Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Attacking My Days & Habits 1 Day at a Time


"Attacking Life Means Seizing The Day & Then Going Out There & Making Things Happen. Attacking Is The ONLY Secret."

"Discipline Is Remembering What You Want" -- CLARITY. PURPOSE. INTENTIONAL ACTS. PAUSE to remember what's important. Persevere.  

#1 Know Why It Is Important Knowing and remembering the importance of a goal or task will help you in meeting the challenge of following through even when your “mojo” is just not there. Choose goals that are important to you. PLAN my day and WORK my PLAN!

• I commit to the structure of exercising 30 minutes + every day because I want to get rid of stress, sleep better and be healthy and in a better mood.

• I  commit to the structure of doing timesheets and working on billing for 30 min daily because I want to have steady cash flow and have a successful business. I want to have money to travel to Europe, Asia and Africa.

  • I commit to stop responding to email ad hoc and emptying my email box daily. Instead I put into place a system for processing and responding to my email at set times because (1)  I want to carve out undisturbed time for my more thoughtful work and (2) I want to be a dependable colleague.
  • I commit to the structure of returning business calls within 24 hours because I want to be a dependable colleague.
  • I commit to the structure of doing 8+ billable hours daily because I want to get the work done and have a succesful business. 

  • REMEMBER #2 Set Boundaries & Be Okay With Others' Displeasure. You Don’t Need Everyone’s Support. You won't be able to please all people all time.
  • Dave calls on cell phone, asking for a response to an email he sent 1/2 an hour ago. “Dave, I’m working on this filing deadline right now. I’ll be able to look at the email by 11:00 and can respond then.”
  • “Bob, I did notice your call yesterday and it definitely is important to me, but I had a full plate. I always try to get to people in 24 hours.”
  • #3 REMEMBER - I Will Likely Hit A Wall and it seems like nothing is working. The excitement and hopefulness of finding a way to work with my time issues, procrastination habits, ADHD, etc.  starts to wear off. I MUST PERSEVERE
  • If I can anticipate this challenging middle part, hopefully I will recognize it as just part of the journey. 

    At this point I can

    • Strategize the best way to move forward.
    • Alternatively, I may decide to alter my goals, if I decide they are not the right ones.
    • So, when the going gets tough, I should NOT go it alone or give up. Instead, reach out and strategize with…

      • a friend or family member (who can I call? V or K?) 
      • my accountability partner SE
      • a coach or therapist (hire one if needed

~ David Campbell

 "When You Work Hard At Something You Become Good At It -- Master It & Good Things Will Happen." 

"We Must Be Willing To Get Rid Of The Life We've Led [Planned] So As To Have The Life That Is Waiting For Us." 

~ Joseph Campbell

 "If You Can Imagine It, You Can Achieve It;  If You Can Dream It, You Can Become It." 

~ William Arthur Ward


June 3 - Day #2 of 90 - Purpose becomes energy

"I've got more energy now than when I was younger because I know exactly what I want to do." -- George Balanchine

June 1 - #1 of 90 - Remember how far you've come

"Remember how far you've come, not just how far you have to go. You are not where you want to be, but neither are you where you used to be."

Also -- We can't drive a car using our rear view mirror. What's behind us is gone forever. The only thing that exists is the NOW & that will determine our future.)  Let's love ourselves and each other.



May 25 - checking in - my overriding sense of purpose

For me, there must be an over-rding sense of purpose. It's the foundation for which this all sits is beyond just not procrastinating or being organized. The foundation is something I can come back to time and time again, even while I struggle.

Adversity always hits and a sense of purpose helps deal with that.


Sat/Sun - project L - finished  took 2 days

Monday - 11am - 12:10  house project  

Planning day - 12:15 - 12:30;

 12;30-12:40 kid stuff

readying paper - interrupted 12:40 - 1:18

workout - 1:18 - 2:35;

discrated 2:35-3 pm










May 20 - Goal of Creating My Successful Business - In at 7:30 am

Practice Makes the Master.

By doing something over and over, you can master the art of transformation. Every day "your best" at this particular goal or intent will be different. Some days you'll be sick. Some days tired. Other days energetic. Don't compare your days except to learn from them.  

 For me, getting into the office early is a habit that will lead to my other intentions.








That's awesome tracy-la! Very inspiring!

re: GOAL is focal point of intent to create something

Thanks for sharing your insight:

"Thinking of goals in new ways. Instead of something I have to do or have not been doing. Thinking of a goal as a focal point to create something and taking the time to reach the goal as a journey of discovery, life and pleasure and live out the process. And to not be upset with myself during the process."

This resonates with me. I like the idea of it being a focused journey to enjoy, rather than an obligation to struggle with.


so true. these are just words we create to represent something but they are so powerful. we shouldn't feel like failures till we reach our goals . . . we are discovering and creating. I need positive imagery and ideas since the whippings and self-flagellations have not worked :)

May 19, 2014 - GOAL is focal point of intent to create something

Thinking of goals in new ways. Instead of something I have to do or have not been doing. Thinking of a goal as a focal point to create something and taking the time to reach the goal as a journey of discovery, life and pleasure and live out hte process. And to not be upset with myself during the process.


Practice, practice, practice.

7-8 - attended meeting and prepared for worTongue out.Tongue out

 8-9:15 personal/kid stuff  Tongue out.Tongue out








May 15 - attack days & habits 1 day at a time - Just for today

Just For Today

I do not have to plan the rest of my life this morning. All I have is today. I do not need to worry about what I will do at work tomorrow. All I need to be concerned about today is today's plan for my time and my most important taks.

By accepting the fact that I cannot work spontaneously - whatever and whenever I feel like it - I have freed myself to live more spontaneously. I make plans for the things that need to be done, but I find time left over to use as the Spirit moves. I will not decide today what I will do with the free time tomorrow. Tomorrow will bring new possibilities and promptings.

Just for today, I am living my program. I will not worry about how hard it will be to work it tomorrow. Tomorrow I will have new strength and fresh insight. Just for today, I will remember to stop and listen to the inner voice and follow where it leads. When I follow it, there is adventure in the day and joy in my heart.

Thank You for today.

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations

May 13, 14 - Attacking My Days & Habits Every Day-Property Lines

Talent--I don't know what that is. It's will. You dream a dream and then you build it.
  —Philippe Petit

Even the most accomplished pianists begin at some point by playing simple scales and exercises. With daily practice, their hands learn to find the correct notes and become limber enough to play well. They learn each new piece of music very slowly at first, until, with study and practice, they can play almost without effort.

In the beginning, the pianist only dreams of being an accomplished musician. This dream helps the artist through many hours of practice and study.

Talent is really the combination of a dream and the time spent building it. We develop our ability by devoting time to the skills that interest us. Like the musician, we become talented through daily practice - the daily building of a dream. By developing our talents, we develop who we are.

Who am I becoming today?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families 


Worked till 3 am. Home at 3:30. Up at 7:20 am.

Got to work meeting by 9 am. In office by 9:30 am

9:30-12:30 pm - Office Admin and other issues

12:30 - Personal - kid T; in-law;  CoolCool

1-1:30 Project C; kid T CoolCool

Project R 1:30 -  

Meditation - lunch

Medication - pm


Property Lines

A helpful tool in our recovery, especially in the behavior we call detachment, is learning to identify who owns what. Then we let each person own and possess his or her rightful property.

If another person has an addiction, a problem, a feeling, or a self-defeating behavior, that is their property, not ours. If someone is a martyr, immersed in negativity, controlling, or manipulative behavior, that is their issue, not ours.

If someone has acted and experienced a particular consequence, both the behavior and the consequence belong to that person.

If someone is in denial or cannot think clearly on a particular issue, that confusion belongs to him or her.

If someone has a limited or impaired ability to love or care, that is his or her property, not ours. If someone has no approval or nurturing to give away, that is that person's property.

People's lies, deceptions, tricks, manipulations, abusive behaviors, inappropriate behaviors, cheating behaviors, and tacky behaviors belong to them, too. Not us.

People's hope and dreams are their property. Their guilt belongs to them too. Their happiness or misery is also theirs. So are their beliefs and messages.

If some people don't like themselves, that is their choice. Other people's choices are their property, not ours.

What people choose to say and do is their business.

What is our property? Our property includes our behaviors, problems, feelings, happiness, misery, choices, and messages; our ability to love, care, and nurture; our thoughts, our denial, our hopes and dreams for ourselves. Whether we allow ourselves to be controlled, manipulated, deceived, or mistreated is our business.

In recovery, we learn an appropriate sense of ownership. If something isn't ours, we don't take it. If we take it, we learn to give it back. Let other people have their property, and learn to own and take good care of what's ours.

Today, I will work at developing a clear sense of what belongs to me, and what doesn't. If it's not mine, I won't keep it. I will deal with my issues, my responsibilities, and myself. I will take my hands off what is not mine.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie 







thanks movingalong . . .

solidarity is key!! appreciate it so much. 

May 12 2014 - attack days and habits 1 day at a time

People Pleasing

If we are too intent on pleasing others, we may lose ourselves. All of us want and need approval from other people, but sometimes we work too hard for external admiration and not hard enough for our own self-regard. If we spend all of our time and energy trying to please others, we never find out who we are and what pleases us.


 Project K   7-10

Project M - 11:15-2pm

Projects 8-2:30am






Feb 10 - Write Before You Procrastinate. Be Aware.

Write Before You Go Off Task or Procrastinate

When you are tempted to go off task, get on the Internet, text or procrastinate on a less important tast or time waster -- stop and make contact with another PA member or support buddy. If you cannot bring yourself to make the call, or if you make it and still want to go off task or procrastinate, then try writing.

Before you go off task, write down exactly how you are feeling, what you think the time wasting or less important task will do for you, what the likely result will be, & how you will feel an hour later. It is a good idea to keep a pad of paper handy on your desk, in your purse, next to your phone, in the car, in your briefcase; you can grab a pen instead of getting on the internet or doing that time wasting or less important task.

Often the process of writing down exactly how you are feeling will reveal the hidden emotions which are masquerading as a need to be distracted and a desire to go off plan or procrastinate. You may discover that you are anxious, or fearful, or lonely. Write the feelings and write the consequences of procrastinating or wasting time because of them.

Grant me insight, Lord, and self-understanding.

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations

Today's plan - drafted it out

1-3 - business issueCool

3-5   went off plan :( why?Frown

5 - 5:30 - check in CoolCool

5:30 - 6 - plan to plan

6 - 6:30 - house tasksCoolCool

6:30 - 7:00 - insurance letter; house tasksCoolCool 

7:00 - 9:30 - family workCoolCool  








a friend or family member (who can I call? V or K?)

call/text/email V any tme. Smile

and V should feel free to

and V should feel free to call or text T any time!!


Thank you. I will try again. Smile

Sun Jan 12 - take the time to gather together the moments

I held a moment in my hand, brilliant as a star, fragile as a flower, a shiny sliver out of one hour. I dropped it carelessly. O God! I knew not I held an opportunity.
—Hazel Lee

Once, a famous artist was hired to put stained glass windows into a great cathedral. His eager young apprentice pleaded for the chance to design just one small window. The master artist feared an experiment on even a small window would prove costly, but the persistent young apprentice kept up his pleas. Finally, the master agreed that he could try his hand on one small window if he furnished his own materials and worked on his own time.

The enterprising apprentice began gathering bits of glass his master had discarded, and set to work. When the cathedral doors were open, people stood in groups before the small window, praising its delicate excellence.

Our lives are like this. If we take the time to gather together the moments and opportunities we too often discard and waste, we find we can weave them into something beautiful.

What can I make of moments I usually waste today?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families ©1985, 

Plan my day and work my plan :) Remain vigilent!

Self-reflection, spirituality and positive reading or podcasts.  

Work out at least 30 min - scheduled run at 8 am

Complete timesheet and spend 30 min on billing  -

Billable Time - Work 8 hours -  meeting with client S

work on project T

do to do list on other projects

Return Phone Calls for Day -

Empty In Box and Process Emails at Set Time -

Calendar kid and my activities A, T, L, H and T

Make list for tutors

Work on College application spreadsheets

Household tasks. Create list.



 Cool  5:15 AM - 6:25  am    CALENDARS T H L A T  

text to BG re: trip; updated calendar for 2014 for T dates; 2014 school calendars  A L and T

planned for dinner and play; email to reschedule meeting; email to reschedule trip (follow up with calls on both)  laundry - dryer; put away clothes; 

get ready for walk; put away rest of clothes 

dishes;  make steel cut oatmeal; 25 min clean kitchen and liv room, plants 

walk 1 1/2 hours

  Finish A calendar 1:00 - 3:30 (plus took 1 hour much needed nap)

Finish T calendar  


Session 1 - Nov 9 - Nov 15

“Nothing can add more power to your life than concentrating all of your energies on a limited set of targets.”  Nido Qubein



  11/15 - 

2:30 - 4:30 WS project

leave for sleep/have to be back at work by 8 am. 

21 days to form new habits -Use 7 Day Sessions Goal Date Nov 15

I know that the 21 days to build new habit is just a start. To keep that going takes longer . . . but the 21 days is a great start in the right direction. I started out with 100 day goals, then 21 days and it's just too long for me . . . seems too long away.  And even then it is 1 day at a time. But I will focus on the day - and fight for that day while keeping my eye and heart on the dream of how I will feel when I have 7 days under my belt. I know how it feels to go to bed at night with just 1 day when I was true to myself and did what was best for myself and my soul.

The habits I am building for the 7 days and not "to do" lists but tools to help me reach my dream and pursue my passion and make sure I don't get off track. When I get off track I am betraying myself, my soul and my dream. It will all make me stronger (like doing pushups or running for 7 days in a row).  

The new habits for the 7 days are:

1. No TV for 7 days (never was a problem before but got to be a problem past 6 months)

2. No Internet unless for work or as 5 minute planned reward. Want to make sure stay on track.

3. Into office early.  Into office first thing in morning - 9 am when kids dropped off at school and by 7:30 am on other days if I work out in a.m.  If I don't work out in a.m. - then get in straight away. Be flexible but don't let it sabatoge myself.

4. Work out every day either in morning or evening. Block it out. Even stretching/yoga if need be or a walk. Ideally morning and use it to wake myself up and get entergized.

5.  Get my billing done daily.

6. Delegation daily/Office meeting daily.

7. Empty email box daily.

8. No alcohol during week (not a problem but need all focus I can muster) . . . and no more than 1 glass on weekend.

9.  Work daily - every day. Will take more than this to get back work done.

10. Return calls daily.







I am making a commitment to

I am making a commitment to myself to take firm steps in the direction toward making my day-to-day life joyful, prosperous, and successful by doing a Hundred-day challenge. 

I am gong to:

-- identify what results I want to achieve

-- identify what blocks are preventing me from achieving your goals, and

-- what behavior modifications and habit changes have to take place to ensure better results. 

-- I am going to approach the 100 days with the right attitude and winning behavior you'll define, set, and achieve my goals.


Stop Procrastinating, Start Living - Day 22 of 90

Stop Procrastinating, Start Living

Abstinence is just the beginning of the new life PA or other programs offer to us. When our Higher Power controls our life, we become free of the mental obsession with procrastination, time, ____. Then we are able to get down to the business of living, which we avoided with our illness.

Rather than reaching out with both hands to grab and hold on to all we can get, we begin to think in terms of giving and serving. We may start by sharing what our program has done for us with newcomers to the program. It is the newcomer who is our reminder of who we were and where we came from.

We find that though we can never go through our day without a time plan or schedule and be "spontaneous", we can live much more spontaneously than before. Because we feel less guilt and fear, we can experience the joy of acting from the center of our being. Knowing that our Higher Power is in control, we have trust and faith that the results of our actions will be okay. Each day becomes less of a trial and more of an opportunity.

Today, may I experience the spontaneity that comes with Your control.

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations 



Tracy, thanks for sharing those two quotes within your August 30th post below.

I find that to be an interesting juxtaposition of the two quotes.

  • Staying wholeheartly committed, and not deluding ourselves into excuses or half-measures.
  • Doing our best yet letting go, accepting that our best may be imperfect, while nurturing and complimenting ourselves.

Two seemingly-different concepts, yet both are needed.


nice to hear from you and thanks for sharing your thoughts! 

Getting Honest with

Getting Honest with Ourselves

The day we realize that we are and always will be compulsive procrastinators, underearners or __________ and that we can permit ourselves no deviousness when it comes to time or ____ - that is the day when we begin to take our program seriously. Half measures do not work. Lingering exceptions in the back of our minds will defeat us. Beginning the program with the idea of quitting when we have accomplished certain goals or finished tasks will not bring success.

Nothing short of an honest, wholehearted commitment to abstinence and the program will give us the ability to stop procrastinating, underearning or doing  ______ compulsively. If we think we can get away with small deviations here and there, we are deluding ourselves. Our disease is progressive, and unless we take the steps outlined in the program, it will eventually destroy us.

If we are not honest with ourselves, we are divided, weak, and sick. Getting honest means getting strong and well.

May I be directed by the truth.

Adampted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations

Accepting Our Best

We don't have to do it any better than we can - ever.

Do our best for the moment, and then let it go. If we have to redo it, we can do our best in another moment, later.

We can never do more or better than we are able to do at the moment. We punish ourselves and make ourselves feel crazy by expecting more than our reasonable best for now.

Striving for excellence is a positive quality.

Striving for perfection is self-defeating.

Did someone tell us or expect us to do or give or be more? Did someone always withhold approval?

There comes a time when we feel we have done our best. When that time comes, let it go.

There are days when our best is less than we hoped for. Let those times go too. Start over tomorrow. Work things through, until our best becomes better.

Empowering and complimenting ourselves will not make us lazy. It will nurture us and enable us to give, do, and be our best.

Today, I will do my best, and then let it go. God, help me stop criticizing myself so I can start appreciating how far I've come.

From The Language of Letting Go   

Aug 29 - Day 18 of 90

Love God and Work the Program

How clear everything becomes when we put abstaining and recovering from procrastination, underearning or _____ first in our lives! As we recover, we grow in love for the Higher Power, which makes possible our new life. Loving God and working the program becomes our main purpose every day. From this, all else follows.

When we are confused and harried by conflicting demands on our time and attention, we need to withdraw for a moment and get back in touch with the God within. As long as we are sincerely trying to do His will, we do not have to be upset by negative responses from other people, whether their disapproval is real or imagined.

As our Higher Power provides a focus for our love, working the program provides a focus for our energies and ambitions. Whatever our situation, we are each capable of growing along spiritual lines, and it is this growth and progress which gives us deep, lasting satisfaction.

Accept my love and work.

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations 


6:30-8:00 got ready/finished life insurance application

9 am - 9:45 am - got off track. [turn off internet in morning so no distractions. put recovery #1]

9:45-11:00 - insurance; house project/paid painter and hired for next project; conference call for work

11:00 - 12:00  business coach/work

 12-1 lunch

1- 3:15 pm various work projects

break 3:15 - 3:35

project Z 3:40 - 4

project L - 4-4:30

project T 4:30-5

 project L - 4-4:30

project T 4:30 - 5

new clients 5-7 pm 






Aug 28 - Day 17 of 90


When we were procrastinating and underearning, we were negative and fearful. We alternated between avoiding work and feeling responsible for everybody and everything. An important part of our recovery is willingness: we become willing to change, willing to abstain, willing to learn. As we work the program, we become willing to allow our Higher Power to remove our character defects.

All of this does not happen overnight. When we get discouraged and make mistakes, we are willing to try again. We are willing to follow the lead of our Higher Power. As we see evidence of His care, we begin to trust that He will not require of us more than we are capable of doing.

To be willing is to hold ourselves ready and available for God's direction. We do not jump into situations prematurely, and we do not close our minds in refusal to change. We are willing to grow and serve and, especially, willing to believe.

Increase my willingness.

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations 


6:30 - 6:50 get ready for workout

6:50-8 am workout 

8-9:00 breakfast; marketing task

9-10 am - went off track [how to prevent in future? stay off computer at home]

10-11  project C

11-11:30 misc projects 

11:30 - 1 pm project L

1-2 project D

2-2:45 project B and kids stuff

2:45-3:35 - project B 

Aug 27 - Day 16 of 90

If you have butterflies in your stomach ask them into your heart.
  —Cooper Edens

We've all had butterflies in our stomachs. It happens on the first day of school or the first day on a new job. It happens most anytime we try something new or risky. These butterflies are nervous and fluttery and sometimes we wish we could just go back to bed.

But the best thing we can do, and sometimes the only thing, is go right ahead and walk into that new situation with head held high. We will probably feel awkward at first, but that is natural and it will pass.

Our nervousness can change into excitement and joy for what we are doing. We can begin to feel proud when we walk through our fear. It is a true accomplishment when we don't let our fear stop us - when, instead, we let the butterfly in our hearts unfold.

When I have the butterflies today, will I enjoy their beauty?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations 


1:15 - 2:15  project N

2:15 - 3:15 misc

3:15 - 5:30 project L 

  5:30 - 7:45 more work projects 

7:45 - leave for workout 


Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may willingly submit to whatever spiritual discipline is necessary. I pray that I may accept whatever it takes to live a better life. 

August 26 - Day 15 of 90

Lying to ourselves is more deeply ingrained than lying to others.
  —Fyodor Dostoyevsky

The primary requirement for our recovery is honesty. In order to grow in honesty we first needed to see how we had lied to others and to ourselves. This was not as easy as it first appeared. Our lies to ourselves kept us so fully in the dark that we did not know we were lying. We sometimes told "sincere" lies because we honestly did not distinguish the truth within ourselves. For so long we had preferred dishonest rationalizations, and we had come to believe them.

The spiritual life of this program is based upon experience. What we feel, what we see and hear, is what we know. When we simplify our lives and base the truth upon our experiences, we slowly cleanse ourselves of the lies we told ourselves. With this kind of honesty comes an inner peace with ourselves in whom we can say, "I know myself."

Today, I will accept my experience as a simple message of truth.

From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations


Morning routine = not followed :( Reminder to follow program; give up self-will.

12:15 - 3:30 project T

3:30 - 3:45 break

3:45 -  4 pm   check messages/return calls

4-4:15 - scheduling and personal

4:15 - 4:45 Project L

4:45 -   5:30 project BLaughing

5:30 - 6:30 project KLaughing

6:30 - 6:35 - follow up on lab testLaughing

6:35 - 8:00 pm life insurance application tLaughing



August 25 - Day 14 of 90

In soloing--as in other activities--it is far easier to start something than it is to finish it.
  —Amelia Earhart

Procrastination plagues us all, at one time or another. But any activity that is worthy of our effort should be tackled by bits and pieces, one day at a time. We are too easily overwhelmed when we set our sights only on the accomplished goal. We need to focus, instead, on the individual elements and then on just one element at a time. A book is written word-by-word. A house is built timber-by-timber. A college degree is attained course-by-course.

By the time we got to this program, most of us had accumulated a checkered past, much of which we wanted to deny or forget. And the weight of our past can stand in the way of the many possibilities in the present.

Our past need not determine what we set out to do today. However, we must be realistic: We can't change a behavior pattern overnight. But we can begin the process. We can decide on a reasonable, manageable objective for this 24-hour period. Enough days committed to the completion of enough small objectives will bring us to the attainment of any goal, large or small.

I can finish any task I set my sights on, when I take it one day at a time. Today is before me. I can move forward in a small way.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations

9:00 - 10:30 exercise  Cool. 10:30-11:15 - get ready/showered up

11:30 - 12:15 - check in/phone meeting Cool

12:15-12:45 PROJECT V Cool

12:45 - 3 pm PROJECT C Cool

3:00 - 7:30 pm Project C plus late lunch / early dinner Cool

7:30 -  Project A   

August 22-August 24 - Days 10-13

Missed checking in again on these 3 days.

Keep at it. Things get better.


... self-love is an unequivocal acceptance of the validity of getting what one wants--of respecting one's needs.
  —Marion Weinstein

Once there was a woman who loved her husband and children so much that she did everything for them and nothing for herself. She thought taking care of herself was selfish. She never considered taking a vacation when she needed it. She stayed to take care of her family no matter what it cost her personally. Then she realized how much she resented them because she wasn't taking care of herself. So she began to ask for what she needed. At first, her family didn't like it. Little by little they began to notice that when she was relaxed, their lives were more serene, too. It wasn't always easy for her to love herself enough to ask for what she needed, but she learned that when she said no to demands she couldn't meet, she felt calm and centered. Best of all, she no longer resented them for asking. When she said yes, she did what they asked with real pleasure.

Do I sometimes resent doing things I could have chosen not to do?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families  


August 21 - Day 9 of 90

Thunder is good, thunder is impressive; but it is the lightning that does the work.
  —Mark Twain

Thunder demands our attention. From the ear-splitting boom overhead to the faint rumble in the distance, it is an impressive part of nature. Yet, it is the lightning that discharges electricity from one cloud to another, or to the earth.

We are sometimes like thunder. We may shout our intentions to family members, or quietly tell our dreams to friends. No matter how we say it, it is the ability to follow through that is most important. When we've completed what we've set out to do, we will feel a sense of satisfaction and energy. With this energy, and the knowledge we can finish what we set out to do, we will make our dreams come true.

What is left incomplete that I can finish today?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families 



work meeting 7:45-10:45 Smile

 conf call 11-12:15 Smile

 lunch 12:15 - 1 pm

project Tel Calls
1:00 -   2:25

3 mtgs ND; L; and MD - 4 pm Cool [only issue is these were reactive]

project LT -   Cool 4:15

project V   Cool

project b Cool

project n  Cool

project b  Cool

project l Cool

project TC 6:45 - 7; 7-7:15; 7:15-7:30; 7:30-7:45


BREAK 7:45-8:30

8:30 - 9:15 -  CoolCoolCool

9:15 - 5:30   CoolCoolCoolCool

 CoolCoolCoolCool  CoolCoolCoolCool  CoolCoolCoolCool  CoolCoolCoolCool


  CoolCoolCoolCool  CoolCoolCoolCool

[took hour break] FINISHED.  



Aug 16- Aug 20 - Days 4-8 of 90

I didn't check in here on these days.

I do better when I check in and stay connected.

  With each new day I put away the past and discover the new beginnings I have been given.

  —Angela L. Wozniak

We can't recapture what is no more. And the minutes or hours we spend dwelling on what was or should have been only steal away from all that presently is. Today stands before us with promise. The opportunities for growth are guaranteed, as is all the spiritual help we need to handle any situation the day offers.

If today offers us a challenge, we can be grateful. Our challenges are gifts. They mean we are ready to move ahead to new awarenesses, to a new sense of our womanhood. Challenges force us to think creatively; they force us to turn to others; they demand that we change. Without challenges, we'd stagnate, enjoying life little, offering life nothing.

We each are making a special contribution, one that only we can make; each time we confront a new situation with courage. Each time we dare to open a new door. What we need to do today is to close the door on yesterday. Then we can stand ready and willing to go forward.

This day awaits my full presence. I will be the recipient of its gifts.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations for Women 

Aug 14-15 Days 2 and 3 of 90 - Rescuing Ourselves

I checked in these days. 


Rescuing Ourselves

No one likes a martyr.

How do we feel around martyrs? Guilty, angry, trapped, negative, and anxious to get away.

Somehow, many of us have developed the belief that depriving ourselves, not taking care of ourselves, being a victim, and suffering needlessly will get us what we want.

It is our job to notice our abilities, our strengths, and take care of ourselves by developing and acting on them.

It is our job to notice our pain and weariness and appropriately take care of ourselves.

It is our job to notice our deprivation, too, and begin to take steps to give ourselves abundance. It begins inside of us, by changing what we believe we deserve, by giving up our deprivation and treating ourselves the way we deserve to be treated.

Life is hard, but we don't have to make it more difficult by neglecting ourselves. There is no glory in suffering, only suffering. Our pain will not stop when a rescuer comes, but when we take responsibility for ourselves and stop our own pain.

Today, I will be my own rescuer. I will stop waiting for someone else to work through my issues and solve my problems for me.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie ©1990 



Aug 13 - Day 1 of 90

Many of our fears are tissue-paper-thin, and a single courageous step would carry us clear through them.
  —Brendan Francis

 What fear can I walk through today?


conference call  [he wasn't there or wrong #]

check in

updated commitments and goals

 messages / voicemail

 project T

project D 

 project A conference call


Day 45 - July 19 - Surrender

At fifteen life had taught me undeniably that surrender, in its place, was as honorable as resistance, especially if one had no choice.
  —Maya Angelou

We had to surrender to a power greater than ourselves to get to where we are today. And each day, we have to turn to that power for strength and guidance. For us, resistance means struggle - struggle with others as well as an internal struggle.

Serenity isn't compatible with struggle. We cannot control forces outside of ourselves. We cannot control the actions of our family or our co-workers. We can control our responses to them. And when we choose to surrender our attempts to control, we will find peace and serenity.

That which we abhor, that which we fear, that which we wish to conquer seems suddenly to be gone when we decide to resist no more - to tackle it no more.

The realities of life come to us in mysterious ways. We fight so hard, only to learn that what we need will never be ours until the struggle is forsaken. Surrender brings enlightenment.

Life's lessons are simple once I give up the struggle.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations 

7:30 - 8 am exercise

8-9:30 - project 1 

  11:30 -12:38 -- project 2 

going to lunch 



Day 44 - June 22 - Without discipline, there's no life at all.

Without discipline, there's no life at all.
  —Katharine Hepburn

Procrastination is habitual. It's perhaps a habit we've struggled with over the years, and not one that can be willed away. It eats at us, no doubt. How many times have we gone to bed at night depressed, discouraged, and angry with ourselves for not finishing a job we promised ourselves, or someone else, we'd do! Sometimes it feels hopeless. The tasks awaiting our attention pile up, seem impossible to complete. But there is hope. The program has offered us an easy solution.

We have only this day to concern ourselves with. We can break the spell of procrastination, lethargy, immobility, if we choose. We can pick a task that needs attention, any task, preferably a small one for today. Maybe it's writing a letter, or fixing a hem, or making an appointment to see a doctor. Deciding to do something, and then doing it, breaks through the barriers that have caged us. Immediately we will sense the surge of freedom. In this moment we can always act. And any act will free us.

When procrastination blocks us, our senses are dead to the friends close to us. It's as though we have stepped outside of the circle of life. The real gifts of sobriety are beyond our reach when we choose inaction.

I will get free. I will tackle a small task today. It will bless me in special ways.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations  



- I missed 2 months of checking in. The 12 step program helps me realize that all goals and desires are attainable when we invite the program's structure into our daily planning. I have resisted the structure. 


1:15 pm - 3:30 SmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileclean desk/computer updates. JC computer, GN computer, 

3:30 - 7:30 pm  SmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmileSmile 

 create list of computer maintenance for assistant & worked on computers





Keep coming back. you are not alone, solidarity. V

Day 43 - April 21 - Becoming accountable yet learning to let go

The first skill needed for the Inner Game is called "letting it happen." This means gradually building a trust in the innate ability of your body to learn and to perform.
  —W. Timothy Gallwey

A strange and intriguing mystery confronts us in the Twelve Steps. We are mending our ways; we are becoming accountable; we are striving to do what is right, yet we are learning to let go. This seems like a contradiction of logic, but it leads us to a spiritual awakening.

We are becoming like the accomplished tennis player who has practiced diligently to develop every detail of his skill. Yet when he is playing the game, he cannot focus on control. He must get his ego out of the way and let himself go. It is in letting go that he rises to his highest level of fulfillment. Today we will do what we must. We can make the choices we are faced with. Then we allow ourselves to be carried along by our Higher Power to complete and fulfill the process.

I will look for opportunities to let it happen today. 

Meditation for the Day

I must arise from the death of sin and selfishness and put on a new life of integrity. All the old sins and temptations must be laid in the grave and a new existence rise from the ashes. Yesterday is gone. All my sins are forgiven if I am honestly trying to do God's will today. Today is here, the time of resurrection and renewal. I must start now, today, to build a new life of complete faith and trust in God and a determination to do His will in all things.

Prayer for the Day

I pray that I may share in making the world a better place to live in. I pray that I may do what I can to bring goodness a little nearer to the earth.

From Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Day 42 - April 20 - Am I setting attainable goals for each day?

Hurried and worried until we're buried
And there's no curtain call,
Life's a very funny proposition, 
after all.
  —George M. Cohan

Often, when we involve ourselves in a whirlwind of activities, plans, and expectations, we push ourselves so hard that we don't derive any satisfaction from success. We need to face our limitations. We can't do everything we want. Even when we can do a great deal, if we overextend ourselves, take on too much, we will not enjoy ourselves, and there is no reason not to enjoy our work.

Our activities are part of what we are. If we choose to live in a frantic hurry, worrying about the next moment instead of this one, we'll miss life entirely. Part of self-knowledge is learning to pace ourselves to our own speed, learning to set goals we can attain for each day. When we do this, we can say, "Now that I've completed this, I don't have to do one more thing to feel worthwhile."

Am I trying to do too much too fast?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families



April 18 - 19 - Days #40 and #41 - Perseverence


We all go through periods when we seem to be standing still or slipping backwards. It is often difficult to stay with our time plan when things are going well or not going well. We may become bored with the program if our understanding of it is superficial. There are many times when things do not go the way we would like, and we may be tempted to give up.

Let's remember where we began and how miserable we were before we found PA. If there are times when abstinence does not seem so great, let's remember how much worse the alternative is. We have been down in the depths of despair before, and we do not choose to go back there.

One day at a time, we can keep moving forward. Even when we see no signs of progress, we can know that our Higher Power is now in charge of our recovery and that His purposes never fail.

Lord, give us strength to persevere.

Adapted From Food for Thought

April 11 - April 17 - Days #33 - #39 - Easy Does It

Easy Does It

Strain and struggle abound when we try to do everything ourselves, our way. We want positive change to occur immediately and expect miracles to happen according to our personal timetable. We sometimes feel that if our Higher Power is guiding us, we should be able to accomplish great and marvelous things constantly.

To remember "easy does it" is to humbly realize that we are not all powerful and that God does not expect us to be all things to all people. Growth is slow, time belongs to God, and change will occur according to His plan. If we do the jobs we have been given for this 24-hour period, our Higher Power will take care of tomorrow.

How much more agreeable life is when we do not overextend ourselves but admit our weakness and trust God to take care of us. We do not shirk our share, but we do not try to carry the whole load. Only our Higher Power is strong enough to do that.

Take from our lives the strain and stress. 





April 10 - Day #32 - What freedom can I discover in a limitation

But don't go into Mr. McGregor's garden.
  —Beatrix Potter

Since we are members of a family, we are not free to do anything we like. We may not be able to go as far from home as we would like. We may have to get up earlier in the morning than we would like. We may have only limited use of the car. Families set up limits in order to maintain order and happiness. If each of us demanded something different for supper each night, the situation would be unmanageable. 

Limits also keep us safe. When Peter Rabbit was told not to go into Mr. McGregor's garden, it was for his own good. Limits and restrictions are a form of love and protection, and we all have them. When we bump up against one of these limits, we can be assured they serve to point us in another direction, one with freedoms of its own which we may never have explored without being forced to.

What freedom can I discover in a limitation today?

From Today's Gift: Daily Meditations for Families ©1985,

April 8 -April 9 - Days #31--#32 - THE WAY OUT IS THROUGH

"I believe half the unhappiness
in life comes from people
afraid to go straight at things."

~ William J. Locke        

     I've always loved (and consistently call on) the poet Robert Frost's words and gentle reminder that, "The way out is through."
    I have spent my life so far living in reverse. Like driving one's car backwards across America, it was not very functional. It's not happiness in the Greek sense of not using my gifts given to me by higher power.   Whenever anything challenging came up, I went backwards and tried to avoid it. Decades of ruining my life this way. 


March 27-April 7 - Days #17-#27 - Transformation vs Information

Transformation vs. Information. I have spent a lot of time getting information. I'll change and work the program. Transformation is change.

If I want to play the piano, I won't just read books about playing the piano or watching Youtube videos about how to play . . .

I am going to do a little each day. Practice and do. Not just be an information gatherer and expert. One of the reasons I have probably loved gathering information, is that there is no possibility of failure in gathering new information. Can't fail at that. Can do that foreever. But if I get out there and work on my tasks, I could embarass myself by not getting much done. I just have to get out my comfort zone and have it be okay to do it -- and to do it a lot -- and by doing that I will transform.    

I am working on slowing down and taking actions.

I am working on purpose and not personality.

When I have a higher purpose anything can happen.



March 21 - March 26 - Days #12 - #17 - can finish tasks I start

In soloing--as in other activities--it is far easier to start something than it is to finish it.
  —Amelia Earhart


Procrastination plagues us all, at one time or another. But any activity that is worthy of our effort should be tackled by bits and pieces, one day at a time. We are too easily overwhelmed when we set our sights only on the accomplished goal. We need to focus, instead, on the individual elements and then on just one element at a time. A book is written word-by-word. A house is built timber-by-timber. A college degree is attained course-by-course.

By the time we got to this program, most of us had accumulated a checkered past, much of which we wanted to deny or forget. And the weight of our past can stand in the way of the many possibilities in the present.

Our past need not determine what we set out to do today. However, we must be realistic: We can't change a behavior pattern overnight. But we can begin the process. We can decide on a reasonable, manageable objective for this 24-hour period. Enough days committed to the completion of enough small objectives will bring us to the attainment of any goal, large or small.

I can finish any task I set my sights on, when I take it one day at a time. Today is before me. I can move forward in a small way.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations for Women 

March 20 - Day #12 - Letting Go

Have been tracking time. Will turn in timesheets tonight - when I stay at work late.

I visualized last night what I would do this morning but I went off track when I went on computer before I got completely ready. Will correct that next time by sticking to my 5 min timer. And waiting till I am ready to go.

"Letting go" is a theme with many variations. When we live with gusto and are released to experience the full excitement of life, we are letting go.

When we turn our lives and wills over to the care of our Higher Power, we are freed of many cares.

If we orient our lives with a compass that always points to fear and insecurity, or to power and success, we are giving ourselves over to those forces.

But we can orient our lives to our Higher Power's care and support. That makes it possible to drop our guard, allow for some mistakes, and delight in the pleasures of creation.

Today let me forget my worries and enjoy the fullness of life.

From Touchstones: A Book of Daily Meditations for Men ©1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation. 

Day #s 8, 9, 10 and 11 - March 16-March 19

Day 8 - Saturday - meeting - Visualized a vivid image of my work space, environment that is friendly, clear and easy to use

Day 9 - meeting. Spent time cleaning out office space at home and at work. Worked 7 hours on office matters.

Day 10 - March 18 - Visualize 3 step sequence and carry it out. Work on vivid images.  A PICTURE IS WORTH A THOUSAND STICKY NOTES.

Day 11 - March 19 - Visualize 3 step sequence and carry it out. When I got home from work I took off work clothes, put away, got out work clothes for tomorrow and then dressed in pajamas. 

March 16 - Day #8 - Clarity

Attended part of a meeting. 

Did not track time today. Hmmm . . . I took a lot of the day off for kid and other tasks. But this is still a good habit. This morning I started working on Photoshop and 1 1/2 hours drifted away . . . so keep on the time tracking even when I am taking a day off. Let me see how I spend my day.

In the process of defining myself, I have a tendency to set up rules and boundaries and then forget that rules are made to be broken, as are boundaries to be expanded and crossed.
  —Kathleen Casey Theisen

Recovery has given us the freedom to address life honestly, with forethought and a certainty about the rightness of our actions. We need be mindful that what is right today may not be right tomorrow or thereafter. As we move through our experiences, we are changed, and then we look with a new perspective on old conditions. Our new perspective hones our value systems, and yesterday's rules and boundaries no longer fit today's situations.

Our growth as women is an unending process. What we confront today with assurance, we prepared for yesterday. And tomorrow will be eased by our definition of today. The program has gifted us with clarity - clarity about ourselves, clarity regarding others, and clarity on how to continue our growth.

My value system awaits finer definition, and every experience, today, presents me with an opportunity for that definition.

From Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations for Women by Karen Casey 

March 15 - Day #7 - Empowering

Went to 1/2 meeting.

Checked in.  

Time tracking was fair  - was in crisis [not my own doing but a work situation I didn't create]


You can think. You can feel. You can solve your problems. You can take care of yourself.

Those words have often benefited me more than the most profound and elaborate advice.

How easy it is to fall into the trap of doubting others and ourselves.

When someone tells us about a problem, what is our reaction? Do we believe we need to solve it for the person? Do we believe that that person's future rests on our ability to advise him or her? That's standing on shaky ground - not the stuff of which recovery is made.

When someone is struggling through a feeling, or a morass of feelings, what is our reaction? That the person will never survive that experience? That it's not okay for someone to feel? That he or she will never get through this intact?

When a person is faced with the task of assuming responsibility for their life and behaviors, what is our response? That the person can't do that? I must do it myself to save him or her from dissipating into ashes? From crumbling? From failing?

What is our reaction to ourselves when we encounter a problem, a feeling, or when we face the prospect of assuming responsibility for ourselves?

Do we believe in others and ourselves? Do we give power to people - including ourselves - and their abilities? Or do we give the power to the problem, the feeling, or the irresponsibility?

We can learn to check ourselves out. We can learn to think, and consider our response, before we respond. "I'm sorry you're having that problem. I know you can figure out a solution. Sounds like you've got some feelings going on. I know you'll work through them and come out on the other side."

Each of us is responsible for ourselves. That does not mean we don't care. It does not mean a cold, calculated withdrawal of our support from others. It means we learn to love and support people in ways that work. It means we learn to love and support ourselves in ways that work. It means that we connect with friends who love and support us in ways that work.

To believe in people, to believe in each persons inherent ability to think, feel, solve problems, and take care of themselves is a great gift we can give and receive from others.

Today, I will strive to give and receive support that is pure and empowering. I will work at believing in myself and others - and our mutual abilities to be competent at dealing with feelings, solving problems, and taking responsibility for ourselves.

From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie