BILLS BILLS BILLS
Well, folks, sometimes negative motivation can (unfortunate as it is) be a help. In wanting to get away from things at home (howsoever briefly), on SAT 1st and because an appt cancelled, I simply found a reason to go to the library and took my bag of bills.
There, I opened up two timely payments (rent and electric bill, both looming for 1-2 weeks) -- having figured out the previous night that phone-internet and cable bill could reasonably wait till this wk -- and I just paid them. [perish the thought!]
I had set up a must-do deadline of post office by noon which I MET. Lo and behold, mail collection now goes late till 2 pm, so I was almost going to BACK to library and pay the other bills and return by 2 but family lunch beckoned.
SO, I know it's old news but -- having combined an earlier phone check-in with this story -- I still wanted to get this tale on Sat's ledger to document it TO you/FOR you as the experience at mail box was calm but enriching -- avoiding that dreaded temporary euphoria (not always successfully, I admit).
Thus, in tribute, while holding envelopes and as I opened mail box door, I sent a serene acknowledgement to YOU (specifically, MAMA-CAT, SPIRIT, MOVING ALONG, GOAL ALLEGRO, PROSICK) and others (forgive if I missed anyone!!) for simply listening and being there (and here).
I guess the phrase "going postal" for me is taking on a macabre positive twist. (Had to end with bad joke which I like to when I am happy.)
happy 4th- dhow up (done)
Please do not leave advice. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
I need a recovery partner, co-sponsor or sponsor. I've been in this program since December 2008, and right now I could really use a sponsor or co-sponsor. Yes, I know "we sponsor ourselves here," but that is not cutting it for me right now, so if there is anyone else who'd like to team up with me, please send me a private message.
Just got off work. I am keeping things simple today, since I am mainly focusing on my homework.
Finish all of the summarys for English
Do a brief work out
brief clean up
load of laundry
So I have wandered into work. Here by myself, as usual most weekends. Here is my goal for this afternoon:
3 PM - 5 PM: 6 cases in 2 hours
Back at 5 PM to report.
5:17 PM: Completed 4 cases. Had hard time staying on task, felt sleepy, even dozed off for about 8 minutes, but at least made a little progress. Able to keep myself from performing other escapist behaviors.
Next goal: Keep pressing to finish the 6 cases; 2 remain. Will try to complete by 6 PM.
Back to report.
6:25 PM: Completed 2 more cases, total 6 cases for today. Did better at staying on task this period. Still very slow going, but at least I am moving in the right direction with getting them done.
Just found out I won't get to see my kids this evening, so I may as well press on a bit.
Next goal: 1 hour, 2 cases. Will start @ 8:15 PM, report back @ 9:15 PM. Then I will call it a day and leave work. Back in 1 hour.
9:07 PM: Completed 2 cases, total 8 cases for today. Enough for one day.
Oops...somehow failed to submit my checkin. Tried to check in at 11:23 AM. Plan was to leave the apartment by noon. Didn't make it, but was ready by 12:40 PM. Spent last 15 minutes hunting for my missing checkin. Caught myself starting to repeat my cycle of checking news, email, looking for something interesting. Now leaving. It's 1 PM, much better than my usual Saturday foot dragging pattern.
Not in a good space today and checking in because I am committed to.
Cleaned kitchen including floor
Read craft magazine
Bath and wash hair
and I am not sure
That ought to take care of the rest of the day. It's noon now.
Check in :)
Prayer time :)
Pick up C prescriptions before 12 :)
AM remind C payslip to work
Remind C email S
Plan dailies and weeklies & backlog tasks
Sort mags for J
Sort bible reading plan on youversion.com
Dog face wash
Floss/brush teeth/wash face/moisturise
Shut living room window
BED straight after check in!
I plan to do some things for Saturday
1. Go to the 7 a.m. meeting
2. Take a shower
3. Get dressed
4. Make Bed
5. Fix and Eat Breakfast
6. Go to the 9:30 a.m. Overeaters Anonymous meeting
7. Go to the 11:30 a.m. Debtors Anonymous meeting
8. Post more literature for the week
9. Write down my books to be prepared to bring back to the library
10. Call the library
11. If the library is open I can bring the books back to the library
12. Cook dinner for the next few days
13. Get my clothes ready to be washed.
15. Put out 7th Tradition to two DA groups.
16. Get my medicine ready for next week.
17. Shower for the next day
18. Get clothes ready for the next day
19. Get sleep apnea stuff ready for the next day.
20. Have some prayer and meditation and spiritual and self-help literature.
21. Go to the telephone CODA meeting
22. Go to the 8 p.m. Clutterers Anonymous meeting.
That's all I can think of for the day.
Thank you Journey for suggesting that I book-end in the chatbox if I find that these check-in lists are freaking me out too much.
I tried it yesterday (Friday) and it did move me along alot and I made use of small segments of time better rather than procrastinating starting on the whole list.
So I'm going to keep at it.
Today is going to be a busy day fun-wise: get up, go to yum cha, see a movie, go winter ice skating, catch up with friends over a drink. So I won't have that much time to procrastinate as I'm not really doing things that I resist.
But I shall keep mindful of the fact that I can make use of even small chunks of time to move my life forward and remember Rule 32 (Enjoy the little things).
Glad you like guys have liked my thread-starters of late. It's been fun finding images and tapping into a inspiring thought to reach out to your guys from across the seas every day. I'm going to be checking in more sporadically over the next few weeks, so won't always get a chance to start the thread. But I'm really going to miss it.
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