May 15th

I'm at uni. I'm supposed to be doing some research and reading for an essay, and instead I've had lunch, watched a performance, returned a couple of library books, had coffee, eaten chocolate, looked at facebook...blah blah blah. Very very silly!!!! And at six pm I'm going to watch some more third year performances... so really I'd better head to the library again NOW!!!!

log in to email and print off a couple of useful messages from my tutor re reading list

find at least a couple of the books on it

make a little headway with reading!!!!

Now I've written that little list I'm thinking, I can stay here in this lovely quiet restful spot for a bit longer, and just do some googling of the topic... maybe till 4pm, that's fifteen minutes of focus... 

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Thursday May 15, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meeting, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:55 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Test blood sugar

3. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

4. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

5. Cook and eat breakfast

6. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

7. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

8. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

9. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone UA meeting

10. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

11. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

12. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

13. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

14. Go to the bus station and purchase my monthly pass

15. Go to the library and print out stuff

16. Do housecleaning

17. Warm up and eat dinner

18. Go to the 6:45 p.m. telephone OA meeting

19. Do numbers

20. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone CLA activity line

21. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

22. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 5.14.14

We can deliberately use the mind
to change the brain for the better.

Wednesday May 14, 2014

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone meeting, and my life.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 5:55 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Test blood sugar

3. Go to the 6:45 a.m. telephone OA meeting

4. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

5. Cook and eat breakfast

6. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone UA meeting

7. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

8. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA activity line

9. Go to the 10 a.m. telephone UA meeting

10. Prayer and meditation morning and evening

11. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone PA meeting

12. Go to the 12:10 p.m. meditation

13. Go to see the sleep doctor at 2 p.m.

14. Cook and eat dinner

15. Do numbers

16. Go to the taped telephone CLA meeting

17. Go to the 7:30 p.m. telephone DA meeting

18. Go to the 8:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

19. Go to the 9 p.m. online EA meeting

20. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

Thanks for letting me share

Vic 5.13.14

Tough times. What I need most today is self compassion. "Self-compassion steps in precisely when we fall down, allowing us to get up and try again."
Dr. Neff

 

Keep a green bough in your heart,
and a singing bird will come.
Lao Tsu

@Vic

Solidarity and hugsxo