Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.
Well I spent the past 4 months or so working on my own on thse issues and not getting any more productive and facing intense demand resistance from myself. I need and want the 12 step process. I have never been in a 12 step program and I find the online to not be "real" enough for me but it may be that if I do it daily and participate in a meeting in my city even if it's directed at alcohol or adult child of alcoholic (which I am) --- I will be more connected and less in denial. That would be fantastic. I read the promises for recovery and I almost cried reading them thinking what that would feel like.
Tonight: send email to clients (1. V/F & 2. C & 3. new one)
4. Call Vivian
5. Clean office before I leave (5 minutes)
6. billing for today
7. look at calendar for tomorrow
8. meet h for dinner
9. work on recoveryDONE
10. Look up local meetings for Adult Child Alcoholic.
Weekly one-hour "Steps and Traditions"
Procrastinators Anonymous phone meeting
Wednesdays 8PM NewYork time
One-hour PA telephone meeting based on the book
"Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of AA" http://www.aa.org/1212/
( *** Please note that the phone number is different
from the 15-minute phone meetings. *** )
Call 1-712-775-7000.
Then enter access code 212389# when prompted.
Weekly, Wednesdays 8PM, New York time.
(Eastern Daylight Time in summers).
Meeting lasts one full hour. Starting June 30, 2010.
This would be just after midnight
(Wed night / Thursday morning)
in European timezones.
This would be Thursday mornings
in Asia/Australia timezones.
Show up (done) Where else but here could I say I am feeling tramatized because now I need to make a call about the last year disaster and don;t know if I am too late already which would only add to the disaster, etc. etc. when I think of starting, I stop breathing. Feeling so bad about myself, which of course justifies my feelings in my head.
Wow, feel so beaten up in my life recently and trying not to react, but that is proving hard. Feel like I'm not allowed to be nice, as it pisses people off. Not trying to, just trying to be the best I can be. Don't really have the will to tell myself, it's okay and keep going, don't let them get to you. It's already gotten to me. Don't know how to get "me" back.
Have really fallen downward on my apartment cleaning - UGH!!
Today:
-find out from nf how to send cd back if envelope is damaged.
-bank & store
-sweep apartment
-wash s
-clean oven?
-workout 10 minutes today, Friday & Sunday - be careful of ankle
Will try to put a positive spin on work, even though most of my day is getting yelled at or snotted on by someone. Because of this, which usually starts from my boss, I steal time at work, which I'm doing today. Not the best solution, but....
Anyway, kind regards all and hope you're all doing great!!
♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥
When I am in that ind of situation, I try to remember the Big Book, p 66,67
"We began to see that the world and its people really dominated us. In that state, the wrong-doing of others, fancied or real, had power to actually kill. How could we escape? We saw that these resentments must be mastered, but how? We could not wish them away any more than alcohol.
Though we did not like their symptoms and the way these disturbed us, they, like ourselves, were sick too. We asked God to help us show them the same tolerance, pity, and patience that we would cheerfully grant a sick friend. When a person offended we said to ourselves, "This is a sick man. How can I be helpful to him? God save me from being angry. Thy will be done."
We avoid retaliation or argument. We wouldn't treat sick people that way. If we do, we destroy our chance of being helpful. We cannot be helpful to all people, but at least God will show us how to take a kindly and tolerant view of each and every one. This was our course: We realized that the people who wronged us were perhaps spiritually sick. "
12:03 PM: Feeling anxious today. Thought I had too much sugar or caffeine, but it seems to be something else. I am feeling pressure to finish and mail some paperwork related to my future employment, which is overdue, and that may be the trigger, as I also have to keep working on catching up here. As a result, having trouble getting started on either. But calls keep coming in about overdue reports, so I will have to concentrate on that and clear the other from my mind.
Goal: 12:35 - 4 PM: Complete as many short reports and followups as possible, to see some clearing of the path before me.
4 - 5 PM: Phone meeting
Funny, just putting off the other task and I feel calmer. Anyway, back to report later.
It's been a while since I've been back here. Will be going away soon on a ski holiday, but I'm not going to let it get in the way of my daily need to mindfulness about procrastination.
wondered where you've been......have been using chat, micro-burst, and phone bridge more since you helped my initial, novice's hesitancy on ALL THIS.....I even asked the PA "town folk" on chat box where you've been.....ENJOY holiday and will endeavour ** to enjoy mindfulness with you
Get up by 7 (still missing this. Need to get to
sleep earlier)
Coffee, paper, water plants
Healthy breakfast
Checkins
Morning
Ack PB Swap receipt
Add 5 to music
Finish factchecking Masters10
Email RG re: dove trip
Do deadbiz rewrite
Ck mailer list against CP db
Afternoon
File JH rewrite
Call 5 re: music
ID open mic
Recycle transmission fluid
Take guitar pics
Evening
Put away camping stuff
Open mic
Read voice book
Bed by 11 p.m.
Miscellaneous to-dos I'm re-listing here so I won't forget them. Also so I can have something to choose from if I want a quickly accomplished to-do to give me a jolt of energy and some positive momentum.
*wonders if 'saw sharpening' is a metaphor or if you are sharpening real saws* . . .of course you dont' have to answer that question unless you want to lol
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
It's from a phrase by Stephen R. Covey: "don't get so busy sawing that you forget to sharpen the saw!" In other words, it means things such as prayer, scripture study, planning, exercise, etc.
Hi there: Glad to see another member from this same "state" -- geographic, that is, as well as the state of affairs which brought us all here. Welcome!
Thanks so much for the welcoming words! I think it will make a difference to my progress to start getting to know, a bit, the real people behind the posts. Makes the feeling of connection and accountability stronger. And I hope to be a blessing to others as well through my support of them.
I'm actually pretty close to DC, so we are probably not very far apart at all geographically.
Am thinking of trying to get an informal, occasional, and/or even-just-one-time "Proc-anonymous" face-to-face meeting somewhere in these parts. Let me know if you have even passing interest. It always take one person or two to buckle down and set up & get started, so "I'm that guy," for now. We might have 1-2 more (no more than that). Think and contact me directly if interested, or let me when you are on chatbox or phone bridge if at all. Cheers/Thanks.
Today I need to get started on my thesis proposal. This is top priority
Steps for that are:
*Start master project page
*2 (logged, focused) hrs working on Aal-A1 transition
*Set up mtg
*Schedule for prep
I also need to:
*Ask for presentation feedback (tried this, but no one would criticize me! need to come up w/ a new plan for improving my speaking skills)
*Clear WM queue
*Email S (going to do this soon)
Lower priority are:
*Finish up/record genotyping (mostly done)
*1 hr work on diff EQ project
*Order RA, look for paper
Finally, I have some non-work tasks to do (bold are MITs): *harambee email
*ask labmate about husband is hospital *list
*call home
*bank
OK, I'm going to start by setting up the master progress page.
Took a nice long walk this morning. Now I need to jump in the shower and be ready to work at 9. I feel recovered from the weekend today, and I want to put in a good 8 hours in spite of my doctor's appt. today. I have a mammogram today . Fun, huh?
Jo
Update 9:15 daughter beat me to the bathroom so I made my todo list. 18 hours of stuff! Back to do triage.
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
Back from mammogram.. Glad that's over for another year. Team meeting coming up and I can work on the config during the meeting (conference call)
Exercise
Planning
Bathe/dress for dr. appt. -30 minutes
DR meeting - 30 minutes
Project V - update config - 30 minutes
mammogram yuck! - 2 hours?
Team meeting - 1 hour
Project M meeting - 30 minutes
Project Z - compare calendars - 1 hour
Project Z - list all R. documentation - 30 minutes
O.C. duty - E on System P - 30 minutes
O.C. duty - request for System Z - 30 minutes
water plants; feed birds - 10 minutes
Project M - review U install - 30 minutes
Take vitamins
Balance checkbook; pay that bill -started
dinner & dishes - 2 hours
added - fix authorization problem on test system
Update 3:30 ok, Imma take a break to water plants and feed birds, then I'll face those horrid calendars.
Update 5:15 done with the horrid calendars. I still have questions so I will have to ask the BIC tomorrow, but I did as much as possible! Going to unload the dishwasher and then come back and do another half hour or so of work. I'm not going to get to the U install but hopefully I can get to it before the BIC arrives in the morning, I usually get there much earlier than she. Of course, she stays a lot later than I do so it balances.
Update 8 pm - - dishes! then go to bed early.
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
checked my email and got some not very good news. will try to make a good effort and not let that get me down but accomplish as much as possible of what i want to do today.
other things to be done (but not necessarily today):
email T (HNS + F)
call SST
backup
proceed on writing job applications
this is what i can think of at the moment. will amend the list during the day if necessary.
you can edit your own posts anytime until someone else replies. You do that by pressing the edit button below your post. Then your post will show up again on the screen accompanied by all the same formatting stuff as the first time when you made it. But once someone replies, you can no longer change things... thanks for solidarity.
What Chickadee says is true, regarding the posts inside a thread. If you make a post INSIDE a thread, you can edit it, up until the time someone replies. Edit by clicking on "edit" at bottom of your post. It's right next to the word "reply".
However, if you START a thread, you can ALWAYS edit your own threadSTARTER, by clicking the "edit" TAB at TOP of the starter. This is true, regardless of how many people reply to the thread.
In either case, you can see the edit option only if YOU made the post, and only if you are logged in.
I think today's thread-starter is just fine, and I do feel welcome!
'Welome' yes I do mean welcome but I'm sure you get the idea and I can't find how to alter it.
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Checked emails and posts
Finished off visa application forms - sleeping on it really did work
Got ready to go out for visa and shopping
Todo:
Out for visa
Some shopping on the way back
Exercise walk
Bath and wash hair
Phone friend
Some admin work
ScottY check-in
To do today:
scripture study
prayer
call Apple
resolve coolant situation
bills work
CA project
MP project
practice vc
get HP teacher
call CML
tax work
Oops!
I posted this check-in on the wrong day...I'll move it to Thursday, where it belonged!
Weds July 21 - back here
Well I spent the past 4 months or so working on my own on thse issues and not getting any more productive and facing intense demand resistance from myself. I need and want the 12 step process. I have never been in a 12 step program and I find the online to not be "real" enough for me but it may be that if I do it daily and participate in a meeting in my city even if it's directed at alcohol or adult child of alcoholic (which I am) --- I will be more connected and less in denial. That would be fantastic. I read the promises for recovery and I almost cried reading them thinking what that would feel like.
Tonight: send email to clients (1. V/F & 2. C & 3. new one)
4. Call Vivian
5. Clean office before I leave (5 minutes)
6. billing for today
7. look at calendar for tomorrow
8. meet h for dinner
9.
work on recoveryDONE10. Look up local meetings for Adult Child Alcoholic.
1-hour Steps&Trad. phone mtg:Wed 8PM NewYork time(diff.phone#)
Weekly one-hour "Steps and Traditions"
Procrastinators Anonymous phone meeting
Wednesdays 8PM NewYork time
One-hour PA telephone meeting based on the book
"Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions of AA"
http://www.aa.org/1212/
( *** Please note that the phone number is different
from the 15-minute phone meetings. *** )
Call 1-712-775-7000.
Then enter access code 212389# when prompted.
Weekly, Wednesdays 8PM, New York time.
(Eastern Daylight Time in summers).
Meeting lasts one full hour.
Starting June 30, 2010.
This would be just after midnight
(Wed night / Thursday morning)
in European timezones.
This would be Thursday mornings
in Asia/Australia timezones.
This would be Thursdays mid-day in New Zealand.
Click here to see your timezone equivalent:
http://timeanddate.com/worldclock/fixedtime.html?year=2010&month=7&day=15&hour=0&min=0&sec=0
Meeting is one hour long.
If you are seeking recovery from procrastination, you are welcome to attend.
Vic 7/21
Show up (done) Where else but here could I say I am feeling tramatized because now I need to make a call about the last year disaster and don;t know if I am too late already which would only add to the disaster, etc. etc. when I think of starting, I stop breathing. Feeling so bad about myself, which of course justifies my feelings in my head.
Thanks
Made headway- not "the phone call" , but some information needed for the phone call. now 1. find phone number 2, call
prayers for a successful phone call!
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
hope4meandu checkin (1:50PM)
Hi All,
Wow, feel so beaten up in my life recently and trying not to react, but that is proving hard. Feel like I'm not allowed to be nice, as it pisses people off. Not trying to, just trying to be the best I can be. Don't really have the will to tell myself, it's okay and keep going, don't let them get to you. It's already gotten to me. Don't know how to get "me" back.
Have really fallen downward on my apartment cleaning - UGH!!
Today:
-find out from nf how to send cd back if envelope is damaged.
-bank & store
-sweep apartment
-wash s
-clean oven?
-workout 10 minutes today, Friday & Sunday - be careful of ankle
Will try to put a positive spin on work, even though most of my day is getting yelled at or snotted on by someone. Because of this, which usually starts from my boss, I steal time at work, which I'm doing today. Not the best solution, but....
Anyway, kind regards all and hope you're all doing great!!
♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥
(Hope4)
When I am in that ind of situation, I try to remember the Big Book, p 66,67
"We began to see that the world and its people really dominated us. In that state, the wrong-doing of others, fancied or real, had power to actually kill. How could we escape? We saw that these resentments must be mastered, but how? We could not wish them away any more than alcohol.
thanks for this vic, very
thanks for this vic, very helpful to me
Yes thanks (Vic) good reminder
♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥
Trying to focus
12:03 PM: Feeling anxious today. Thought I had too much sugar or caffeine, but it seems to be something else. I am feeling pressure to finish and mail some paperwork related to my future employment, which is overdue, and that may be the trigger, as I also have to keep working on catching up here. As a result, having trouble getting started on either. But calls keep coming in about overdue reports, so I will have to concentrate on that and clear the other from my mind.
Goal: 12:35 - 4 PM: Complete as many short reports and followups as possible, to see some clearing of the path before me.
4 - 5 PM: Phone meeting
Funny, just putting off the other task and I feel calmer. Anyway, back to report later.
Goal Allegro Check In 21 July 2010
Hi everyone,
It's been a while since I've been back here. Will be going away soon on a ski holiday, but I'm not going to let it get in the way of my daily need to mindfulness about procrastination.
Today's task: Show up. Done.
That's step one of getting back on track..
> Goal Allegro
(G-Allegro by MD)
wondered where you've been......have been using chat, micro-burst, and phone bridge more since you helped my initial, novice's hesitancy on ALL THIS.....I even asked the PA "town folk" on chat box where you've been.....ENJOY holiday and will endeavour ** to enjoy mindfulness with you
(** notice proper Commonwealth English spelling)
clement ci
:) ci
list
quiet time
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
Scribblin' and Checkin'
Prep
Get upby 7 (still missing this. Need to get tosleep earlier)
Coffee, paper, water plantsHealthy breakfastCheckinsMorning
Ack PB Swap receiptAdd 5 to musicFinish factchecking Masters10Email RG re: dove tripDo deadbiz rewriteCk mailer list against CP dbAfternoon
File JH rewriteCall 5 re: musicID open micRecycle transmission fluidTake guitar picsEvening
Miscellaneous to-dos I'm re-listing here so I won't forget them. Also so I can have something to choose from if I want a quickly accomplished to-do to give me a jolt of energy and some positive momentum.
List book on eBayMail K cardScottY check-in
I'm brand new to PA, and very happy to be here. Hoping my participation will be a blessing.
To do today:
saw sharpening
HPGL work
bills work
call JL
work out
call ht
tax work
practice vc
ScottY 11:00 p.m.
Knowing I was going to "report" made a big difference today!
DONE: saw sharpening
DONE: HPGL work
DONE: bills work
DONE: call JL
DONE: work out
DONE: practice vc
call ht
tax work
Tasks that had to be added, and were DONE:
Research iPad D.A., project for MP, project for BP.
Welcome Scotty!
*wonders if 'saw sharpening' is a metaphor or if you are sharpening real saws* . . .of course you dont' have to answer that question unless you want to lol
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
saw sharpening
It's from a phrase by Stephen R. Covey: "don't get so busy sawing that you forget to sharpen the saw!" In other words, it means things such as prayer, scripture study, planning, exercise, etc.
welcome ScottY by MD
Hi there: Glad to see another member from this same "state" -- geographic, that is, as well as the state of affairs which brought us all here. Welcome!
Thanks!
MD,
Thanks so much for the welcoming words! I think it will make a difference to my progress to start getting to know, a bit, the real people behind the posts. Makes the feeling of connection and accountability stronger. And I hope to be a blessing to others as well through my support of them.
I'm actually pretty close to DC, so we are probably not very far apart at all geographically.
Take care and thanks again!
((ScottY of Va.& I-95))
Reply to reply to reply....
Am thinking of trying to get an informal, occasional, and/or even-just-one-time "Proc-anonymous" face-to-face meeting somewhere in these parts. Let me know if you have even passing interest. It always take one person or two to buckle down and set up & get started, so "I'm that guy," for now. We might have 1-2 more (no more than that). Think and contact me directly if interested, or let me when you are on chatbox or phone bridge if at all. Cheers/Thanks.
kromer 8:50 CI
Today I need to get started on my thesis proposal. This is top priority
Steps for that are:
*
Start master project page*
2 (logged, focused) hrs working on Aal-A1 transition*
Set up mtg*
Schedule for prepI also need to:
*Ask for presentation feedback (tried this, but no one would criticize me! need to come up w/ a new plan for improving my speaking skills)
*
Clear WM queue*Email S (going to do this soon)
Lower priority are:
*Finish up/record genotyping (mostly done)
*1 hr work on diff EQ project
*Order RA, look for paper
Finally, I have some non-work tasks to do (bold are MITs):
*harambee email
*ask labmate about husband is hospital
*list
*call home
*bank
OK, I'm going to start by setting up the master progress page.
journey 8:40
Took a nice long walk this morning. Now I need to jump in the shower and be ready to work at 9. I feel recovered from the weekend today, and I want to put in a good 8 hours in spite of my doctor's appt. today. I have a mammogram today . Fun, huh?
Jo
Update 9:15 daughter beat me to the bathroom so I made my todo list. 18 hours of stuff! Back to do triage.
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
Journey 9:30
I do not understand why my posts are suddenly double spaced! Oh, well, I'll worry about that later. It bugs me though.
Today's list:
There's a lot more stuff I need to do, but I have be realistic, if I get the above done today I'll be happy!
Off for a quick shower and back here before 10 am meeting!
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
Journey 1:30
Back from mammogram.. Glad that's over for another year. Team meeting coming up and I can work on the config during the meeting (conference call)
ExercisePlanningBathe/dress for dr. appt. -30 minutesDR meeting - 30 minutesProject V - update config - 30 minutesmammogram yuck! - 2 hours?Team meeting - 1 hourProject M meeting - 30 minutesProject Z - compare calendars - 1 hourProject Z - list all R. documentation - 30 minuteswater plants; feed birds - 10 minutesTake vitaminsdinner& dishes - 2 hoursadded - fix authorization problem on test systemUpdate 3:30 ok, Imma take a break to water plants and feed birds, then I'll face those horrid calendars.
Update 5:15 done with the horrid calendars. I still have questions so I will have to ask the BIC tomorrow, but I did as much as possible! Going to unload the dishwasher and then come back and do another half hour or so of work. I'm not going to get to the U install but hopefully I can get to it before the BIC arrives in the morning, I usually get there much earlier than she. Of course, she stays a lot later than I do so it balances.
Update 8 pm - - dishes! then go to bed early.
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
double spaced in the eye of the beholder?
your post does not appear double spaced to me. each item on the list is single space in my view.
i'd capture it and post a graphic of it, but i have to think abt how to do that...
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
trying image
this is what it looked like to me:
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
double-spaced?
Interesting. . . I'll just ignore it then!
Jo
'A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.' - Elbert Hubbard
tuffl CI
today's to-dos:
checked my email and got some not very good news. will try to make a good effort and not let that get me down but accomplish as much as possible of what i want to do today.
other things to be done (but not necessarily today):
this is what i can think of at the moment. will amend the list during the day if necessary.
Get going
Morning, thanks for the starter Rexroth. I like the comment about 'one day at a time' . I'm finding that is helping at the moment.
Today I want to get all these items cleared:
details on 2 wick
sort 16hay survey
sort 133 negotiation
send HB report and new marketing proposal
finish byways
measure curtain lengths
val letter in post today
call Diane
stage1 design insert
call Jar
Tonight, do at least 30 mins of Portuguese language at home
Go!
chick CI
focus on prep for s-make selections
table
kitchen
Hi Rexroth and good day,
Hi Rexroth and good day, thanks for the welcome
you can edit your own posts anytime until someone else replies. You do that by pressing the edit button below your post. Then your post will show up again on the screen accompanied by all the same formatting stuff as the first time when you made it. But once someone replies, you can no longer change things... thanks for solidarity.
re: editing posts
What Chickadee says is true, regarding the posts inside a thread. If you make a post INSIDE a thread, you can edit it, up until the time someone replies. Edit by clicking on "edit" at bottom of your post. It's right next to the word "reply".
However, if you START a thread, you can ALWAYS edit your own threadSTARTER, by clicking the "edit" TAB at TOP of the starter. This is true, regardless of how many people reply to the thread.
In either case, you can see the edit option only if YOU made the post, and only if you are logged in.
I think today's thread-starter is just fine, and I do feel welcome!
Rexroth Check In
'Welome' yes I do mean welcome but I'm sure you get the idea and I can't find how to alter it.
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Checked emails and posts
Finished off visa application forms - sleeping on it really did work
Got ready to go out for visa and shopping
Todo:
Out for visa
Some shopping on the way back
Exercise walk
Bath and wash hair
Phone friend
Some admin work
That will do for now
Have a good day
Rexroth