Monday, August 22, 2011

TODAY:

As part of nourishing and rebuilding my personal integrity, I commit to:

* Postponing any consumption of fiction until after 18:00 and 20 minutes of kitchen work
* Before 18:00, doing at least 30 minutes of job work before doing any of the following as a reward:
Checking personal email
Taking photos (timed 15min max)
Changing or uploading photos as a reward
Coloring (and after coloring one item, I will do at least another 30 minutes of job work before coloring again)

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In addition, TODAY, I will:

check and post at SR
post this at PA
check balance mindmap (good enough)

draft and send email to reviewers asking for prompt feedback
submit timecards
work on refresh scoping

shower & wash hair
get supplements from MD (if ready)
bring gbg can in from St

make shopping lists (incl cl, bno, Rx)
return ECLib dues
do drugstore & grocery shopping

unld dw + make 20min. kitchen prog (approximately--included unld dw in the 20 min)
change towel

do 15 min. Qi Gong
use Balancer
take bedtime Rx

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I might also::

cook artichokes &/or rhubarb
check for economic course for G (found)

think re &/or experiment w/ dance solo
research ordering new wrist braces

Okay, so I made good progress last week. The weekend was a bust workwise. Too tired and had a number of non-work issues to deal with. Felt very stressed and frustrated yesterday, and continue to feel under pressure today. I have a major presentation Friday that I am far from ready for, and it may coincide with (or be pre-empted by) my first hurricance experience, depending on the track of Irene. Between those two and continuing to try to catch up at work, my mind feels very jumbled and unfocused.

I am resolved to try to spend 4 hours per day the next 4 days on putting together a good presentation for Friday. I have no control over the impact of the weather, but I clearly don't want to wait and try to concentrate when everything around me is in tumult. Ideally I might get it done by Wednesday night and then see how it plays out. Of course, I have to stay the course on other things too. I feel myself wanting to put off the meeting prep and find the path of least resistance.

I am going to try something new for the meeting prep that I have never done before; namely, try to use the 30 minute block approach, alternating with other work. In the past, I have approached presentations by procrastinating as long as possible then setting everything else aside and frantically working to get it done, maybe even with an all nighter at the end. Typically, the presentations come off reasonably well, at least not embarrassing, which is a relief, but probably reinforces the pattern.

Unfortunately, it comes at a mental and physical cost I have too long shrugged off as the price of "doing business" as a head case. Then I am left to once again pick up all the pieces that I have dropped in the manic run-up to the "event". Always behind, always stressed to catch up. It can't be healthy. What if - I can cobble it together by working steadily over several days? Only one scary way to find out.

Goal 1: Work on Friday presentation 8 x 30 minute blocks

Goal 2: Work on 8 cases for 30 minutes maximum at a time

Goal 3: Leave at 8 PM. 

Goal 4: Go to the supermarket, buy a few gallons of water, a couple of days' worth of nonperishable food items to stock the pantry, just in case. (Tomorrow I also will pack a bag, since I am in a potential evacuation zone.)

Goal 5: Personal time 9 to 11 PM.

Goal 6: To bed at 11 PM.

It's a good plan. Can I follow through? Back to report.

Thanks for the start journey and the happy flower

Done:
Up prayer reflection

Todo:
x Out for meeting at 11.00
x Buy a few small bits
x Put washing machine on
x Packing and sorting for going away
x Bath and wash hair
x Write journal
x Write letter for friend to give him tomorrow

Regards Rexroth