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Recycler CI 3:45pm EST
Hi Pro Buddies!
ok, I missed whatever was going on.
Anyway, this morning at the gym I did cardio, ab exercises, and stretching. At work, I did requested projects this morning. At lunchtime, I ate at a restaurant, took some quiet time for reflection, and worked on my budget. This afternoon I finished up some projects, so I am doing my CI now; I've finished my projects for the day already, so I will start working ahead on something else or another project for tomorrow ;)
Tonight I will be home for a while, but plan to journal then go to a volunteer meeting, so I might not get to update my CI later.
Hang in there, everyone! Have a great night! :)
Recycler
Recycler
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
byGodsGrace todays CI
Perfectionism red alert------Posting to snap out of it....
Just when I thought i was doing pretty well... dealing with my avoidance of even making a to do list for this big job at end of the month - i see it isn't about workload, i can work hard all day long if it isn't something that causes me fear or anxiety - but this job has me in perfectionistic red alert. It is the most high profile client i've had, paying one at least, and instead of dealing with my feelings about it i have avoid every task until i can't avoid anymore then get it done in a frenzy - which i guess helps not have to think about it because i am responding to the pressure of the last minute deadline. I don't want to be this way. I am getting more and more jobs and each one brings up this anxiety... what if there is a better way to design it... if i start a design then i am commited to it and so many people out there do such a great job and I want to be as good or better... so i just stay in perpetual planning or about to plan mode....
I'm not quite in serious last minute territory, but close enough, i am posting this to be accountable and snap out of it now. Yesterday i posted about making the list - i am almost done with that pending some client changes - so now i just need to commit to design idea(s), design and produce them.
Praying i was thinking about example of making a resume - hard to make one for yourself - but can easily help someone else with theirs... I long for that ease and confidence in things I do for myself...
I have seen tiny glimpses of peace and confidence recently - a window into the hope that i can enjoy life and work and not have dread and insecurity and anxiety and then all the stress and cost that comes out of the avoidance those lead to... I know God can change me in this area, He has changed me in so many others i thought were impossible. Show me what to do God, I don't want to fail at this. Help me not feel so much pressure and just have faith in you and the talents you gave me.
For now I must: Complete sample for rush job, complete addon quote job2, design summary to plan supplies job2 and order
tx chickadee :)
you always make me feel better with your wise words :)
working fairly well since post - frustrating part is that my day is somewhat ruled by therapy and appointments for dd so that makes it all the more important to be using my time wisely - staying aware and connected is helping and asking God to help me acknowledge and face feelings instead of avoiding them - I often feel I am relearning the basics in life that others just do automatically - but thats ok at least i am aware of the need to learn.... slow progress not perfection. Back to ci after appointments.
UPDATE - back from appointments, twittered away about 30 min - but back on track now and finishing up rush job and will get a lot done tonight bgg. Grateful for support and restarts and that His mercies are new everyday...every minute! I know I can't slack up in my awareness or prayer life for even a day - it snowballs...
Reminding myself... I'm good enough, I'm smart enough and dog gonnit, my clients like my work ;) (Time to get it done!)
solidarity to you bGG--I am
solidarity to you bGG--I am in a somewhat similar boat--will have to stay very focussed, then I will ask myself: how can I make my life more tranquil, full and happy
Hope-Faith CI 10:10
Today -- Late check but have been very busy today. However it is now time to focus on a few need to do task today.
CI when done
hope-faith
Falcon CI Thurs.
That's odd. . . I posted a CI earlier, but it doesn't seem to be here. So I'll post again. . .
I'm gradually recovering from the surgery, not 100% yet, but getting there. I'll be going back to work Monday, and I'm dreading it. I've been realizing that I'm not happy with the way I handle relationships at this job, and it's going to be a lot of work to change that.
I was wondering why I've been feeling so down, and last night my therapist pointed out that depression can be a side effect of the hormone I'm on. A total forehead-slapping moment -- d'uh! Why didn't I think of that?
Good to know, since the hormone will wear off in a few months, & I shouldn't need to take it after that. Meanwhile, at least I know that the crawl-into-bed-and-stay-there feeling is coming from something physical, so I don't need to over-analyze it.
Anyhow, here's what I'd like to get done today:
Falcon
Edited to add. . . I'm getting a HUGE truckload of laundry folded as part of tidying up. I'd been putting that off forever, so it's great to get it done.
Journey 8:30
Back in the office today. I was early, traffic is awesome now that school is out. I've been to the gym, read email, and checked my calendar. I have a 9:30 meeting that I need to prepare for, so that will be the first thing to do, even before making a todo list. Well, the second thing. First thing is COFFEE.
I had a short quiet time in the car this morning before driving in. I've been skipping quiet time since life has been a bit unpredictable the past couple of weeks, the past couple of months really, but that's when you need that quiet time the most. No profound insights today, but I feel calm.
coffee, meeting prep, todo list, meeting. here goes.
Jo
"The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard
Journey 5:45
Pretty good day - I had some unplanned stuff that came up so I didn't check off everything on my list, but I worked pretty well today. Now off to fight traffic.
Jo
"The elevator to success is out of order. You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard
Thursdays child has far to go checkin
Today:
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eposit due
lawn and hedge
work out
class prep
class
recycle two boxes
I had some consequences of procrastination today...I am moving, so current landlord came by to check property. Most of it was OK, but my "nest", i.e, my room, was filthy and crowded with papers
, and the carpet smelled like dog pee....
so this will make it harder to get deposit back.
I've been trying to work the steps, have done some of the moral inventory, have had to face up to consequences my procrastination has had, not just for me, but for my own son and daughter, who have had less resources and poor role modeling from me...and for my students, who often did not get the feedback they needed to improve, because I was so slow or even never got papers graded and returned to them. I know that the next step is being willing and making amends to those I have harmed....this is daunting.
It makes me very ashamed to consider this, which is why, of course, I avoid that pain by procrastinating, playing games, listening to audiobooks, dealing with other people's problems, etc.
But the bill always comes due, eventually. Denial, as they say in other twelfth step programs, is not just a river in Egypt...it is a mental defense that keeps us "stuck" in our bad habits.
CI Do It Now
Feels great t o be the first poster.
Goals for today:
do time sheets
Call RK DONE LM
send 3 resumes and refs to TF
progress not Prefectoin