Something that stresses me out: receiving work in unlabeled, identical folders. Right now I have a big pile on my desk, and just having to sort through and match them up (cases frequently occupy more than one folder, and not all folders are received together, because newly received information is placed in my mailbox in a new folder) has me stymied. It's just one more level of disorganization I have to deal with. (What happens when an executive lacks in executive function?) Realistically, it would take me 5 minutes to open each folder, check the identifying information on the first page and sort them. Yet it seems *such* an uphill climb to do it. Have to overcome the inertia and the anxiety about facing the temporary discomfort. My ability to find little, non-work things that need doing and geting them done does not translate into getting actual compensated work done. I have been ever so slightly productive today. As the day wears on, my lack of productivity causes my anxiety to increase. However, that only makes me more conflicted about what I should work on first, which stops me from progress. Also was working on a frustrating paperwork task, vacillating between trying to make small edits to an old policy & procedure document someone else prepared and just rewriting it extensively. This is a reinforcer for my avoidance type behavior. I got into it and it was *worse* than I expected. Yes, I can just make a few superficial edits and get it off my desk, but it will still be suboptimal. Or I can add it to the pile of stuff to which I need to devote more time than I intended. Time I don't have, of course. Argh. Maybe suboptimal will have to do for now.
Goal 1: Sort the darn cases into those from yesterday, today, and other.
Goal 2: Lunch; try to clear my mind
Goal 3: Clear out yesterday's cases.
Goal 4: Spend some time on old overdue projects.
Goal 5: Spend some more time on old document
Goal 8: Leave by 7 PM. (When I say 8 PM, I leave at 9, so maybe saying 7 will get me out of here by 8. And maybe, just maybe I can *really* leave at 7 and decompress this evening, since I will start 2012 by working my first weekend back from vacation.)
Back to report.
being stymied by simple tasks that seem uphill. Boy does that sound like me too.
as does this:
"My ability to find little, non-work things that need doing" --4change
yep, very familiar in me.
again, this one rings so true for me:
"As the day wears on, my lack of productivity causes my anxiety to increase" --4change
solidarity for the journey.
fall down seven times, get up eight - japanese proverb
Worked at supermarket yesterday and came home exhausted.
Received phone call about some contract work that could be the answer to my problems! I'll keep everyone posted.
I was absolutely exhausted last night and laid down on the coach and watched TV until 11:30 pm. Went to bed and couldn't get to sleep until about 2:30 pm and then slept in till almost 11 am.
To do for today
elert content 12 - 12:30
check and respond to email (if required)
1:00 - 4 pm - apply to TZ, MS and CC jobs
Update calendar, finish emails
5:00 - 6:00 - Run and more groceries
6:00 - 7:00 - dinner
7:00 - 9:00 - newsletter
9:00 - 10 - dishes, hand wash clothes
To do list for Saturday
Happy Epiphany everyone!
Things to do today
-pick up car
-make appt for car starter drop off
-mail fisher price info didn't need to mail, called
-work on lab 6
-break down labs 3 and 4
-order optics textbook
-drop off museum pass
Bit of a late checkin! Yesterday was an excellent day, I stayed on task and made progress on my scariest project.
I hit the ground running this morning cause a guy I've been trying to get some info from on the RH project finally responded and had time for me this morning so I worked on that first thing. Now I feel a bit scattered because I never had time to make my todo list and set my priorities for the day - but I can do that now. I'm going out to lunch in about 20 minutes so let's see if I can finish up the old todo list before lunch. Laters!
Be confident. Stay focused. One thing at a time.
Late today (as I have been all this week, yuck)
Oh well, I can start now:
*Check on expts 2x
*Start e/s SMF
*Winterize 3 windows
*Look into D1, send undergrad a nagging email
*Email MP, order m, bug MG, ILL logging
*deal w/ 300 emails
*File slides (made some progress)
(made a little progress)
*Take for hist
OK, starting with stainings, checking on expt, and planning for e/s SMF. And pouring gel.
New concert piece
Sign up for more gym classes
Make profile on housing website
first, make a sched...
geesh! the schedule looks overloaded. stresser. gonna have to deal w/ this. Forunately, my workout/quiet time should give me perspective.
ok did first 2 things on my list. hard-ish. now next thing--workout. a little harder, but i think i can just barely do it. here goes...
Web Sites and Techniques