Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.
Journey 9:45
Happy Monday!
I had a lovely Mother's Day weekend, spent some time with my kids, mother, and mother-in-law. I fitted in a sufficiency of chores and did some relaxing and reading too. One thing I did not have time to do was cook some of the 'body for life' food to have on hand for this week so I'll have to do a bit of catching up on that during the week, but overall it was a good weekend. That's a good thing because I am working 6 days this week and 7 days next week so I won't have much time for housework and relaxing for the next couple of weeks. But THEN VACATION YAY.
I've been to the gym and read (but not handled) email. I'm going to do email and todo list now. I have a meeting at 10:30 so my goal is to complete those two things before the meeting.
I posted my 'Katia' list for mornings on my bathroom mirror with times and it really helped this morning, I got to the gym 15 minutes earlier. It looks dumb but hey, if it works!
Jo
I know it's never too late to make a brand new start - from "Brand New Start" by Paul Weller
Checking in after a long while
It's good to be back. Coming off of a manic work high mode, which led to work avoidance the past few weeks, which led to lying and screwing up second chances.
I made some bad choices yesterday and missed a deadline, but I owned up to it in an email this morning instead of waiting for it to be discovered on Monday. Baby steps.
Plan for tonight:
Set tasks for week
Healthy dinner
Make reasonable progress on deliverables from last week
Go to bed at a decent hour
Vic 5/8/11
Show up (done) Nice day, got a few things done, and best of all full of gratitude and good will today. Thanks PA(ers).
Evening plans
So my mom, Connor and I went out for Mother's Day and it was very nice. I did *not* get done as much this weekend as I had hoped, but it was nice.
Things I should do this evening
-#3 pills, #8 #9 (#10?)
-Order tea
-order spices
-finish quantitative modeling hw
-quantitative modeling online quiz
-Bio article #2
-Plans for tomorrow
Hopefulcat's list
Academic
Do review of chapter
Fix errors in 1
Fix errors in 2
Fix errors in 3
Fix errors in 4
Fix errors in 5
Fix errors in 6
Study physics
BM2 Notes
BM3 Notes
Administrative
Clean up space
Check mail
Take medication
Back at it
2:02 PM: Didn't manage to drag myself into work on Saturday. Just couldn't do it. Maybe a mistake, because the thought that I should be at work trying to catch up hung over me and kept me from launching whole heartedly into something else. Still managed to get some domestic things done that I had been putting off. But it was kind of suboptimal quality time.
Really have to work on living in the moment, because my life consists currently of being at work, worrying about not being at work, and worrying about work left undone and who might come down on me for it. It's a huge mental drag on me, like an obsession, no big surprise given my OCD tendencies. But it's not good, because allowing work to permeate everything I do is ultimately counter-productive, not to mention depressing.
There are no boundaries to my work, which takes away incentive to work faster and more efficiently. If I leave work at 5 or 7 or 9 or 11, it's kind of all the same. It's easier in some ways to leave really late, because then I obviously can't do any more since I have to go get some rest before starting again the next morning.
I never seem to catch up. I never seem to be able to carve out time for myself that I don't feel at least marginally guilty about because I know there is work pending. I am always worried that my turnaround difficulties will appear on somebody's radar and that I will again be in trouble over it.
Well, enough pondering. The goal today is to work from now until 6:45 PM and leave. WIll I be caught up? No. If I stay until 11 PM (and start Monday totally on the wrong foot and already tired) will I be caught up? No. So the first goal is to be 4 hours closer to caught up than I am and to declare that a good thing.
The second goal is not to think about work when I leave at 6:45 PM. If thoughts abvout work come to mind, I will try to let them pass right through. Tomorrow is another day.
Now for this week, the goal will be a little different than previoiusly. Rather than attempt to grind away continuously, my goal will be to work hard from 9 to 1 and 2 to 6. I have to try to learn to maximize what I get done in those periods rather than drift along from 8 AM to 10:30 PM with no end ever in sight. I will still come in at 8 AM, and I imagine I will probably still stay after 6 PM, but 8-9 AM and 6-8 PM will be for my own personal development, organization, and the like. At 8 PM, my intention is to leave so I can reclaim at least a couple of hours of life outside of, and not thinking about, work.
Back to report.
(4change)
good page from MB:
Self Care
I don't precisely know what you need to do to take care of yourself. But I know you can figure it out.
—Beyond Codependency
Rest when you're tired.
Take a drink of cold water when you're thirsty.
Call a friend when you're lonely.
Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed.
Many of us have learned how to deprive and neglect ourselves. Many of us have learned to push ourselves hard, when the problem is that were already pushed too hard.
Many of us are afraid the work wont get done if we rest when were tired. The work will get done; it will be done better than work that emerges from tiredness of soul and spirit. Nurtured, nourished people, who love themselves and care for themselves, are the delight of the Universe.
They are well timed, efficient, and Divinely led.
Today, I will practice loving self-care.
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie ©1990,
Thanks Vic
I really appreciate the thoughts. I especially like this part:
"Many of us are afraid the work wont get done
if we rest when were tired. The work will get done; it will be done
better than work that emerges from tiredness of soul and spirit."
I am trying to come to terms with that.
(4change)
I recommend 'The Now Habit' by Niel Fiore. I only started being more productive (obviously I'm not perfect yet!) by giving myself some guilt-free breaks and downtime.
Jo
I know it's never too late to make a brand new start - from "Brand New Start" by Paul Weller
Thanks Jo
Guilt-free? That exists? I will check that book out. Thanks for the suggestion. Peace.
here's another thread about 'The Now Habit'
http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/82
I know it's never too late to make a brand new start - from "Brand New Start" by Paul Weller
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
I want to thank Rexroth for starting this trend
Thing I have done today
Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA business meetingThings I will do today
1. Test blood sugar twice2. Prayer and meditation morning and evening
3. Warm up and eat brunch4. Post and send out Al-Anon literature for today5. Get clothes ready to wash
6. Wash and dry clothes
7. Do Al-Anon First Step
8. Take shower9. Get dressed10. Put away clothes
11. Make bed
12. Wash dishes
13. Go to my mother's apartment14. Do questions for tonight's meeting15. Go to the 7 p.m. online EA meeting16. Go to the 8 p.m. telephone CLA meeting17. Put out recycling
18. Take out trash
19. Do numbers
20. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone CLA meeting21. went to the 3:30 p.m. online PA meetingThanks for letting me share
12step PA mtg in "meeting chatbox" Sunday3:30PM NewYork Daylight
These are traditional 12step meetings, held in the "meeting chatbox".
All are welcome.
YearRound GMT/UTC: Saturdays and Sundays 7:30 PM Standard Time
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(British Daylight Saving Time = British Summer Time)
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(French Daylight Saving Time = l'heure d'été)
New Zealand: Sundays and Mondays, 7:30 AM Standard Time
Sydney Australia: Sundays and Mondays, 5:30 AM Standard Time
New York: Saturdays and Sundays, 3:30 PM Daylight Saving Time
For help entering/finding the meeting room, see this link:
http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/2473
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Hypatia check-in
Good morning Rexroth!
I also got up late and felt too tired to go to church. (We had a rather busy day yesterday). I'm planning to have a quiet day pottering around and working through some of my list. But at the moment I'm completely freezing at the thought of vaccuum cleaning the front room, which desperately needs it and one of S's friends is coming round this afternoon!
So here goes
take vaccum cleaner downstairsclean front roomironing#1 #2#3 #4new course start wk 1empty litter trayswrite tomorrow's lectureKO,AT, SRfile downstairs paperstake other papers upstairsH.
Rexroth Check In
Today has not started well for me. I had a night of vivid dreams, woke late and did not go to church which is a committment of mine. In the night I worried about a booking I had made and found this morning that I had made it correctly. It was for an evening meal with a close friend that I had been putting off making which is a whole other story. Then I tried to book a meeting about travel and found that there were no more places. Entirely my own responsibility or rather lack of it. Then I found I had missed a meeting last weekend though in fairness to me I had not been able to find details of it before.
Done:
Up eventually
Prayer and reflection
Reminded myself that I have changed many things with the help of this programme and felt grateful
Stuff above
Downloaded stuff I want to watch at leasure
Checked future meetings so I don't miss them and emailed to book the one where bookings are open - put both dates in my diary
Checked email regarding disk of scanned slides and replied
Todo:
Type out list of planning for travel abroad x
Finish planning week - including checking where I am to be and when x
Phone friend x
Email other friend x
Read book x
Clean kitchen including floor x
Test radio with new bit x it works
That will do for now
Spend some time thinking about one particular dream from last night x
Regards Rexroth
Rexroth Update
Done:
All of above and
Looked at scanned slides which are very pale so I need further advice
Renewed travel insurance
Todo:
Email friend if she does not phone
Keep reading
Rest by looking at programme on tigers!
Wash up and put rubbish out
Anything else I think of
Regards Rexroth
Rexroth Check Out
Done:
Above except the tigers will have to wait - they are recorded
Friend is distressed and we talk for a long while - well she does
I don't feel happy, the slides don't look right, I have to speak to my solictor tomorrow, my friend is in bother, I have things I'm still avoiding doing, I've twisted my knee and there we are or rather here I am.
Todo:
Prayers and acceptance particularly about above
Finish journal
Bed and sleep
Night Folks
Rexroth