Friday 8 May 2009

Had a pretty goof day- got to gym, school (only 1 minute late), took son to job interview, home.

I feel like I should be doing something "exciting" but all I have time for is the store.

I need to write and shre some of my procratination tasks on line. It feels so humiliating to share them, but I found that when I do, I somehow end up doing them. The truth is no one problably even remembers what I share, much less judges,in fact I get the support I need,  but somehow I want to hide what they are. They are not getting done using this method.

So I plan to share  more.

a really successful morning so far and I would like to see the day continue that way. so far: up, teeth brushed, bed made and room straightened, kitchen straightened, dish drainer cleared, dishes done, table washed, recycling out, bathroom wiped, shower taken, meds taken, dog walked, breakfast eaten. that took me 2 hours, but 45 minutes of it was walking the dog, which allowed me to drop off some mail.

Today's day is focused on a meeting I have at 5 with my sponsor and a 12 step meeting at 6. Before I meet with her I would like to review my reading and finish up whatever has not been done. Also, planning dinner: there are lots of leftovers, so I would like to make a meal of those. shifting a load of laundry would be good: otherwise my day would best be spent working on taxes and other dining room related paperwork. note to self: do pt exercises.
chatbox would be best as a work motivator today.

have a good day everyone.

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Mark Twain

Thanks for the starter chickadee - wonderful encouragement today - and helps me not be as hard on myself.

I actually have made progress on this job2 everyday, but  progress has been slow - the design part - and I give in to fear and avoidance of it at some point in the day – if I was on schedule this would be fine, taking a few steps a day, but being behind it is better than nothing but not going to get deadline met – so today is the day to pray and push thru to finish the last few steps.  (something GS said struck me - stalled and tortured myself over it - yep, thats what I've done with this job which forces me to "Herculean effort" this week, today) progress not perfection!

 My Word and prayer for the day: 2 Cor 12:9 (the message translation)

“My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.”  Help me receive today Lord! 

My to do list: 

Read Bible/Pray, Dd school,

Very proud of myself for checking my voicemail - i never do - BAD habit - also don't always answer my phone - working on that one- but there was a dd bday message i wanted to save for her so that forced me to finally check so I wouldn't lose it- like with my email, maybe now that backlog is gone I can maintain better - nice to not have the mail full icon on my phone for once!!

jobM  confirm payment, order supplies

Job2 – sample/all parts, invoice, emails  Almost done, FINALLY!

12n School for teacher program, Library, store returns, call bank

Job M – card proofs (by Sat aft), email,

email jobCC, photos

something fun with dd

Focus on what I have done. Not plans on paper today. Just do stuff.

hope-faith

Thanks for the start chickadee. For today...

1. Review brochure and send to PN (don't know how long this will take so will spend 3.5 hours today)
2. Ring TonyP, laminate articles, send solar paperwork
3. Work on priority webpages

And tonight - brush teeth instead of thinking I can't be bothered