Thank you for posting this alloftheabove
"If in a hurry, please read the Bible or another book BUT don't catch on Internet."
It is a good reminder to me. There's the "3 circles tool" that says something like this--choose healthier drugs, if you have to "use." Even if it's not the bible, staying way from the things that can drain hours from me in the blink of an eye is really, really good advice for me. thanks for posting it.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
That wasn't meant to post here!
Hi and good wishes to everyone! Thanks for the check-in graphic, Edge--it made me smile!
TODAY, do I choose to act in ways that truly increase my physical and emotional well-being? Do I choose to forego actions that provide temporary comfort but sabotage my well-being in other ways? (I did quite well with this, yesterday, but some part of me really dislikes the idea of restrictions on a Friday night...)
Done or Done Enough for Now:
brush teeth and splint
email check-in buddy
Work in Progress:
check in / bookend at P.A.
brainstorm how to deal w/ special laundry (start with bucket)
do 4 bursts of high-priority job work before noon
pursue MZ resolution
work on next-most-important work priority
thank J for photo compliment
get location/directions for dancing tomorrow
do 4 more bursts of high-priority job work before 15:00
take compostable scraps out to bin
do some laundry?
do 4 more bursts of high-priority job work before 18:00
do something toward hopeful futures
cook rice and broccoli romanesco and turkey sausage!
delete some photo files
do 15 minutes of Qi Gong
take bedtime Rx
be in bed w/ lights out and sound off by 24:00 (remember tomorrow has an extra appointment!)
Bonus item: download latest Long Now mp3?
I thought I checked in earlier but I guess I didn't post it!
Anyway, I got a late start this morning - the mechanic called to say my car is ready and gave me the cost - it's not so bad but that sent me into a worry spiral worrying about money, then what would happen if I lost my job, and what about retirement - and before I knew it an hour and a half had gone by. bah.
But I finally got started with some easy administrative tasks and now I'm going to tackle my biggest project for a couple of hours. I need to leave early to pick up the car so I'll do what I can this afternoon. I'm in an anxious mood but time to put that mood away and get some work done.
Update 3:45 As expected, once i stopped worrying and started working I got some stuff done and actually enjoyed it. Now I'm leaving to get my car. Tomorrow I have a class downtown so it will be a busy weekend but it will be ok. See you on Sunday probably.
Be confident. Stay focused. One thing at a time.
Productive but grinding Thursday. Didn't get done all I had hoped. Left after 10 PM, so didn't straighten up at home and didn't get to bed early. Today will be very busy and tomorrow I am set to travel. Hopefully I can at least do a half hearted, quickie cleanup at home tonight. Will not be able to gat fully caught up before the weekend, and won't be here o the weekend. I am stressed, but there is only so much I can do.
Goal 1: 30 minutes per case, repeat, stay the course as much as possible
Goal 2: Noon meeting
Goal 4: Back at it, 30 minutes per case, no internet
Goal 5: 4 PM phone conference, try to keep working as much as I can during it. Hard to concentrate, though.
Goal 6: Leave at 6 PM for fundraiser
Goal 7: Clean up a little at home
Goal 8: Throw together overnight bag
Goal 9: Bed by 1 AM
Back to report.
I realized this is friday, not thursday, and didn't work yesterday on what I was supposed to do. I did other useful stuff... but not THAT stuff. This sooks, so today is going to be a day of:
- NO pot.
- No internet except for that email you have to send and to report to the Forum at night.
- No self-sabotage. Just for today.
- If in a hurry, please read the Bible or another book BUT don't catch on Internet.
So, under the above discipline for today, my list goes like:
- Send email to P.
- Go to the bank for cash.
- Go to A at 4:15.
- Work a little with Arduino before going to A.
And that's it. What have I done? I did the same errors again, I feel the same, I feel so bad, useless, not caring. Please don't do the same today. I want this to be a great day.
This is hard ::jawdrop::
Fear is only a thought and as a thought you can ignore it.
I last posted on 29th December when my husband was in hospital. Sadly he deteriorated overnight and died suddenly on the morning of the 30th. The funeral was last week, and I started back at work on Monday of this week.
I've had excellent support from my work colleauges and have managed to do all the essential bits of work. It's now Friday afternoon and I'm sitting staring at my computer instead of doing any work. Even if life was going normally I would be procrastinating on getting my reports written; now I'm just frozen solid.
The only task I think I'll achieve this afternoon is to come up with a plan for next week's work.
My condolences for your loss, Hypatia.
I've just joined PA, read your Monday check-in partly because of your excellent choice of name (my last home desktop was Hypatia, my current laptop is (du) Chatelet) and was shocked to read your news.
So, this procrastinator sends his deepest sympathies and very best wishes.
The unexamined life is not worth living. The unlived life is not worth examining.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Sending you healing thoughts and prayers as you go through this difficult time. I have found the sayings of 12 Step Programs particularly hard to remember at those times when they are most essential: Easy Does It, Keep Things Simple, One Day at a Time. So glad you are here.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal
Only just read your post, Hypatia. Very sorry to hear that you lost your husband.
Thinking of you and hoping you can find as much time as you need to grieve for him.
so sorry to hear that. "Regular" people get frozen in times like this. Do be gentle with yourself. I do wish you any peace and comfort that's possible at this time in your life. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
My sympathies, I hope you can try not to be too hard on yourself. Vic Never unerestimate the power of "showing up" even if that is all you can do at this time.
I'm so sorry about your loss. Take care of yourself and you'll be in my prayers.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry...
So sorry for you, Hypatia! :(
My deepest condolences, Hypatia, you're in my prayers*hug*
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Nothing diminishes anxiety faster than action - Walter Anderson
I am so sorry Hypatia. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I am very sorry to hear of your loss, Hypatia. Please be gentle with yourself. Sending you healing thoughts. Peace to you.
4change said it well, Hypatia. I'm sorry, take care, and best wishes to you for whatever you need.
I want to add two things:
It is good to hear that you were able to cope with the essentials in the hard time just past. That totally counts! Now, you are in a new situation--I think it is to be expected that grieving and adjusting to a new reality may take some time.
And I hope that the pain of your husband's passing will fade as quickly as feels right for you, and that many good memories of time with him will remain.
Thank you all for your loving support.
I didn't get much done after that post. I decided as it was the end of
my first week back and my brain was fading I'd go home early.
So sorry for your loss.
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank Edge for starting this trend.
What I did today
Things I will do today
1. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
2. Test blood sugar three times
3. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting
4. Eat breakfast
5. Get dressed
6. Make phone call about the 1 p.m. meeting
7. Go to the diabetic group at 1 p.m.
8. Do numbers
9. Wrap up coins
10. Eat lunch
11. Eat dinner
12. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.
13. Go to the 10 p.m. telephone DA meeting
14. Get my DA stuff ready for tomorrow
Thanks for letting me share
I've been angry and frustrated lately. I just don't have the drive to see anything through and having people around me - my family - just feels like it's cramping me and throwing me off my plans. I really wish I had my own place, but I've grown out of the delusion that that's ever going to happen. At least, not any time soon, and not as long as I'm living in this counrty or care about what my family thinks. Maybe one day, when I'm financially independent and can afford supporting my parents from while sustaining my own place.
Just, so angry.
Anyway, I want to push myself again and get things rolling. I'm going to ignore other people's presence, doing the things I need to finish is more important.
x breakfast with family
x shopping: gym and daily clothes (promod - went but didn't find anything) , wedding and black dress (pending)
x buy cat food + litter
x balance budget (half done)
x organize closet+ drawers + shelves
- fix unds
- send Rem questions to Zeek
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