Friday October 21, 2011

to do:

- prepare/test bugfix code for customer
- fix issue w/ no dept and cnts in sys info page
- test arch. script
- investigate mig. script issue w/ char enc
- read 50 pp of ERB
- read 4 comics
- get form for reimbursement
x practice piano
- clean office
- read 1 ch. of tech book
- exercise - walk 10k steps or do an exercise DVD
- generate requested email list

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

Okay, I am wiped out, I need to take a shower and lie down.  And rest for two hours maybe.  I feel tired.  Idid not get the sleep I need; and this started because I came home and did not take a shower, but kept NOT taking a shower.  And I did that, b/c I felt guilty about not brushing my teeth, and I did that b/c I knew that by going to sleep I wouldn't be exercising before bed, which is what I feel like doing to feel good and right with myself, and I wish I could've done it, but instead I obsessed about it, b/c I kept obsessing about what people in the meeting said about exercise.  I don't relate with their viewpoints about exercise or food.  I actually look forward to and WANT to do exercise.  I don't relate with people who do not.  I derive a great deal of joy and personal serenity from doing it.  It's my form of meditation.  And I felt threatened in that vein last night, which is probably a symptom of my paranoia brought ont hrough lack of sleep.  And I get paranoid that if I don't exercise before bed, even if tired, then I'm just not going to do it, ever.  - Because I'm a procrastinator, who has not followed through on certain promises to myself.  But I guess a promise is something you carry out.

READING FOR DAY

Adapted From Food for Thought: Daily Meditations

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This reading hit a cord since I had read in another book (Procrastination by Burka, et al) the idea that in the brain, repetition means that we lay down "mental tracks," which, once established, "tend to become self-sustaining" and increasingly difficult to get out of.  It takes a lot of conscious awareness and effort to interfere with old habits, to break recurring neural networds, but it can be done.

The brain is always changing.  This is called "plastic paradox."  The classic metaphor to getting stuck in old patters is sledding down hill in fresh snow. The first time, many routes available. The more tracks you create and deeper the tracks, you will go down quickly but you're in a rut.

One of my goals is to increae my conscious awareness of what I am doing and why I am doing it when I put things off, so I can help my brain shift out of its ruts.  Using the steps and tools for taking action can help me break out of my old neural patterns of delay and develop new patterns of getting things done on time.

have a great day everyone,  

tracy-la

Thanks for starting the thread lennon

Done:
Up prayer reflection
Checked emails and posts

Todo:
x Wait in for delivery of fires - they have come but there is no way I am going to unpack them tonight (and when they come unpack and get them set up and working) - I am cold
x Contact shop over camera case
x Check files over deliver of camera
x Some more admin of which I have plenty to catch up

Regards Rexroth