Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Monday, 5 July 2010

Monday, 5 July 2010

We must gather all our courage
Sail our ships out on the open sea
Cast away our fears

From the song "We may never pass this way again" -- Seals and Crofts

Late start

It's 2:06 PM here. Today is a work holiday, so I am almost alone again. I did see someone else's office light is on. Perhaps it is another procrastinator, trying to catch up. Or not. Doesn't matter much, as I have my own fires to tend. Had difficulty getting started today. Perhaps I am unconsciously rebelling at being here on a holiday after being here all weekend. But that's not a helpful approach. Will try to focus now and buckle down.

Goal #1: Starting at 2:15 PM, try to complete 6 cases in 2 hours. Will report back around 4:15 PM and reassess my motivation at that point.

Actually, it just occurred to me that maybe I am not rebelling against being here. Maybe I am oddly rebelling against the modest success of the last couple of days. As if it is somehow comforting to feel behind. Curious. To work, then.

4:48 PM: Difficult going today, feeling very distractible. I have completed 3 cases. Will press on for another hour and a half, try to finish the 3 additional cases I hoped to finish this last block.

Goal #2: Starting at 4:55 PM, try to complete 3 cases in 1 hour. Will report back around 6 PM.

7:07 PM: Again, it took much longer than expected. On the bright side, 6 cases have been reviewed and 3 are finished. The other 3 will need relatively minor followup. All in all, some progress. Enough for now. 

@ 4 (no shame!)

I can relate.  I've come a long way since I joined this site several years ago.   At that time I was behind on a critical work project that I hadn't even started on.   But, I still suck at estimating the time to do a job.   I'm working on it  thoughWink

BTW, I seriously recommend changing your userid to something more positive.  We're here to get past the shame and move forward, after all Innocent


'I'm going to put a smile on my face, put forth a good effort, and be better today than I was yesterday.' - Huma

Scribbler CI

It's already afternoon, but never too late to plan, I suppose:

  • Checkins
  • Cancel gym membership
  • Add 5 to music db
  • Email 5 re: music
  • Call BB re: Poodie gig
  • Add 5 to CP db
  • Study voice book
  • Learn Lightfoot instrumental
  • Practice Valentine
  • Find Song For You music
  • Look up Sting, McGraw songs
  • Fold laundry
  • Walk with RB
  • Fax child support office


morning jog.



PA phone meeting

text meeting

Read, prepare application for university.

prepeare workout schedule.


past gym shake

prepare application for university.

Iron clothes,

clean room ,

sort out papers

hasnt been a great day but

hasnt been a great day but atleastwas able to get out of the procrastinatition rut. was able to stay awake in the evening instead of napping and hopefully will be able to sleep well and be refreshed for tommorows jog and tasks.

1. jog

2. prepare univ application

3. prep. prg. off resume/application.

4. buy some whey protein.

kromer 1:40 CI

Just got back from vacation to visit my parents.

Now, it's a holiday in lab, but I still have a decent amount I want to get done.

*Make schedule for the week
*Do cooking, tend to garden, unpack
*Do RT
*Orders, protocol

Other tasks:
*Clean slides
*Email YK, RH, SMc; letter to IA; mail letters
*Financial stuff
*Organize -20 freezer
*Get primers

OK, I'm going to start by seeing if I can find the stuff for RT. 

hope4meandu checkin (12:56PM)

Hey Guys,

Really depressing weekend. Realize that I need to leave my marriage. He raged at me for 6 years and honestly I was able to let it go, but now I am starting to rage at him and I refuse to become that person again after all the hard, hard work. If I go into that hole again, I will never climb my way back out. I deeply love this person and know he does me, but I can't allow this to happen. It will be hard for both of us. I'm freaked out scared about finances, as I'm not even making it with him.

My doggy business isn't, and I think it's because I hit my girl when she was a puppy...(can you freakin imagine, my beautiful innocent, fun-loving girl)....I think HP is saying, good that you changed but because of this gross transgression of hitting one of my beloved, helpless children, you cannot have the pleasure of working with them. This is who I used to be and this drives me to work hard for her recovery & happiness. So, I'm not the amazing dog Mom I pretend to be.

I only worked out once last week, but the cleaning effort went well. Yesterday I watched tv the whole day and did nothing. Today I want to at least do 10 minutes of exercise. Also, want to finish a piece of a project that I'm helping someone with.

Take good care!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥

hope4meandu, may you find your HP's loving vision for you!

I'm adding my prayers for you and Yoffee too! ((Hope))

Chin up buggaluggs! Don't be so hard on yourself about things in the past - we see you do good things for yourself and for pups everyday - and you sound like a brilliant dog mum! Maybe now isn't the time and world isn't ready for your doggy business, but don't lose hope!

I'm really sorry to hear about your marriage. Agnus' words are very wise, perhaps take some time to further reflect on whether the 2 of you can grow out of this together. I've been in raging rships before too - yes times can be tough. We'll support you in whatever decision the 2 of you make!

May your HP bring you clarity, serenity and hope in these gray times and may the light at the end of the tunnel appear for you soon!

> Allegro

you are not alone

Hi Hope4meandu

I can relate to almost everything  u mention. Am in a 6 yr relationship which has often been  abusive but now almost unberable. .

I remember lashing out at my poor dog early in the marriage, a guilt that i suffer with treamendously even today. Its been almost 2 years since I gave up the dog for adoption but I can still feel his presence and often cry.

I relate a lot to ur struggles;When i look back at the 6 yrs i feel pain and wonder how I could have let my life slip away..... I always struggled with procrastination since the time I was young but things went really downhill in the past 6 yrs becaause of the relationship. I am now slowly trying to reclaim my life, going back to the gym and getting back to a career: either work, if i find some or going back to school.


Prayers on the way

hope4meandu prayers for guidance and peace on their way.


((Rexroth)) thank you so much!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥


So sorry to hear about your marriage, and am praying for you (and particularly for your finances). 

From reading your posts I can see that you are an amazing dog mom, whatever you may have done in the past. If I had a dog I can't think of anyone I would rather have take care of him/her. Right now might not be to right time or place to start your doggy business, but I hope that you won't give up and that you can do it someday.

I'm so glad to have you here and hope that we can help you through this tough time. 




adding my prayers too 


'I'm going to put a smile on my face, put forth a good effort, and be better today than I was yesterday.' - Huma

mee too ((hope4meandu))

My AA sponsor used to ask me often, "Do you really have to make that decision today?"  Because when down (on myself, usually), I tend to jump to the conclusion that my whole life is all wrong, I am all wrong, he is definitely all wrong or at least a terrible error in judgment on my part, my current troubles are surely HP's way of saying so, and I definitely have to fix this all right now. 

It's hard for us as addicts, I think, to keep a balanced perspective. But I know for sure that on bad days, I'm better off postponing major conclusions and decisions about my life.  The old-timers in recovery have a saying, This too shall pass - you and Yoffee and your family are in my prayers, hope.  I believe in you - and in a Higher Power who loves you and believes in you more than you can know. 

ag advice

while not in "one of those moments" this advice from agnus makes perfect sense to me.

if i was submerged in one of those moments as hope4meandu is, i know myself enuf now, i would be responding just like hope4: this is a life crisis and it's all going wrong and i must fix it right now, drastically, and even then there's no hope. I have felt that way so many times.

it amazes me to this day how i can recognize myself in all your posts. What a blessing to be here.

Hope4meandu: i feel for you!! And i pray that your HP will be your guiding light.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

((kromer)) ((journey)) ((agnus))

I'm blown away by your love and support, especially when admitting my worst flaws.

You don't know what you all mean to me (always there to hold me up when I'm about to fall) and what this group has done & is doing for me.

I humbly pray that HP's love shine on you for your shining your love on me.

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥

yw hope

and the doggy forgives you too.


'I'm going to put a smile on my face, put forth a good effort, and be better today than I was yesterday.' - Huma

Rexroth Check In

Up prayer and reflection
and it is early evening and not much else


Rexroth Check Out


Friend phoned who was depressed and confused and has just spent three hours with me and has left feeling a bit better so I did get something useful done today after all.

Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

Night Folks


Agnus checking in

Hi y'all!  Today is my 30th AA anniversary ::jawdrop::- and it's a holiday (not for that reason, though there are people who think my getting sober was a miracle worthy of a national holiday, lol!;-)).  So, yay God!    I wasn't sure if I should share that here, but hopefully it will encourage someone lurking in PA to try the combination of the 12 Steps, tools and understanding fellowship - they really do "work if we work it."

We've had hot, overcast, muggy and rainy weather all weekend and my physical discomforts are too high to undertake the outdoor tasks I'd planned.  So I've done a little cleaning and straightening - and a massive attack on paperwork backlogs - :D!  My plan for today is to continue that attack, rest as needed, take all my sups and meals on time, help J take all his meds and meals on time, and revisit the AA group in another town where I attended my first meeting.

I hope everyone has a good PA recovery day, one day at a time today!:-)


that's so incredible. Witness the transformational power of god.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb


Congratulations Agnus!!! I'm happy for you!!!

Well done

 God Bless!

Congrats agnus!

30 years, that's incredible!

Congratulations Agnus!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥

Gratz Ag!

I didn't know they let 5-year olds join AA!   :grin:

'I'm going to put a smile on my face, put forth a good effort, and be better today than I was yesterday.' - Huma

Journey 11:30

Hey y'all, this weekend was recovery weekend for me.   I planned, and did, only a few chores on Saturday and Sunday.   Today is a holiday, but I'm going to do two things for work today,  make side dishes for dinner (DH is cooking steak on grill!) and do the dishes.  Other than that, rest up for next week.   I'm feeling better, still feeling tired and short of breath, but I don't feel dizzy or lightheaded any more when I try to do stuff, so I am recovering just s l o w l y.

  • test scripts
  • build test server 
  • dinner
  • dishes

'I'm going to put a smile on my face, put forth a good effort, and be better today than I was yesterday.' - Huma

Monday July 5, 2010

Things I plan to do today:

1. Prayer and Meditation

2. Read 12-Step literature

3. Take a shower

4. Polish my nails

5. Clear off my couch

6. Clear off my tables

7. Clear off my floor

8. Declutter more e-mail

9. Go to my mother's

10. Get Al-Anon literature

11. Organize my phone numbers

12 Write down books that need to return

13. Make Bed

14. Wash dishes

15. Do my hair

16. Go to 7 a.m. DA meeting

17. Go to two PA telephone meetings

18. Go to PA check-in's

19. Go to three CLA meetings.

20. Eat breakfast

21. Eat dinner

That's all I have

Lucky CI

Already done today:
Hypnosis CD :)
Hypnosis DVD :)
Read :)
Prayer time :)

Use timetabling checklist
Use 5 min email/5 min paper/10 min tasks
Pod check
Backlog: Archive bible attack
Contracts – save & email backlog scans
Tea/last orders
Check in with D
Tidy & plan/double checks

After work:
Email/social sites
Email S
Email L
Clear kitchen
Dog face wash
Floss/brush teeth/wash face/moisturise
Shut living room window
Tomorrow's list
Email reports
Hypnosis CD
Check in
BED straight after check in!

way to go

way to go

ndb check-in july-5

New day, new week, new job...

My goal for this week is to work from my task list all the time. I'm using Mark Forster's autofocus-system, which works pretty good *when I use it.* Problem is, I don't use it a lot: when I know there's something tough hidden in the list I'm avoiding the entire list. So that's my goal for this week: always work the list. I intend to add little 'relaxing tasks' mixed in with the rest, that way I'll know it's not all doom...


Done from my list so far today:

  • shower
  • time-sheet 
  • checked tux-payment
  • cleared email
  • checked birthdays this week
  • checked meetings this week
  • meeting notes 18/6
  • unpacked coffee machine
  • checked weight
  • checked MR-project-info
  • voicemail
  • notes
  • drink enough water
  • change of address sent out

Congratulatons Nicole on your new job!!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's healing.♥