Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Sunday September 18, 2011
HAPPY SUNDAY, EVERYBODY!
Have a great proactive day!
Have a nice weekend!
Peace
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Journey oops posted on wrong day!
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Jo
Avoiding the truth consumes great effort and energy. - Jim Loehr
Scribbler's Sunday CI 12:30 p.m.
Just a couple of entries on today's task list: email a list of questions for a Monday interview and rewrite an article. I think I can get those done. Otherwise, the kids want to do some fooling around, going to the pool and so forth, before I drop them off this evening. I can work that in too. I could cut the grass today, but I don't think I will. I might get some rehearshing done for Thursday's show too.
I'm quite low on money, with less than 1 USD remaining in my account after my check to the tax collector clears in the next day or so. Credit accounts are very near the max, savings accounts drained, etc. I think I will literally take my piggy bank -- well, actually, I think it is a ceramic dog -- to the bank and deposit my spare change. This is more symbolic than anything, but it may help just a little. Basically, I'm depending on one or more of my clients paying an invoice in the next day or so. Not a comfortable position. It'll get worse if my check to the tax collector bounces.
The core of my problem at the moment is not really procrastination. It's that two major (former) clients are refusing to pay invoices totaling two months income. I suppose if you go back a couple of years or so you'd find that procrastination played a major role in me having problems with debt and possibly losing some important clients due to being late. But theset two deadbeats are not insigificant factors. If the both paid me in full tomorrow for work I've already done, I wouldn't be scouring the couch cushions for gas money -- not where I thought I'd be at age 55, but there are no guarantees in this life.
At least my major bills for the month are paid. Mortgage -- that's important. Taxes -- ditto. Child support -- the penalty for not paying that is going to jail and, of course, while you're in jail your child support obligations continue to mount, along with interest and penalties. So it's good that's paid. Ah, well, I'll just keep trying and see what happens.
Thanks to all who read and post. It helps.
Slow going
Managed to keep myself off the internet at work yesterday except for one
brief accidental glance at a gossip site when my concentration wavered.
I "caught" myself and went back to work after 10 minutes or so.
However, I didn't make as much progress as I had hoped yesterday. So I
am back today, feeling tired. I haven't done anything physical, that's
for sure; perhaps the sense of tiredness stems from my prolonged
immobility yesterday at my desk, or maybe it's just mental fatigue. I
found myself earlier today letting my mind stray and started thinking
critically about how disorganized my life is, and how frustrating it is
to always be behind in everything, and I started to feel very down. I
feel that there are too many items demanding my attention, and I just
can't seem to *ever* catch up. I am officially "on vacation," yet I am
the only one here in the office today, working frantically, and I will be back
on Monday, probably until it's time to head to the airport. I am already feeling the embarrassment at having people see me at work tomorrow, because I sense that the implication will be obvious that I am unable to cope.
But, after a good wallow, I realize that I really need to concentrate on
the here and now. Constantly worrying about the future and flagellating
myself for my shortcomings haven't helped me, except in instilling a
desire to do better. But I have to do better in the moment. I have to
have faith that the big picture may fill out in brighter colors if I
tend to what I am doing right now. Then again, maybe it won't. But
worrying about it endlessly won't improve the outcome or my situation
right now. It only makes it harder to concentrate and try to be, if not
happy, at least at some semblance of peace with myself and my life.
Goal 1: No internet except this and alarm clock until I get home
Goal 2: 14 x 30 minute work blocks
Goal 3: Dinner break for 30 minutes
Goal 3: Leave by 9:30 PM
Goal 4: Do some laundry, prepare my suitcase
Goal 5: Spend a little time online
Goal 6: To bed by midnight.
Back to report.
12step PA mtg: "meeting chatbox" Sunday 3:30PM NewYork Daylight
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My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I have done today
1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting2. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DAThings I will do today
1. Prayer and meditation morning and evening2. Go to the 11 a.m. telephone NA meeting3. Take shower4. Get dressed5. Cook and eat brunch6. Test blood sugar twice
7. Post and send out Al-Anon literature for today8. Go to the religious meeting at 2 p.m.9. Cook and eat dinner10. Write questions for the CLAmeeting11. Wash dishes
12. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting13. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting14. Put clothes away
15. Go to the 9:30 p.m. telephone CLA meeting16. Go to the 11 p.m. telephone ACA meeting
Thanks for letting me share
clement ci
more later / tmrw
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb