Saturday March 31, 2012

Did not feel comfortable with outreach call today, because friend thought that I was in black/white thinking regarding something that was actually part of my addiciton and I was quite, quite clear that it was an addiction, I didn't feel like I needed yet another PERSON to say that it was part of my addiction, since I had prefaced it as such.  Anyways, it just really bugged me,b/c this person does not know about this program much nor remember that I'm in this twelve step program and yet she was saying things to me like, "You sound lik you got some time management problems or something."  Like no duh.  That is why I'm here.  I never claimed to be healthy, and I had brought up the instance as an example of my addiction, not an example of health.  It just bothers me when I have been tryng, when I have been working on my recovery to be told, " Oh, um....you got a problem with X," when I just so happen to be very very aware of this.  Anyways, I'm gonna get changed, and only do half and hour of exercise before gets too late.  Maybe about five minute warm up but that's it, and stretches and off to:

* brush, floss, use listerine

* use periodontic brush

* take a shower

* get gallons of water (possibly tomorrow?)

* do 30 minutes of homework

* watch a movie or watch one episode of Doctor who, whichever is a nicer fun reward for me

I haven't got into good habits yet, must persevere though because it's worth it! And I'm sure it works!!

Today was quite good, I was late for everything but showed up anyway and made a positive contribution.

Now I'm going to take the dogs out, when I get back I'll write my check-in post for sunday, read for a while and then go to sleep...

 3:30 to 4 music training 

4:00 Start project for school

5:00 project

6:00 Call dad

6:30 leave for work

I have been reluctant to post anything the past two days; that attitude is often a precursor to giving up entirely. I was attempting to rationalise this decision to quit like so many others, since there's always a part of me that yearns to leave things behind. It may seem comfortable or appropriate for some unknown reason; but when I look back at my life I see how that strategy has left me in the lurch.  

MORNING

• 30 leglifts
• Shower
• Flax
• Mouthwash/brush  

ONGOING  

1. Apply for some position
2. Job search (10+ minutes)
3. Volunteer search (10+ minutes)
4. Check phone plans
5. Practise chanter 10+ minutes
6. Coding study (10+ minutes)
7. Network printer
8. Pay phone bill
9. Research business cards
10. Pet care: Afternoon/evening
11. Wash dishes
12. Lock up house 
13. Mouthwash/brush

- "A procrastinator's work is never done."

Thanks for starting the thread lennon. It is a cool overcast day in London which comes after an early taste of summer.

Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Checked emails and posts
Back to bed with bad back having taken some pain killers. I should not have assummed that the driver I hired yesterday would be able to carry the table I took back to its owner.
Started defrosting deepfreeze and checked food in deepfreeze and fridge

Todo:
List todos for the week
Sew on button
Print out old therapy notes and file in order
Read them
Write some notes for CBT session
Write journal
Not sure what else

Regards Rexroth

Things to do
-Something fun with Connor
-Secondary sources for overdue paper
-Math studying

Math Test on Thursday preparations
Read/Practice problems for
-Section 3.1/3.2
-Section 4.1/4.2
-Section 4.3/4.4
-Section 4.5/4.6
-Section 4.8/4.9
-At least 1 practice exam
-Possibly the other two practice exams
-PWN this test!